Why I am writing this bloggy

Why? I am not real sure. I feel like I need to get some of these thoughts out of my head. I know, well, I think.... It don't work that way. Sometimes I feel like Johnny Nemonic, Like there is so much stuff in my head, and I need to get it out. I seem to retain some pretty useless stuff. But yet I don't remember names that well. Email addresses yes, but not names.

I remember stupid stuff too. And holding a grudge, don't even get me started on that.

So, this blog? Is it supposed to be sexy? Just a place to put your thoughts? I am not sure my thoughts should be discussed. Especially now. I'm kind of in a mood. Not necessarily bad, just a mood. I think the main part is, I spend alot of time alone. Almost prefer it that way. I think i do, at least. I think about how kool it would be to have a good friend. Now I do have a great friend, but not like I'm talking about. He don't come and hang out. He has a regular job, and I'm self employed.

OK, so everything is bothering me, this close to Christmas, we have no tree, none of the presents are wrapped, my phone is screwed up, business is slow, family is coming over for dinner on Christmas eve. (All 25 of them) And Im making dinner. And don't know what!!

Usually make Mexican. So I need to figure out a quick easy , buffet like setup. I watch the Food network, and the cooking channel all the damn time, but here lately, It has been Italian, or something weird.

So, any help would be greatly appreciated.

And if this is supposed to be sexy.... I'm sorry. Maybe the next one will be.