((( Thug Love )))) (((( Chapter 9 )))))
I realize you all have been waiting for the next part of this story i been really busy so i kind of rush through this chapter but i'm working on the next to chapters and they are coming soon
Its a early saturday morning and I'm awaken by the sound of my alarm clock. I immediately get up and start getting ready for work. While brushing my teeth i get a text from Jay, he's at work and he's texting me as he has done every morning we don't wake up together. we chat briefly via text and afterward i finish getting ready for work. Usually my drive to and from work are the best parts of my day. I 'm in my car alone reflecting on my life. Lately i've been thinking allot about the story Jay told me ( see chapter 8) and i've been trying to go deeper into his mind so i can understand him. I don't understand how a person can make you feel like they love and hate you simultaneously. I wanted to help Jay but how can i help someone i don't understand?; someone so quick tempered. I get to work and after getting out of my car i feel weird. My stomach feels twisted and upset. I rush from my car to my job's restroom because i feel like I'm about to *****. Upon getting to the restroom I stood over the toilet but nothing happened. I left the restroom and began my work day. Four hours into my shift i started feeling just as i did that morning only worst. My manager told me i looked horrible and i should leave work and go to the doctor. I disagreed and first but she insisted and i decided she was right so i clocked out and headed home. On my drive home I'm worried about how would jay deal with me being sick. Its a stupid thought but i always wanted to please him and i worried that me being sick would turn him off. By now he's home and probably sleep. I hope to feel better by the time he wakes up and it will be as if I wasn't sick at all. I arrive home and i head toward my apartment. I ease in very slow because Jay is a lite sleeper and i didn't want to wake him. My first stop is the restroom, i feel the need to ***** i hope that after i have done so I'll feel better. So there i was, hanging over the toilet with my earphones playing LL Cool J's " headsprug" ( i had my work out playlist going lol) waiting to ***** but nothing ever came up. After a few minutes i got tired of leaning over the toilet so i took my earphones off and just stood in the mirror. This way i could stay close to the toilet. while still in the restroom i hear a loud noise coming from my bedroom, it sounded as if something fell against the wall. As i walked closer to my room i heard a female moaning and screaming Jay's name as the headboard pounded against the wall. I don't believe it, he's fucking a girl in my apartment in my bed. I walked toward the door to be sure and i can hear her having an orgasm and i can hear him talking nasty to her calling her baby while enjoying vaginal intercourse with her. It's like i can feel them having sex. I could feel that he was on top of her pinning her down thrusting his dick inside her pussy. He was fucking the shit out of her and she was enjoying every moment of it. I want to break down the door and kill them both but i can't, Jay and i are closeted gays, we are suppose to be cousins not lovers. So i go into the kitchen and make a bunch of loud noises (slamming cabinets and turning on the blender) minute later they come out of the room, she is fully dressed and he's wearing only his boxers briefs. On the way out she speaks to me and i give her a look of disgust. She says " whats wrong with your cousin he didn't speak back" Jays says " he good probably had a bad day at work". After letting her out he walks towards the bedroom saying " look man i don't feel like arguing right now" i said " ****a you aint shit, i wonder how she would feel knowing she just let a fag fuck her" he turned to me and said " baby it wasn't even like that, i just wanted to be with a chick for a change you act like you got a pussy or something, i didn't think you was going to be home so early" i said "Jay you always comparing me to girls, the reason why i don't have tits, hips or a pussy is because I'm a dude, you been fucking me this long you should know that," he Say's while walking towards me " and i love you for who you are baby, i don't expect you to understand, look i love you i would die for you but from time to time i want to be with a female, i didn't fuck her raw, i know you may think its fucked up but I'm not trying to hurt you, she don't mean shit to me she just a good fuck but you got my heart baby can't nobody compete with that, you a man just like i am you know how shit can be" i looked at him and the look in his eyes was so sincere I was so confused right now. Is this how a gay relationship is suppose to be? am i behaving like a nagging female if i question his actions? should i just except the fact that he is a young bisexual man at his sexual peek and as long as he protect himself i shouldn't worry? I began to think maybe I'm being unrealistic by wanting him to be faithful to me i mean people cheat and get cheated on every day even married people is it that big of a deal?
Its a early saturday morning and I'm awaken by the sound of my alarm clock. I immediately get up and start getting ready for work. While brushing my teeth i get a text from Jay, he's at work and he's texting me as he has done every morning we don't wake up together. we chat briefly via text and afterward i finish getting ready for work. Usually my drive to and from work are the best parts of my day. I 'm in my car alone reflecting on my life. Lately i've been thinking allot about the story Jay told me ( see chapter 8) and i've been trying to go deeper into his mind so i can understand him. I don't understand how a person can make you feel like they love and hate you simultaneously. I wanted to help Jay but how can i help someone i don't understand?; someone so quick tempered. I get to work and after getting out of my car i feel weird. My stomach feels twisted and upset. I rush from my car to my job's restroom because i feel like I'm about to *****. Upon getting to the restroom I stood over the toilet but nothing happened. I left the restroom and began my work day. Four hours into my shift i started feeling just as i did that morning only worst. My manager told me i looked horrible and i should leave work and go to the doctor. I disagreed and first but she insisted and i decided she was right so i clocked out and headed home. On my drive home I'm worried about how would jay deal with me being sick. Its a stupid thought but i always wanted to please him and i worried that me being sick would turn him off. By now he's home and probably sleep. I hope to feel better by the time he wakes up and it will be as if I wasn't sick at all. I arrive home and i head toward my apartment. I ease in very slow because Jay is a lite sleeper and i didn't want to wake him. My first stop is the restroom, i feel the need to ***** i hope that after i have done so I'll feel better. So there i was, hanging over the toilet with my earphones playing LL Cool J's " headsprug" ( i had my work out playlist going lol) waiting to ***** but nothing ever came up. After a few minutes i got tired of leaning over the toilet so i took my earphones off and just stood in the mirror. This way i could stay close to the toilet. while still in the restroom i hear a loud noise coming from my bedroom, it sounded as if something fell against the wall. As i walked closer to my room i heard a female moaning and screaming Jay's name as the headboard pounded against the wall. I don't believe it, he's fucking a girl in my apartment in my bed. I walked toward the door to be sure and i can hear her having an orgasm and i can hear him talking nasty to her calling her baby while enjoying vaginal intercourse with her. It's like i can feel them having sex. I could feel that he was on top of her pinning her down thrusting his dick inside her pussy. He was fucking the shit out of her and she was enjoying every moment of it. I want to break down the door and kill them both but i can't, Jay and i are closeted gays, we are suppose to be cousins not lovers. So i go into the kitchen and make a bunch of loud noises (slamming cabinets and turning on the blender) minute later they come out of the room, she is fully dressed and he's wearing only his boxers briefs. On the way out she speaks to me and i give her a look of disgust. She says " whats wrong with your cousin he didn't speak back" Jays says " he good probably had a bad day at work". After letting her out he walks towards the bedroom saying " look man i don't feel like arguing right now" i said " ****a you aint shit, i wonder how she would feel knowing she just let a fag fuck her" he turned to me and said " baby it wasn't even like that, i just wanted to be with a chick for a change you act like you got a pussy or something, i didn't think you was going to be home so early" i said "Jay you always comparing me to girls, the reason why i don't have tits, hips or a pussy is because I'm a dude, you been fucking me this long you should know that," he Say's while walking towards me " and i love you for who you are baby, i don't expect you to understand, look i love you i would die for you but from time to time i want to be with a female, i didn't fuck her raw, i know you may think its fucked up but I'm not trying to hurt you, she don't mean shit to me she just a good fuck but you got my heart baby can't nobody compete with that, you a man just like i am you know how shit can be" i looked at him and the look in his eyes was so sincere I was so confused right now. Is this how a gay relationship is suppose to be? am i behaving like a nagging female if i question his actions? should i just except the fact that he is a young bisexual man at his sexual peek and as long as he protect himself i shouldn't worry? I began to think maybe I'm being unrealistic by wanting him to be faithful to me i mean people cheat and get cheated on every day even married people is it that big of a deal?
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