I dream of exposure!

I, almost every night! Its one of my deepest darkest fantasies. I cant help but toy with the idea of having somone, or many ppl slowly ruining my life by making my sexual deviancy public. im already ashamed of myself, but my sickening fetishes and sexual kinks would make me something beyond shameful. And yet being taunted, made fun of, belittled... its so appealing. I dont know half the time whether to beg to be exposed or run away from my fetish! Maybe thats why i have locked up my embarrassing porn on xhamster. I love taking pics and vids of what i do. Putting them online makes my dick just leak pre so much. And when im so horny i cant stand it, i take the passwords off and fap to the thought that one of you is just waiting to copy my pics and vids to other sites, throwing me out, naked, into the world for all my fantasies to come true. Alas when i finally cum, usually quickly, i turn the passwords back on and spend the next 30 minutes searching the web for any trace of me. Im almost sad when i dont find anything, and relived. I dream of exposure, every-night...