All Alone
All Alone
They were all gone, the rest of the family, they had taken off and wouldn’t be returning until this evening around dinner time. I had been waiting very anxiously and with great trepidation for today to arrive and here it was at last, all mine to do with as I chose and I knew exactly what I was going to do.
I walked upstairs and down the hall and stood in front of a closed bedroom door. I was nervous and very excited for what I was about to do. My hands were sweating as I grabbed and turned the knob that opened the door. I opened the door and walked in…stood in the middle of the room and smelled the wonderful smells. The room belonged to my sister. It smelled of all the wonderful aromas of a girl. I closed my eyes, stood and took in all the sweetness around me. I was hard as a rock already….wow…….I knew it would feel like this..I have been building up to this moment for a long time now….
I was 13 at the time it really started; but I was always attracted to girl’s clothes more than mine. I would stare at the dresses and skirts they wore and always try to glimpse the panties underneath…I have an especially strong love for panties. Just a small peek would get me excited and make me hard. I wanted in my deepest heart to try some on too. I don’t know where this feeling came from…I don’t desire boys…I love girls; but girls clothes turn me on. My Mom took me shopping and I would try to hang out in the woman’s dept looking at all the beautiful dresses and panties. I believe my Mom knew; but never said anything to me.
Down the street lived a girl I went to school with; we always took the same bus to and from school and hung out and talked. She always wore a skirt or a dress and was pretty casual about how she sat and I caught a lot of her panties. I especially loved her panties because they fit snug and she had a fat pussy.
One day we were on the bus home and we both sat on the last seat in the back talking. She turned to me twisting her body and raising her knee on the seat. This also forced her skirt up and I could see the whole front of her tight pink panties. The position she sat also forced the material into her pussy and her plump lips were prominently displayed. I couldn’t help it, I stared and I got hard under my jeans.
“You like?” she asked, “You like my panties don’t you?”
“Oh yes” I whispered, still staring. “ I love them, I can’t help it..they really turn me on.”
She took my hand and brought it to the front of her panties and placed my hand on the material and started rubbing herself with my fingers. I was hot, nervous, shaking with desire and harder than I’d ever been in my life so far. I started moving my fingers between her panty covered pussy lips up and down just staring at those panties, now getting wet. She moaned quietly and placed her hand on my seriously throbbing cock and squeezed…Jesus!..she was pushing her pussy up against my fingers as I rubbed her faster, the panties were now soaked. Suddenly she turned beet red, stiffened and starting shaking and quivering filling her panties with more liquid….she squeezed down again on my cock and I explode in my jeans in an incredibly intense orgasm like I never had before that’s for sure. I was light headed and a bit dizzy as our bus slowed down to our stop.
We got off the bus, I held my books in front so no one would notice the wet stain. We looked at each other shyly and started for our respective homes each lost in whatever thoughts…I was thinking what an incredible school year this was going to be and running that whole bus incident over and over in my head..wow her panties got soaked…I realized I was hard again and close to home so I concentrated, tried to concentrate on other subjects so my Mom wouldn’t see me hard. Once again the future flashed through my mind and the next time we ride the bus together. I snuck past my Mom and changed pants before she saw me with cum stained clothes.
Unfortunately we live in the real world and fantasy seldom turns to reality. The next day my friend was not on the bus and I didn’t have any classes with her. After school as I was going to catch my bus I saw her Mom there to pick her up…she saw me, looked very unpleasant and turned away…my heart entered my throat..Carolyn came out, saw me, shook her head no and ran to get in the car. Later I found out we were seen on the bus and it got back to her Mother…I never saw her panties again. It also got back to my Mother and I got the standard balling out; but I got the feeling that my Mom didn’t really care and I got off light. That incident and those wet panties on that girl kept me masturbating constantly….then something else happened that changed everything.
I finally got a computer for my room. And it had cable modem so it was fast. Of course what does a *********** boy think about…sex..porn…those first few weeks I saw many different kinds of porn and sex…I was always stroking my hard smooth cock. Then one day a pic came up of a boy about my age wearing a deep blue dress sitting in a chair with his knees raised on the chair seat showing a pair of baby blue panties and a hard cock underneath. He had long hair and was well made up. His one arm was between his legs and his hand gently wrapped around his panty clad cock. There was a wet spot on the material by the head of the hard cock. He had plump lips and his eyes were half closed. It was the most erotic picture I had ever seen. My hand was squeezing and caressing my hardness….I knew at that moment I wanted to look like that boy in the pic, be that boy…feel myself through those nylon panties..wear that dress…
I unzipped my jeans and slid them down my thighs…my hard cock stood up and I grabbed it with my hand and softly stroked up and down it’s length I could not look away from the screen, the boy on the screen was so alluring and sexy….I imagined him stroking himself through the panties he was wearing, bring himself closer to cumming into his panties…I moved my hand faster now..I was soo horny and hot…I closed my eyes and watched the boy stroke himself and finally I couldn’t hold back we came together, powerful waves of orgasmic heaven. I sat there with my head back and my eyes closed coming down from that wild orgasm. I knew that no matter what I had to find some clothes to wear…I wanted to look like this boy and know what it felt like to be dressed as a girl. It hit me suddenly that I just masturbated to a pic of a boy…a beautiful female boy; but a boy notwithstanding. Am I gay?...I still like girls…I just want to look like one.
So I got on my computer and starting researching everything to do with with crossdressing, transgendering, ladyboys…ladyboys…I brought up a sight that featured ladyboys from Thailand. They were beautiful and sexy..they looked like women but had boy parts…I hit play on one of the vids and a gorgeous ladyboy came on the screen wearing a schoolgirl outfit, short pleated skirt and white blouse. She danced a bit and then raised her skirt in front to show white panties and hard cock…my temperature rose as did my cock…the ladyboy on the screen started squeezing, rubbing and caressing her large bulge through her panties. Her face had a look of pure sensuousness and she moaned as she played with herself. I was in heaven…I never knew anything like this existed…the ladyboy put her hand inside her panties and started seriously stroking…I put mine inside my shorts and did the same…I watched in fascination as she stroked faster and faster..I matched her movements with my own until she looked into the camera and whispered, “ I cum” and unloaded inside the white schoolgirl panties she wore totally soaking the material with several blasts..she groaned sexily with each blast and I lost it too inside the shorts I wore, another massive pulsing orgasm washed over me and I thought I would pass out it was so strong…my God…what is going on with me? I saved the page I was on and signed off. I needed to shower and clean up.
I jumped in the shower and thought about everything that had come to pass in the last several months of my new exploration into alternative sexuality. At first I was ashamed about my feelings and was worried something was really wrong with me. I couldn’t understand these feminine feelings I was experiencing. But as I explored and researched, I saw that it was quite common for boys to feel this way and it was quite widespread. Everything I read said it was ok…not to be afraid and celebrate these feelings. I found a couple of sites for discussion and talked about it with others I met..as a matter of fact have made some new friends.
So anyway, I just found out the whole family is leaving for a day to take my sister, who is one year older than me to a recital of some sort and I get to stay home by myself. This made me very excited knowing I was going to be home alone. I was finally going to bring my plan to fruition. Just thinking about it made me nervous and turned on.
My sister is a beautiful girl..we get along very well. She understands my feelings…she is the only one I can talk to about certain things although she isn’t aware of my strong desire to dress like a girl, she knows how sensitive I am. She knows I love panties. I can’t tell you how many times she’s caught me staring at or trying to stare at hers. She walks around the house in panties and t shirt when no one else is around but me and her. She likes me to look so I do. She looks at my crotch and sees my erection poking out. Twice she backed into me seemingly accidentally; but pushed her round butt into my throbbing hard on. The second time I grabbed her hips and pulled her back so my cock was nestled along her butt ….we were pushing against each other until we heard Mom coming home…we both ran to our rooms. That was a couple days ago and we haven’t had time since ..neither of us has spoken about the incident.
So now here I am standing in my sister’s room. Today I fulfill my desire. I look around noticing everything..I’ve been in here before with her but never alone, not like this. I walk over to her closet and open it to reveal my sisters clothes…oh the smells and the colors..I reach down and squeeze my hardness..easy…calm down…I know exactly what I want to wear, my s*s has a beautiful deep purple satin dress and I grab the hangar it’s on. I lay it on her bed and feel the smooth sexy material..throb..I take off all my clothes and stand in the middle of my sisters room naked, my cock sticking out in front, harder than I’ve ever been. Being naked in my sister’s room is overwhelming so I sit on the bed next to the dress. The color catches my eyes, I fondle the material again and my cock jumps again. Getting to my feet again I walk to my sister’s dresser and open her top drawer. There all folded neatly is a feast to my eyes..rows of panties, cotton, nylon, all for me. I don’t want to make it look like I’ve been here so I choose a light violet silky feeling pair and remove them from the drawer. Just holding them in my hands is too much, my cock is dripping so I go into the bathroom and pull on it until it cums mightily while still holding the silky panties.
Back in her room, I raise one foot and then the other and slide the sliky material slowly up my legs. The feeling was indescribable…so soft and sexy..exactly like I thought it would be…I fit them over my half hard cock and turn to the mirror. The panties look just awesome and felt even more so. I can’t help it and touch myself through the material. It’s impossible to describe that moment when I first touched myself through panties…I almost came immediately, the soft exquisite feeling of silky nylon tightly encasing my now raging cock..wetness starting flowing freely and the panties darkened a little…I forced myself to stop rubbing the panties and sat back down on the bed to catch my breath.
It was time. I took the beautiful purple satin dress and pulled it over my head. Again the feeling of the satin on my skin and just the knowledge that I was finally wearing a dress almost put me over the edge. I had a million synapses firing off all at once..I had to look and I got to my feet and stood in front of my sister’s full length mirror. It was perfect…I loved it..it fit almost perfectly..tightly at the top with a skirt that flared out about 2 inches above the knee. I wore my hair long so with my baby face I actually looked like a girl. I moved and walked in front of the mirror watching how the dress moved.
I looked at the clock..the afternoon was wearing on. I didn’t want to push my luck; but I wanted to walk around the house dressed like this so I went down and sat in the living room on the couch, every movement feeling the satin material against my skin sent my nerve ends firing with sexual energy. I sat back on the couch and put my heels up on the couch, the dress falling open, exposing the silky panties I wore. I swear my cock grew 2 inches that day..I was huge and aching, a large wet mark now as I leaked freely. I lay my head back on a cushion and encircled my hardness through the panties. I slowly moved my fingers and hand along the length spreading the wetness at the tip making my cock jerk when I did…I groaned outloud..it didn’t matter anymore, I was beyond care. I squeezed hard and ran my fist up and down my panty encased cock..I could feel it coming, my hips thrust into the air and the most powerful feeling ever washed over me..I moaned loudly and filled those silky panties with a huge load of wet sticky cum. My back was arched, my hips in the air as I thrust for what seems like an hour squeezing hard on my cock and spreading the wetness all over the front of the panties. When I finally looked down, the front of the beautiful panties were soaked clear through.
All of a sudden I came to my senses…shit!...I don’t want to stain this dress so I very carefully took the panties off and also the dress as I sat there. I took the dress back to my sister’s room, hung it back up as it was and had just enough time to wash and dry her panties I used.
I was incredibly excited at what I had just done..nothing would ever be the same. I had to find a way to dress more often and get myself my own clothes. I especially wanted my own panties…that was just too exciting and an amazing sexual turn on..I had to wear some again soon.
The laundry was done and folded the panties I used just like the others and put them back in the drawer. I stared at all the panties thinking of which ones I saw her in the most, she def had her favs. It was getting late and I reluctantly closed the drawer. Shit..I opened it back up and dug underneath all her favs and found a pair I didn’t think she wore anymore, light blue nylon and stuffed them in my pocket. I then closed everything all up and left her room and went to mine and hid the panties I just borrowed. I couldn’t wait for more alone time.
They were all gone, the rest of the family, they had taken off and wouldn’t be returning until this evening around dinner time. I had been waiting very anxiously and with great trepidation for today to arrive and here it was at last, all mine to do with as I chose and I knew exactly what I was going to do.
I walked upstairs and down the hall and stood in front of a closed bedroom door. I was nervous and very excited for what I was about to do. My hands were sweating as I grabbed and turned the knob that opened the door. I opened the door and walked in…stood in the middle of the room and smelled the wonderful smells. The room belonged to my sister. It smelled of all the wonderful aromas of a girl. I closed my eyes, stood and took in all the sweetness around me. I was hard as a rock already….wow…….I knew it would feel like this..I have been building up to this moment for a long time now….
I was 13 at the time it really started; but I was always attracted to girl’s clothes more than mine. I would stare at the dresses and skirts they wore and always try to glimpse the panties underneath…I have an especially strong love for panties. Just a small peek would get me excited and make me hard. I wanted in my deepest heart to try some on too. I don’t know where this feeling came from…I don’t desire boys…I love girls; but girls clothes turn me on. My Mom took me shopping and I would try to hang out in the woman’s dept looking at all the beautiful dresses and panties. I believe my Mom knew; but never said anything to me.
Down the street lived a girl I went to school with; we always took the same bus to and from school and hung out and talked. She always wore a skirt or a dress and was pretty casual about how she sat and I caught a lot of her panties. I especially loved her panties because they fit snug and she had a fat pussy.
One day we were on the bus home and we both sat on the last seat in the back talking. She turned to me twisting her body and raising her knee on the seat. This also forced her skirt up and I could see the whole front of her tight pink panties. The position she sat also forced the material into her pussy and her plump lips were prominently displayed. I couldn’t help it, I stared and I got hard under my jeans.
“You like?” she asked, “You like my panties don’t you?”
“Oh yes” I whispered, still staring. “ I love them, I can’t help it..they really turn me on.”
She took my hand and brought it to the front of her panties and placed my hand on the material and started rubbing herself with my fingers. I was hot, nervous, shaking with desire and harder than I’d ever been in my life so far. I started moving my fingers between her panty covered pussy lips up and down just staring at those panties, now getting wet. She moaned quietly and placed her hand on my seriously throbbing cock and squeezed…Jesus!..she was pushing her pussy up against my fingers as I rubbed her faster, the panties were now soaked. Suddenly she turned beet red, stiffened and starting shaking and quivering filling her panties with more liquid….she squeezed down again on my cock and I explode in my jeans in an incredibly intense orgasm like I never had before that’s for sure. I was light headed and a bit dizzy as our bus slowed down to our stop.
We got off the bus, I held my books in front so no one would notice the wet stain. We looked at each other shyly and started for our respective homes each lost in whatever thoughts…I was thinking what an incredible school year this was going to be and running that whole bus incident over and over in my head..wow her panties got soaked…I realized I was hard again and close to home so I concentrated, tried to concentrate on other subjects so my Mom wouldn’t see me hard. Once again the future flashed through my mind and the next time we ride the bus together. I snuck past my Mom and changed pants before she saw me with cum stained clothes.
Unfortunately we live in the real world and fantasy seldom turns to reality. The next day my friend was not on the bus and I didn’t have any classes with her. After school as I was going to catch my bus I saw her Mom there to pick her up…she saw me, looked very unpleasant and turned away…my heart entered my throat..Carolyn came out, saw me, shook her head no and ran to get in the car. Later I found out we were seen on the bus and it got back to her Mother…I never saw her panties again. It also got back to my Mother and I got the standard balling out; but I got the feeling that my Mom didn’t really care and I got off light. That incident and those wet panties on that girl kept me masturbating constantly….then something else happened that changed everything.
I finally got a computer for my room. And it had cable modem so it was fast. Of course what does a *********** boy think about…sex..porn…those first few weeks I saw many different kinds of porn and sex…I was always stroking my hard smooth cock. Then one day a pic came up of a boy about my age wearing a deep blue dress sitting in a chair with his knees raised on the chair seat showing a pair of baby blue panties and a hard cock underneath. He had long hair and was well made up. His one arm was between his legs and his hand gently wrapped around his panty clad cock. There was a wet spot on the material by the head of the hard cock. He had plump lips and his eyes were half closed. It was the most erotic picture I had ever seen. My hand was squeezing and caressing my hardness….I knew at that moment I wanted to look like that boy in the pic, be that boy…feel myself through those nylon panties..wear that dress…
I unzipped my jeans and slid them down my thighs…my hard cock stood up and I grabbed it with my hand and softly stroked up and down it’s length I could not look away from the screen, the boy on the screen was so alluring and sexy….I imagined him stroking himself through the panties he was wearing, bring himself closer to cumming into his panties…I moved my hand faster now..I was soo horny and hot…I closed my eyes and watched the boy stroke himself and finally I couldn’t hold back we came together, powerful waves of orgasmic heaven. I sat there with my head back and my eyes closed coming down from that wild orgasm. I knew that no matter what I had to find some clothes to wear…I wanted to look like this boy and know what it felt like to be dressed as a girl. It hit me suddenly that I just masturbated to a pic of a boy…a beautiful female boy; but a boy notwithstanding. Am I gay?...I still like girls…I just want to look like one.
So I got on my computer and starting researching everything to do with with crossdressing, transgendering, ladyboys…ladyboys…I brought up a sight that featured ladyboys from Thailand. They were beautiful and sexy..they looked like women but had boy parts…I hit play on one of the vids and a gorgeous ladyboy came on the screen wearing a schoolgirl outfit, short pleated skirt and white blouse. She danced a bit and then raised her skirt in front to show white panties and hard cock…my temperature rose as did my cock…the ladyboy on the screen started squeezing, rubbing and caressing her large bulge through her panties. Her face had a look of pure sensuousness and she moaned as she played with herself. I was in heaven…I never knew anything like this existed…the ladyboy put her hand inside her panties and started seriously stroking…I put mine inside my shorts and did the same…I watched in fascination as she stroked faster and faster..I matched her movements with my own until she looked into the camera and whispered, “ I cum” and unloaded inside the white schoolgirl panties she wore totally soaking the material with several blasts..she groaned sexily with each blast and I lost it too inside the shorts I wore, another massive pulsing orgasm washed over me and I thought I would pass out it was so strong…my God…what is going on with me? I saved the page I was on and signed off. I needed to shower and clean up.
I jumped in the shower and thought about everything that had come to pass in the last several months of my new exploration into alternative sexuality. At first I was ashamed about my feelings and was worried something was really wrong with me. I couldn’t understand these feminine feelings I was experiencing. But as I explored and researched, I saw that it was quite common for boys to feel this way and it was quite widespread. Everything I read said it was ok…not to be afraid and celebrate these feelings. I found a couple of sites for discussion and talked about it with others I met..as a matter of fact have made some new friends.
So anyway, I just found out the whole family is leaving for a day to take my sister, who is one year older than me to a recital of some sort and I get to stay home by myself. This made me very excited knowing I was going to be home alone. I was finally going to bring my plan to fruition. Just thinking about it made me nervous and turned on.
My sister is a beautiful girl..we get along very well. She understands my feelings…she is the only one I can talk to about certain things although she isn’t aware of my strong desire to dress like a girl, she knows how sensitive I am. She knows I love panties. I can’t tell you how many times she’s caught me staring at or trying to stare at hers. She walks around the house in panties and t shirt when no one else is around but me and her. She likes me to look so I do. She looks at my crotch and sees my erection poking out. Twice she backed into me seemingly accidentally; but pushed her round butt into my throbbing hard on. The second time I grabbed her hips and pulled her back so my cock was nestled along her butt ….we were pushing against each other until we heard Mom coming home…we both ran to our rooms. That was a couple days ago and we haven’t had time since ..neither of us has spoken about the incident.
So now here I am standing in my sister’s room. Today I fulfill my desire. I look around noticing everything..I’ve been in here before with her but never alone, not like this. I walk over to her closet and open it to reveal my sisters clothes…oh the smells and the colors..I reach down and squeeze my hardness..easy…calm down…I know exactly what I want to wear, my s*s has a beautiful deep purple satin dress and I grab the hangar it’s on. I lay it on her bed and feel the smooth sexy material..throb..I take off all my clothes and stand in the middle of my sisters room naked, my cock sticking out in front, harder than I’ve ever been. Being naked in my sister’s room is overwhelming so I sit on the bed next to the dress. The color catches my eyes, I fondle the material again and my cock jumps again. Getting to my feet again I walk to my sister’s dresser and open her top drawer. There all folded neatly is a feast to my eyes..rows of panties, cotton, nylon, all for me. I don’t want to make it look like I’ve been here so I choose a light violet silky feeling pair and remove them from the drawer. Just holding them in my hands is too much, my cock is dripping so I go into the bathroom and pull on it until it cums mightily while still holding the silky panties.
Back in her room, I raise one foot and then the other and slide the sliky material slowly up my legs. The feeling was indescribable…so soft and sexy..exactly like I thought it would be…I fit them over my half hard cock and turn to the mirror. The panties look just awesome and felt even more so. I can’t help it and touch myself through the material. It’s impossible to describe that moment when I first touched myself through panties…I almost came immediately, the soft exquisite feeling of silky nylon tightly encasing my now raging cock..wetness starting flowing freely and the panties darkened a little…I forced myself to stop rubbing the panties and sat back down on the bed to catch my breath.
It was time. I took the beautiful purple satin dress and pulled it over my head. Again the feeling of the satin on my skin and just the knowledge that I was finally wearing a dress almost put me over the edge. I had a million synapses firing off all at once..I had to look and I got to my feet and stood in front of my sister’s full length mirror. It was perfect…I loved it..it fit almost perfectly..tightly at the top with a skirt that flared out about 2 inches above the knee. I wore my hair long so with my baby face I actually looked like a girl. I moved and walked in front of the mirror watching how the dress moved.
I looked at the clock..the afternoon was wearing on. I didn’t want to push my luck; but I wanted to walk around the house dressed like this so I went down and sat in the living room on the couch, every movement feeling the satin material against my skin sent my nerve ends firing with sexual energy. I sat back on the couch and put my heels up on the couch, the dress falling open, exposing the silky panties I wore. I swear my cock grew 2 inches that day..I was huge and aching, a large wet mark now as I leaked freely. I lay my head back on a cushion and encircled my hardness through the panties. I slowly moved my fingers and hand along the length spreading the wetness at the tip making my cock jerk when I did…I groaned outloud..it didn’t matter anymore, I was beyond care. I squeezed hard and ran my fist up and down my panty encased cock..I could feel it coming, my hips thrust into the air and the most powerful feeling ever washed over me..I moaned loudly and filled those silky panties with a huge load of wet sticky cum. My back was arched, my hips in the air as I thrust for what seems like an hour squeezing hard on my cock and spreading the wetness all over the front of the panties. When I finally looked down, the front of the beautiful panties were soaked clear through.
All of a sudden I came to my senses…shit!...I don’t want to stain this dress so I very carefully took the panties off and also the dress as I sat there. I took the dress back to my sister’s room, hung it back up as it was and had just enough time to wash and dry her panties I used.
I was incredibly excited at what I had just done..nothing would ever be the same. I had to find a way to dress more often and get myself my own clothes. I especially wanted my own panties…that was just too exciting and an amazing sexual turn on..I had to wear some again soon.
The laundry was done and folded the panties I used just like the others and put them back in the drawer. I stared at all the panties thinking of which ones I saw her in the most, she def had her favs. It was getting late and I reluctantly closed the drawer. Shit..I opened it back up and dug underneath all her favs and found a pair I didn’t think she wore anymore, light blue nylon and stuffed them in my pocket. I then closed everything all up and left her room and went to mine and hid the panties I just borrowed. I couldn’t wait for more alone time.
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