Cock?

there is one thing i noticed about me. in real life outside the internet i love girls and wouldn't want to be with anyone else accept a girl. but on my computer all my porn site profiles and folders with porn pictures are about 80% pictures of cock, gay porn, shemales ect... i have a lot of gay porn on my computer! and i love chatting with other guys too on the computer. i actually saw a guys cock in real life cus i asked him to show me and it was nice and smooth but i just didn't like seeing one in person but when i see one on the internet its one of the hottest things i could see. i dont get it.