My soulmate (broken love)

I didn't wanna write anything at first, because I don't know what to write. No, I do not have a crush. I do not know what I have. I've always believed in love, i believed in finding the one, the soulmate, and I believed in all the love stories i read. but this week I found myself in a loss of believe. I do not know what I believe in anymore. I am lost, and confused. And then, I think of her smile. & that alone drives me crazy, and I can feel my heart beating out of my chest, like my bones can't hold it in anymore. You see, I've tried to escape it, to hide it, but I can't. I can't hide the fact that I do believe you are my soulmate. You see, all these girls, they never meant anything, except you. Everytime I see you, I feel joy. I find myself smiling like a baby , and I can't help it. No one on this earth can make me laugh like you do. And no one can make me feel as happy as I am when you're around. No it's not love, because I've never loved before, and I don't really know what it's like; but I know one thing for sure, It breaks my heart, what we've become. I look back on how you used to be, and how I didn't see it back then, and there's no one to blame but myself .. But I know that no matter how many people I meet in my life, I'll always believe you are my soulmate.
No, we do not talk anymore, but you're always on my mind. I really do wish you will always smile, and I know one day you'll be shining, you're very smart. & I'll always be your number one fan, I'm always gonna be cheering for you ...
Please keep that beautiful smile on your face, one day,it will brighten the day of one lucky guy , they way it lights up my life now ♥.