Cousins Wife

Ok, this has been going on for nearly a decade. I have always been attracted to her. Well my dad got remarried about a year ago, and had a little get together at a restaurant. Anyways, her husband (my cousin) was drunk and talking with the guys. Meanwhile, his wife (the one I want), some other family relatives and I are outside in the patio area. She was sitting next to me, and I was a bit buzzed, anyways, I kept on "touching" her upper thigh near her pussy all night and she did not move my hand once. The situation climaxed near the end of the party when she wanted to go, we were alone, talking and asked if I was seeing anyone which I replied I had a few lovers who were quite older than me. I asked her if she had ever cheated to which she replied no. I asked her if she has ever been with a younger guy to which she replied no. I asked her if she would want to be with me, she didn't say no but rather something in the likes of it cant happen. After being a pest with her, she told me, if you can get my husband to stop talking to the guys so I can go home I'll think about it. I got it done, only to my surprise the idiot was completely drunk, hadn't seen me in years and told me to come over with my sister that night since they lived 5 minutes away. And so I did. Anyways, we went, chatted all together and all, when my sister was having a cigarette with my idiot cousin on the balcony, I made my move. I went into the kitchen where she was making coffee and gave her a few kisses on the lips, touched her ass and tits for awhile, unfortunately, I didn't touch her pussy nor did I slip the tongue. This went on for awhile and we almost got caught. Then while we were leaving we were all together and she told my cousin "I love him so much" while holding my hand on her tit RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. Anytime he looked away I would grab her ass. That night ended. A year later I saw her at my aunts, I tried grabbing her ass and she pulled my hand away. A year after that, I saw her at the community college I'm attending, little did I know she was also attending. Anyways, we saw each other at the library the first time, nothing happened. The second time I sat next to her on a big table yet really couldn't do anything since there were other people there too. Haven't seen her since. Do I have a chance with her?