Becoming a sissy

i used to be bi. i used to be a top with men cuz i had a big dick. now all i want to do is suck cock, be ordered by a man, dress like a slut, and maybe get fucked.
3 days ago i was walking down the street near the adult bookstore here. a car pulled over nearby and a fat, ugly old man waved at me to get in. unbelievably, i didn't even hesitate. he said he had seen me at the local bath house. then he just started driving, saying there was a good dead end up ahead. i didn't say anything. just sat there with my eyes down. he found a spot, moved his seat back and pointed at his crotch. without a word, i leaned over, pulled his sweat pants down and took his small cock in my mouth. he was uncut, and well, smelly. but it didn't matter. i made him hard, licked his balls, then started deepthroating what little he had. it didn't take long before he grabbed my head and i felt his cock throb in my mouth. he spurted a not so little load and i gulped it down eagerly. it was just all so nasty and disgusting, and i've jacked off at least 4 times thinking about it. fuck.....
i've been watching a lot of sissy hypnos lately and i really wonder if these are having an effect on me. a couple of the bottoms that i used to fuck have been calling, and i don't even want to play with them. i want to be a sissy, a slut, a cum dump.