As a transgerdered girl, who really want so cuttin

and seems no place to turn for my answers, anyone got any idea where us girls can go for answers, i want to operations, but i want to know more about them what all there is to them, and cost, and just where to go to get these operations with in my state alaska, first things first, is this girl wants that cursed thing removed from between these great legs, everyone says i have, that penis is a curse to me, always has been, girls like me shouldnt have such a thing between theyre legs, i am really a woman, id love to give birth if it were possible, i really think id make a great mother, and i love being a homemaker for along time, most all my life, yes i love cleaning house, and doing the laundry, washing windows and such, and they say i am z very good cook, and baker, i love to put on lotions and make my skin soft, i even keep my body totally hairless, soft and smooth at all times, and its natural for this girl to sit to pee all the time, you see i am a woman, and getting that cursed thing removed would make this girl feel so much better, i ve been doing provera for afew months now, and it seems to work the best for this girl, as i want natural grow breasts, not implants, and i want to be 36b at least, i am now a 36aa, 30 36, at 6ft, 160, and i want to loose even more weight, i want to be 145, is this girl asking to much, i think not, i just want to be more of the girl i was meant to be, of should have been at birth, is there any where this girl can get answers, especailly with in the state alaska, anchorage is the closet large city to me, that where i figure i ll have to go to get things done, but who do i see, and what is the cost, and where can a girl get help with the cost of these operations, so many questions, and do know where to turn, please help me, kisses miss robertajean sisson, willowbilly_99688@yahoo.com