Serenity Thank You For Toys
Mama Serenity:
First let me start by telling you how thankful I am that you allowed me to buy another inflatable butt-plug to be so filled up on by you at your discretion and mercy. There is nothing quite like the intensely wonderful feelings of my anal muscles and anal passage feeling slowly expanded and stretched out by the thick black rubber butt-plug as I'm completely helpless to stop it or its expansion within me no matter how full I already am at that moment in time. Out of every toy and object I've ever been fucked and filled by the black inflatable butt-plug is truly by far my favorite of all of them, and I've literally had a lot of dreams of it since I got rid of the last one to be quite honest. I would wake up feeling so empty and wanting so badly to just cry and beg you to please let me buy another one so I could be stuffed and filled with you again, if even only for another short period of time.
I was consumed thinking about the things I would offer you, and the things I would do to get another one, and the agreements I'd be willing to make to be filled by it again. When I was asking you questions about when and why you'd want me to be filled by it and you commented that it wouldn't do any good to hide it from me, because you knew I'd search it out to find it to play with it, I shut up because I knew how true your words were. But most seriously I would really like to hear your own answers, in your own words when and how long you'd like me to be stuffed on it for you. Truthfully I'd really like to hear all of your truthful and complete thoughts regarding the inflatable butt-plug, what really goes on in your head when you think about it and please do not hold back, I'd really like to know everything.
Truthfully I do wonder and question how far you think about me wearing this new plug for you, I ponder if you will want me to wear it for a set period of time each day, before play, during play, after play, if you wanted it to push the AB aspect and get me to completely submit during such a scene, or maybe you just agreed to me getting it because you knew how bad I wanted it. I do know that it is on its way and that it will take about two weeks to get here, so the estimated time of arrival is going to be the Friday following your next payday, so around about the 20th of the month. The poppers on the other hand should arrive in about one week, so they should arrive around the 13th of the month. Why does all this matter to me so much?
Well because I am working on some stuff inside my head to plan and plot out a special surprise for you, and in order for me to pull that off I need some serious and deep input from you about the things I ask you questions on and the things in which I'm pouring myself out to you about today, okay. So if you could find the time to write some sort of a response to me and the more detailed information you give me the better I could plan out this mega surprise for you and not disappoint you or go to far and offend you, which honestly are my two biggest worries and concerns in trying to plan all this out. Because quite honestly and simply what I am planning on at this point without telling you what it is or how it would work, is I am trying to plan out one major, big surprise which would be sudden for you as I'd just spring it upon you one day, but it would be something that would start out one day and perhaps continue on with surprises and bonuses for a couple to several more days afterward, as one surprise and gift would lead into the next...
Now I'd still need to buy like one to three more things that I haven't gotten yet, depending on your own answers to how far and how you'd like to see things go, but I'm a lot more concerned with the things I'm working on making and building which would go along with your surprises. These are going to take me a lot of hours of work, and I'm working my ass off around the clock learning and planning them out, but I will not even start the crafting of these until I get from you what you'd like to see or get overall from the plug to the poppers.
To try and put things into a better perspective for you I am so excited over this new inflatable butt-plug that is on its way that I have as you've seen been working on a self-inflating unit, so I could be restrained at your discretion or ahead of time before you came in to find me and catch me and be stuffed and not have any control over how much I'm stuffed or how fast until your arrival. Now this is a huge step for me because when it comes to playing privately or when it came to self-bondage previously in the years past I've always gone well out of my way to be secretive and go to some pretty great lengths to hide a lot of what I did, just not the fact I played. So for me to openly and willingly put myself out there and be willing to share this with you is a huge step for me and I sincerely and truly hope that it is something that brings you a great amount of joy as well.
I'm trying to take something as simple as this self-bondage inflation container for the inflatable butt-plug and share my thoughts, design, and explain every detail of how it should work and get your help with testing its design and making changes to it with you as well if need be. What I am in essence really trying to do is to bridge that gap between the world of my private play and bring you into every aspect of what really goes on inside my mind and share everything with you on every level for more intimacy between us. I'm hoping to be able to take this building experience and then use it to expand upon and share more things with you based off from the things I'm planning and figuring out the designs of how exactly I want some things built for select and certain purposes.
To try and make this all fit together for you it would be like this for an example:
First you know about the self-bondage self inflation container for the inflatable butt plug, so the idea and goal would be that if you walked into the room and found me sitting in the chair perhaps watching or listening to a movie (for example) that you wouldn't just rush out of the room and quote “give me some more alone time” because it very well maybe me trapped in there until you come in there to release me and the air from inside the plug. I need to get both of us past that bridge and get it to wear if you walk in and catch me playing that you do not walk out, but rather that you stick around and stay there and find out what is going on and act accordingly upon that.
Second maybe I did knowingly set things up and plan it out to be caught by you “in the act as it were” and if this is the case I'd like to be able to go the extra mile here and not have a safe out. Meaning point blank that once I am locked into it, I am seriously going to have to wait for you to walk in and catch me, release me, and get me out of whatever I've got set up, walking out and thinking you offended me or upset me is not going to be an option for me, and in order for me to be able to do this I have to know this as a guarantee that you will not walk out until you know full well what is going on and that I am safe to be left alone.
Three, I need you to know exactly how everything for the self-bondage and those types of items work, because some of the plans I am putting together for things is going to rely on timers like those exact same ones I'd use in self-bondage. In this type of a case-scenario you'd get a note in most cases and then walk in to “catch me” only instead of having to do anything to start playing with helpless little old me, I'd be there more as a sex doll for you to be able to watch and get enjoyment out of. In this example lets say I've got the inflatable enema plug in and I'm restrained with a self-bondage timer to release me accordingly around about a set time.
You know from a note that I'm expecting you and to come right on in and pull up a chair for the show which will already be in progress, so you walk in and know that the chair or spot I've set up for you and your vibrator sitting there is for you to sit back and enjoy the live show before you. Now in this kind of a scenario, your only required purpose is to be there to ensure things don't go wrong and that I don't need your help if that happens, otherwise I'm going to be solely at the mercy of the timers. If you would need to pay attention to something in particular in this kind of event I would make sure I told you about it in the note ahead of time, otherwise you'd just be in there for your own self enjoyment of watching what happens to me and not interfering unless you wanted to add a bonus to things. Otherwise you will be like the live movie playing for me, and I will be like the live movie playing for you.
So upon coming in and finding your seat ready with your vibrator you find that you can clear see I'm stuffed on the enema plug, and as you follow the enema hose up to the full enema bag you know there is no question what I'm in for when the timer releases what awaits me. Or perhaps the note tells you clearly to take note that the enema bag is sadly empty and that I'm going to be awaiting your golden nectar to be placed inside the bag for the time the enema is released into me. In that kind of a case-scenario perhaps I've gotten several bottles your favorite Ice Mountain Water ready and awaiting you along with a large bowl for you to fill while I watch. So while I sit there on my plug which is being expanded on its own without help, and I'm squirming away and you are chugging the water down because you don't want me to miss out on being filled even more when that enema is released, you are finally ready to give me more of a show than just watching you masturbate while I am helpless to help you. Then you tell me that you want to help me squirm a little bit more when that enema is released by filling up the enema bag for me, since you know how much I wanted you so deep inside me anyways.
Shortly there after you hear the sudden and unmistakable “CLICK” of the enema clamp having been released by the ice timer, and you watch on in pure enjoyment as I really squirm about unable to get away from being filled up on a golden enema for you while you give me a wonderful show of masturbating watching me squirm. Only after you've had your fill and enjoyed a nice orgasm do you get up to come release me before the other timer releases my hands, because when I'm done relieving myself of that you've got some other plans for me now... In this case the self-bondage scene was only the precursor to giving you time to plan out something more while giving you a nice show at the same time and getting me all wound up watching you masturbate in front of me helpless to touch you or do anything other than suffer for your enjoyment.
Fourth, in this scenario perhaps you came home earlier than expected, or caught me playing in the middle of the night, maybe I'm in self-bondage, maybe I'm just playing, in either case we are going to say it doesn't matter, the fact remains you caught me and I wasn't planning or meaning for you too. Now instead of walking away and leaving me to it, you decide to take control of this situation and turn this into a scene with you being the only one at the controls of how it goes from this point forward. Lets say I wasn't wearing cuffs when you caught me, but sitting on the inflatable butt-plug. I jump up seeing you and thus you realize I'm wearing the plug, and before I can try to hide what I was up to and doing, you demand I sit right back down, and in fact you walk over to the top drawer of the dresser and get the cuffs and locks because one thing is for sure this scene is going to continue as it was, but not with me at the controls anymore. Once the cuffs are locked on you lock me into place in the chair, because you want to get answers and information before assuming total control over what's going on, after all no need to pass up a scene already in progress.
Now you look to see what was I doing, looking at photos, a movie and you ask the question “What were you playing you? What was going on in your mind watching that? How long have you been playing before I walked in and caught you?”. I give you some half baked answer, and you are not overly thrilled with this so you add some more pumps to the plug and start with the questions all over, only this time I'm much more forth coming with my answers. I was watching a movie of someone being fisted, and I was imagining that you were doing that to me and stretching me out like that. So then you get into the questioning “Why don't I fist you like that already? Is it because you haven't been honest and forth coming in telling me that you want to be fisted like that by me? Or do you think its because you haven't been stretched out enough yet by me?” and then you start in on me to help me be more forth coming in either asking you for exactly what I want, or you keep me firmly planted on the plug and add some more pumps to help me along.
While I am clearly sitting there uncomfortably plugged for your pleasure and enjoyment, you decide you want me to watch the movie again, while you are going to sit there and enjoy masturbating yourself while you watch me, the movie or some of both and continue enjoying yourself. After the movie you decide a blindfold is in order, because you feel I need more time spent listening to you enjoying yourself without me being able to watch, since you want me to remember who's moans of pleasure and ecstasy I should be craving and desiring to hear when I'm being filled and stuffed like the nasty pig whore I am, FOR YOU!!! After you've felt I've had enough you ask me if I want to play for your enjoyment to orgasm for you, and of coarse you know I do, but as part of my punishment for not including you in my play, you are not going to include my thoughts, wishes and desires into what you plan for me at this point. So you tell me that you want to fist me to cum for you, but the only way you will fist me is bent over the bed restrained for you otherwise you'll just remove my plug now and I can wait until later in the day to be fisted by you, that single choice is mine, so what will it be?
The Fifth idea would be for you to require me to go spend some time ahead of time sitting on the plug prior to play, perhaps watching a movie, looking at a certain type of a photo, or even writing you out a fantasy, report, or just going and getting set up into self-bondage for you to walk in and catch me in when you are ready. Or perhaps you could or would reverse this by telling me to meet you in the room in XX-Amount of time and then upon walking in I catch you masturbating and you want to know if I'd like to watch, and if so you are going to require me to do the following including self-bondage because you do not want me interrupting your solo-play session, and when you are done enjoying yourself and watching me suffer for your enjoyment then you will find it within yourself to play with me as you see fit.
Those are the basic five self-bondage scenario’s I think of how self-bondage could or would go when I think of it being done with both of us being involved in some way, or how I envision being caught playing by you when not expecting you. I do not know if this would help you or not but I would be more than willing to help you by answering your questions for me if it would help you be more forth coming with me about what you want or fantasize about doing with me.
I do not know if this is even close to accurate or not, but in my own head I want to fantasize and believe that you wanted me to get the inflatable butt-plug because you want me to wear it for you enjoyment so I will wear it for you to get stretched out for your fist like you perhaps did for Miss Rita... I always turn to Miss Rita, because I want to believe that you enjoyed your time with her, that it is something that I can pull from and compare to in the hopes that you will be able to relate to an experience that you personally had and be able to say “yes, that is how I feel, yes that is what I want from you... Or no, that is not what I want from you, this is what I would like instead from you”.
When I saw you finish placing the order for the poppers, instead of having me do it as I assumed you typically would have done, in my head it said to me that you are really serious about wanting me to be plenty high on poppers and out of it when you fist fuck me. Which lead me to believe perhaps that the reason you wanted me to get the inflatable butt-plug and the poppers was because you really want to punch fuck me into true orgasmic bliss and submission at your mercy. Then when I started asking questions about AB and the scenario’s in which you might want the plug for I was more under the impression you really wanted the poppers and plug to ensure a deep level of submission from a really deep level of fisting.
That really got me to thinking beyond my original plans of what I was going to do for your surprise and then I really started thinking far outside the realms of what I was first willing to get and do for you to surprise you and blow you mind. Hence why it has become so increasingly important the past couple of days to really get out of you what you would like to do, or would like to plan on doing for play with this new inflatable butt-plug.
Going back to the way you acted when ordering the poppers, which really surprised me in a good way, it really got my mind rolling in what you really want and the things we might need for that, and how I could put it all together to really surprise you and blow your mind. Not exactly sure of how far you want or plan to go with the whole plug idea and aspect and based off your one answer of needing to restrain me for that which you seemed really confident in your answer of saying that I thought about talking to you about getting a plug harness.
I have looked at previously and again all kinds of plug harnesses for males and females, and the design I had before is the best one I've liked out of them all, and then its also the cheapest and it is also the only one I know of which is really made from actual leather. So overall its the best one in my opinion, I very much enjoyed it previously the one modification that I would want to see to it though would be a way of having it so it could be “locked on” so that if we were going to use it for something like AB play that it is not removable by me at least.
When we had it previously I admit I really very much enjoyed wearing the plug even when playing by myself while wearing the plug harness, I felt it made the plug more secure and more comfortable for play and yes even long term wear. In thinking about it all now, and all the things relating to self-bondage I have really thought about how the plug harness could be used (if locked on me) to secure me to a chair in place and firmly planted on the plug without any escape. Now I have thought it through and while I could make a special chair for restraining me while wearing the plug or make one of our own plug harnesses, I just do not believe it would be nearly as comfortable or as good as the leather one which I really enjoyed previously.
I've thought about all kinds of things in which you might require of me if I got the plug harness, and my mind has seriously raced on... but what I really need is your input and thoughts more than anything here. I want to know 100% bluntly, honestly, and truthfully what is it you really want out of this whole deal of the poppers and the inflatable butt-plug? Don't just keep it to them either if you have something deeper that your mind is thinking about beyond that. If you want the inflatable butt-plug, poppers, a vibrator for yourself and you would really like to push me deep into AB, but lack something for that speak up and tell me what it is and what you really want out of all this.
Do you want me to be stretched out so you can get me doggie-style and punch fuck me until I am willing to wear a diaper and submit as Mama's AB for an entire weekend, if so speak up and say it. The more you tell me about what you really want and need the better I'm going to be able to do for you in getting the things I want to get to surprise you with. Yesterday you spent $5 on a game without needing my permission and that is completely fine by me, its “OUR” money, is there something else you'd like to purchase for the upcoming scenarios that you want to surprise me with, speak up and say something. Lets talk about the types of things each of us may want to get and for who and go from there, so we don't make the same purchases twice, fair enough?
Depending on what you want or have planned to want to do with the plug, I have made you aware of the butt-plug harness and which one I would like to get if we would need such a thing. This item would require input from us both, so we could get it properly built as it is a custom made device and I have no issue in speaking with you about this matter openly. If after we speak about it and agree on everything (should it be something we agree to get) and then you later turned around with all the information and bought it without telling me and had it come in your name to the house I would not open it or ask what was inside the box if it was a surprise for me I am just using this as an example, okay? I do not know what you have planned, but I am trying to learn some things.
I of coarse am still waiting on you to tell me which vibrator you want, I had taken you to the store www.bigsextoystore.com to look, but I still am awaiting an answer from you from there.
Other stores I know to look from previous purchases for shopping at would be:
http://www.squarepegtoys.com
http://www.dungeonware.com
http://twistmyrubberarm.com/?w=1280
http://www.fetware.com
http://www.sextoysforless.com
http://www.extremerestraints.com
http://www.dhgate.com
Depending on how far you want to go with the whole fisting thing I have considered surprising you with a toy, which isn't a vibrator BTW. But I do not want to say anything more than that as I do not want to spoil any future surprise based off my plans of how I'd present it, etc... depending on what I learn from the information you give me about what you want from play.
Depending on AB things I've considered one or two surprises which I thought might or would be effective that would go along with this category depending on what you might be planning on wanting in this area for play.
Depending on how far you want to go with the control and dominant aspect of play I've considered looking at buying some sort of a gag for play.
Then I've been looking at the prospect of building one larger piece of furniture, which I could do with the things on hand and would be a fixture in our room because of its size for some intense types of play depending on where you want to go with play.
I've also figured out how to build a furniture/device in which is much smaller and could be built off from things on hand in which would be interesting again depending on what you have in mind of what and where you want to go with play.
Another couple of device I've look into building we have all the parts and supplies for, could be built to surprise you, again depending on what and where you want to go with things.
So hopefully you can see I've been thinking a lot about how to surprise you, set the scenes up for you and considering just how far you might be looking to go, but so much of all of this hinges on what you want, are thinking you want to go for play, and just how far you wish to blow my mind with the things you desire from all of this. So please I'm waiting to find out from you what are your thoughts and were do you want to go with all of this?
Plug Start:
I know that this is not going to be easy for me, or for you, but I want to at least make the sincere attempt by being forth coming and bluntly honest... When you were under Miss Rita I know she did anal training with you with butt-plugs to get you plenty stretched out for fisting, and if you weren't already well aware this fact has always intrigued me and I've always wanted you to write me as much information about it as you can, simply because I've always secretly wanted to in turn take that information and turn it into Story Photos and then turn it into a story of what I really want you to do to me. But I always have wanted to know more about what I am exactly asking for, before I go asking for something completely blind without any clue as to what I am expecting. So if you would be so kind as to put together anything you can regarding things Miss Rita said, did, her approach to anal training, or whatever topic you can I would love to read it and use that knowledge to be able to make a better story for you to read
In getting the plug how would you like to see it used... Before play- to stretch me out in advance prior to play for a certain amount of time? At the start of play - as something that is a part of the play scene maybe here or there, or perhaps every time we play? During Play- as something that you stop fisting me perhaps and use the plug to keep me open or perhaps to stretch me more before continuing on with fisting? After play- I shudder at the thought of this one, but I can only imagine that Miss Rita inserted your plug after play to further push and force your submission. I've heard of such being done as a punishment type of thing, or for like what I just mentioned. Plug Training- making it something that is required on set days or for set events for set period of time? For masturbation- perhaps it is something you permitted me to have for self play on my own?
I would not only love to hear your thoughts on which one(s) of the above you agree with, but I would love for you to elaborate as to your own personal thoughts and feelings regarding any and all that you feel apply.
I know that when you were under Miss Rita that you experienced a long number of things including positions for fisting, however I've always kept to being on my back all but a couple of times with you. What I would like to know today is for you to list every position you can remember her putting you into for fisting, and then add into its description the following: Is restraints needed in this position, and if so how? What was the effect of this position, did it allow for more depth, width, intensity, etc...? Is it is position in which you can start out with, or is it clearly a position in which should be moved to after being properly stretched out? Does this position have a set amount of time in which is shouldn't be held longer than, such as do your legs go numb or some other negative effect? Should this position be used for a select purpose such as punishment, or to aid with depth or width of stretching.
Every time I've ever heard you talk about how Miss Rita anally trained you to be properly fisted, I've found myself so hard I could drive nails like a hammer with my manhood, and my anal ring has quivered and pulsated with sheer excitement wanting to hear and know more. So without having nothing but my own fantasies and information in which to go off from, I'm going to try and write you a series of a collections thoughts, ideas, and information and see where I can take this to try and write something worthy of getting your attention and your fist deep inside my slop hole to submit and squeal like a truly worthless pig for your enjoyment and pleasure.
^^^Note- I guess looking back over all the toys we've chosen from Square Peg Toys, it seems that they all all with the exception of the Splitter sensation toys and viewed by me to be punishment toys because I love size and depth is something I've only done a couple of times with a play partner I had on the phone only, and while it was very enjoyable then, I never let anyone do it to me in person really before, other than that one time we did the LA Special on the phone that night, then you did get farther than I expected and I haven't ever forgot that either. So when it comes to depth play now I would only consider ever really doing it with you, and when it comes to sensation and punishment play again I would only truly consider it with you. So I guess it should be no surprise either than I feel the same about letting you take me in width as well, because you have always proven yourself trust worth in your abilities and skills, so while my reviews of the toys were open and completely honest here is what I'd like in turn from you.
#1. I'd like you to give your thoughts and feelings on the toys as I did to the best of your ability, which is anything you can think to say about them in your own words.
#2. Would you or could you please put them into an order of which one's you'd like to get first to last, and give your reasoning for that choice. If you can't decide between two which hopefully you can, but if for some reason you can't after really trying to think it through state as such and here's what I am thinking of a type of response.
Example ONLY! : I can't decide between the Blackballed Cock and the Giant Jumbo Jack XL cock because I want to fist you so good and so long that when I stuff you on a cock again that you are going to cry like my little bitch as you beg Mama to make herself orgasm from the enjoyment of fucking your on a big cock again. So I am not sure if I want to make you cry from the overall brutal width of the Blackballed Cock because I know how it would really stretch and wreck your asshole before or go with the Giant Jumbo Jack XL so I can work on getting more depth out of your ass so I can really work on getting my fist deeper inside you for longer more intense fisting sessions later on.
#3. If you can briefly outline a fantasy or a couple of fantasies that you'd like to do and figure out what toys you'd need for it, which could help us look at anything else we may need to buy now or later, or help me to start planning out advanced ideas of what to get ready and prepared. Again I'll give you an example so you know what I am talking about, I just pull the first thing that I think of and use that as the example, so please do not try to read into these examples, they are just and nothing more or less than an example.
Example ONLY!:
Scenario- AB-Depth Play:
Needs:
Soft Music or AB Music
Restraints (Babies don't fight or resist Mama's)
Pacifier or AB type of Gag
Blindfold / Gas Mask ???
Ear Plugs
Enema
Plug
Diaper
Plug Harness
Long Toy(s) for the depth you'll work towards and obtain
I had to reorder the Needs List so it would go in the order I planned I'd use them in, to set the scene I'd have you walk into the bedroom which would all be set up and have AB types of songs or music playing, so the minute you heard it you could ask what was going on, but deep within your mind you'd already know what was going to happen you were going to be a submissive AB. Believe me from my own past experiences I know how important that moment of walking in to a room unknown to what is going to happen the music playing can make all the difference in the world as to how much you can resist or fight the change into that role.
While you'd be in shock and mentally off balanced as to what was going on, like a predator bouncing upon their prey do not give your victim/submissive time to get things figured out and drum up some idea of how to resist you or your plans. Make it clear right away they minute you see they are shocked and don't know what to say and/or do that you are now in total control and they just need to come here because its time to remind them of that fact by putting on their restrains, because AB's are helpless and they do not fight or resist, and then follow that up by asking them that as a question to ensure it sinks into their mind while they are still off balance for the greatest of impact.
Next you can plan for them to say something, and you are going to remind them that AB's have nothing to say that is important because they are not in control of anything, Mama's are and again back it up as a question to make them even more nervous. With that back up your dominating words with the fact of a pacifier or a type of AB gag, I say this because I do not think of a ball gag or a bit gag as an AB gag, but an inflatable gag to muffle their sounds, a drool gag, or a tube gag would all be a different story now wouldn't it?
Now you will note they will try to look around and see what is going on here, take that as your opportunity to point out that you are in control, they are not as you have previously stated and now will make even more clear to them with a blindfold. Now if you want just an AB stick to the blindfold, but if you like an AB Dolly, you might consider a gas mask and blindfold to push for that type of a role.
In walking through the steps of if I was going to do this to you I realized I do not want you thinking you can be in some kind of control here today, so I'd use “ear plugs” which I had to go back and put on the list as I walk through this step by step as if I was going to do this to you. You could still hear me well enough, if I turned up the soft music you'd hear both me and that too, but you'd now be under the strong impression that I was in control and you were clearly not!
At this point I would have thought ahead and cleared a path from where I would have you in the bedroom all the way to where I'd be giving you an enema, and also to the bathroom because I'd know I had plans of letting you release it in there for me. For this example I am going to not let you know ahead of time what I have planned for you and your enema, so I will just bind you to the bed and when I insert the enema nozzle I won't tell you what I'm doing, you'll find out when you feel the water being released into you. Which I'm sure you'd have plenty to say about it, but with the gag in and the restraints on you aren't in to much control of how this goes, are you?
Not knowing how much you could or couldn't take I'd only go for half a bag the first time, and then I'd diaper you up and tell you all about how proud I was of you and taking it for me and let you freak out not knowing how long this was going to last or if I was going to make you use the diaper or the toilet, and all I'd keep telling you is that you just needed to submit to me and let the water do its work deep inside you for me for today's play and let you freak out and continue comforting you accordingly. I'd watch the clock and after 5-10 minutes I'd unlock you from the bed, secure you helplessly to move you to the bathroom for being good and let you expel on the toilet instead of in your diaper but I'd want something in turn like you total submission today before I'd let you release it to ensure you agreed to that now so I could use it and remind you of it as we moved forward later in play.
Instead of moving you back to the room, I'd now use the shower/tub first for you to do a standing enema as your second enema, and yes your diaper would again be pulled up and I'd let you be restrained standing up to ensure you felt even more helpless to me. I'd keep you close to me so I could run my hands all over your body and make sure you knew I was right there and that you were helpless to my whims and desires which you would be for the rest of today's play and as long as I deemed it so. I'd again let you return to the toilet after 5-10 minutes of holding in the water, and for the third enema I use the toilet to let you sit on it while I gave you the next enemas while again wearing your diaper to make sure you did not know what to expect as we moved forward in play. Because you would not have expected any of these three enemas to take place like this or all of them to take place in your diaper either, which would aid in the humiliation aspect and break down your walls of submission.
After you'd finish I'd let you take a bath minus the ankle cuffs, but your wrists would be restrained and you would keep the rest of everything on minus the diaper, which would be put back on when you left the bath. I'd plan the bath for 1-hour so you had plenty of time to get the rest of the water out of you as you relaxed in the bath and I had plenty of time to wash you and make sure you were relaxing and terrified of what I might have planned next, because you wouldn't know what to expect from one moment to the next. The longer you would stay in the dark world of sensory deprivation the most intense sensations become, and the more your mind wanders and the more submissive I can push to make you.
Finally when your bath has ended, I can make it clear that I want to take you back to the room to get you dressed up for play, but you are going to need to submit fully and completely when we get there or I'm going to have to punish you and ask if you understand. Now I'd use this opportunity to lotion you up with baby-lotion and baby powder and then lube up your backdoor and with some teasing work your plug inside and if you resisted at all I'd stop and I'd position you in the most humiliating way of being over my knee and I'd spank your ass with my hand (if using a paddle add it to the list) until I felt you submit and release or I knew that I'd broken your resistance to me for now. Then I'd return to plugging your ass and I'd repeat this process as many times as I needed until your plug was firmly seated inside of you. Maybe you'd want a plug harness, or diaper harness, again it'd go on the list of things to have for this scene.
Now I'd restrain you once again and look at the clock and figure out how long I wanted you plugged, I'd start off with the basic 1-hour of plugging time, and then figure you resisted me once and I was not surprised because I feel you resisted me too much today already and thus we needed to add 15-30 minutes more time onto that original hour of plugging time. I'd read you stories, rock you, hold you, and tease you and do all kinds of things that weren't overly sexual or that required me to touch your private parts, because I would be after your submission and not after making you cum or giving you a lot of sexual pleasure. That plug would be doing a fine job of making you horny and needing to be touched, so I would just want to ensure I did things to help intensify those overwhelming feelings for you, because submission gets you pleasure, resistance gets you punishment and then I need to break down those walls of resistance to make sure you submit by sensations and sensual pleasures. I'd be looking for more ways to make you more submissive to me like reading you AB stories and rocking you, etc.. The goal to make you cry for me and keep your tears flowing as long as possible without using pain to make them come and stay flowing.
After the required time passed I'd ask if you'd like to please me by being a good AB, because I've been filled with these wonderful thoughts of using you for something I've thought about for a long time, but I need to know you want to submit and please me before I'll let you experience what that is today. Upon your agreement to that, I'd release your plug and have the long dildo prepared so that as your plug slide out of you, I'd slide the new toys slowly and gently right back inside of you. I wouldn't tell you what I was up to or going to do, but you'd feel it and experience it for me, because there is no need to inform you since your choice is to submit and obey or be punished more with a plug to ensure you do.
I would tell you things like you are half way there, or give you choices like if you wanted me to let you orgasm on this when its all the way inside you, or if you'd like to orgasm on my fist instead, and I might add in that if you chose my fist inside of this toy I'd want you to wear the plug again after the fisting because this is what I really wanted to make you orgasm and if you don't want to please me by doing that then you are willing to make me happy by letting me see you squirming wearing the plug some more, right? Then seeing if your choice in how you orgasmed for me changed, or if you wanted to submit to my plans of how this played out.
Well hopefully you see how I plan out a scenario I try to plan it on paper, get a ruff draft figured out, add in any details that I think would be important to the play scenario, and make a check list of the needed items so I can get everything put together and then check everything off to make sure I'd got it all and that this scene is going to go as planed out. Well if you can write out a scenario or figure out the Needs List it would perhaps help in figuring out what toy(s) you'd want more and why... It helps me to do this, and I'm just sharing how my mind works to help me build scenario’s to do and how I get things to come together...
First let me start by telling you how thankful I am that you allowed me to buy another inflatable butt-plug to be so filled up on by you at your discretion and mercy. There is nothing quite like the intensely wonderful feelings of my anal muscles and anal passage feeling slowly expanded and stretched out by the thick black rubber butt-plug as I'm completely helpless to stop it or its expansion within me no matter how full I already am at that moment in time. Out of every toy and object I've ever been fucked and filled by the black inflatable butt-plug is truly by far my favorite of all of them, and I've literally had a lot of dreams of it since I got rid of the last one to be quite honest. I would wake up feeling so empty and wanting so badly to just cry and beg you to please let me buy another one so I could be stuffed and filled with you again, if even only for another short period of time.
I was consumed thinking about the things I would offer you, and the things I would do to get another one, and the agreements I'd be willing to make to be filled by it again. When I was asking you questions about when and why you'd want me to be filled by it and you commented that it wouldn't do any good to hide it from me, because you knew I'd search it out to find it to play with it, I shut up because I knew how true your words were. But most seriously I would really like to hear your own answers, in your own words when and how long you'd like me to be stuffed on it for you. Truthfully I'd really like to hear all of your truthful and complete thoughts regarding the inflatable butt-plug, what really goes on in your head when you think about it and please do not hold back, I'd really like to know everything.
Truthfully I do wonder and question how far you think about me wearing this new plug for you, I ponder if you will want me to wear it for a set period of time each day, before play, during play, after play, if you wanted it to push the AB aspect and get me to completely submit during such a scene, or maybe you just agreed to me getting it because you knew how bad I wanted it. I do know that it is on its way and that it will take about two weeks to get here, so the estimated time of arrival is going to be the Friday following your next payday, so around about the 20th of the month. The poppers on the other hand should arrive in about one week, so they should arrive around the 13th of the month. Why does all this matter to me so much?
Well because I am working on some stuff inside my head to plan and plot out a special surprise for you, and in order for me to pull that off I need some serious and deep input from you about the things I ask you questions on and the things in which I'm pouring myself out to you about today, okay. So if you could find the time to write some sort of a response to me and the more detailed information you give me the better I could plan out this mega surprise for you and not disappoint you or go to far and offend you, which honestly are my two biggest worries and concerns in trying to plan all this out. Because quite honestly and simply what I am planning on at this point without telling you what it is or how it would work, is I am trying to plan out one major, big surprise which would be sudden for you as I'd just spring it upon you one day, but it would be something that would start out one day and perhaps continue on with surprises and bonuses for a couple to several more days afterward, as one surprise and gift would lead into the next...
Now I'd still need to buy like one to three more things that I haven't gotten yet, depending on your own answers to how far and how you'd like to see things go, but I'm a lot more concerned with the things I'm working on making and building which would go along with your surprises. These are going to take me a lot of hours of work, and I'm working my ass off around the clock learning and planning them out, but I will not even start the crafting of these until I get from you what you'd like to see or get overall from the plug to the poppers.
To try and put things into a better perspective for you I am so excited over this new inflatable butt-plug that is on its way that I have as you've seen been working on a self-inflating unit, so I could be restrained at your discretion or ahead of time before you came in to find me and catch me and be stuffed and not have any control over how much I'm stuffed or how fast until your arrival. Now this is a huge step for me because when it comes to playing privately or when it came to self-bondage previously in the years past I've always gone well out of my way to be secretive and go to some pretty great lengths to hide a lot of what I did, just not the fact I played. So for me to openly and willingly put myself out there and be willing to share this with you is a huge step for me and I sincerely and truly hope that it is something that brings you a great amount of joy as well.
I'm trying to take something as simple as this self-bondage inflation container for the inflatable butt-plug and share my thoughts, design, and explain every detail of how it should work and get your help with testing its design and making changes to it with you as well if need be. What I am in essence really trying to do is to bridge that gap between the world of my private play and bring you into every aspect of what really goes on inside my mind and share everything with you on every level for more intimacy between us. I'm hoping to be able to take this building experience and then use it to expand upon and share more things with you based off from the things I'm planning and figuring out the designs of how exactly I want some things built for select and certain purposes.
To try and make this all fit together for you it would be like this for an example:
First you know about the self-bondage self inflation container for the inflatable butt plug, so the idea and goal would be that if you walked into the room and found me sitting in the chair perhaps watching or listening to a movie (for example) that you wouldn't just rush out of the room and quote “give me some more alone time” because it very well maybe me trapped in there until you come in there to release me and the air from inside the plug. I need to get both of us past that bridge and get it to wear if you walk in and catch me playing that you do not walk out, but rather that you stick around and stay there and find out what is going on and act accordingly upon that.
Second maybe I did knowingly set things up and plan it out to be caught by you “in the act as it were” and if this is the case I'd like to be able to go the extra mile here and not have a safe out. Meaning point blank that once I am locked into it, I am seriously going to have to wait for you to walk in and catch me, release me, and get me out of whatever I've got set up, walking out and thinking you offended me or upset me is not going to be an option for me, and in order for me to be able to do this I have to know this as a guarantee that you will not walk out until you know full well what is going on and that I am safe to be left alone.
Three, I need you to know exactly how everything for the self-bondage and those types of items work, because some of the plans I am putting together for things is going to rely on timers like those exact same ones I'd use in self-bondage. In this type of a case-scenario you'd get a note in most cases and then walk in to “catch me” only instead of having to do anything to start playing with helpless little old me, I'd be there more as a sex doll for you to be able to watch and get enjoyment out of. In this example lets say I've got the inflatable enema plug in and I'm restrained with a self-bondage timer to release me accordingly around about a set time.
You know from a note that I'm expecting you and to come right on in and pull up a chair for the show which will already be in progress, so you walk in and know that the chair or spot I've set up for you and your vibrator sitting there is for you to sit back and enjoy the live show before you. Now in this kind of a scenario, your only required purpose is to be there to ensure things don't go wrong and that I don't need your help if that happens, otherwise I'm going to be solely at the mercy of the timers. If you would need to pay attention to something in particular in this kind of event I would make sure I told you about it in the note ahead of time, otherwise you'd just be in there for your own self enjoyment of watching what happens to me and not interfering unless you wanted to add a bonus to things. Otherwise you will be like the live movie playing for me, and I will be like the live movie playing for you.
So upon coming in and finding your seat ready with your vibrator you find that you can clear see I'm stuffed on the enema plug, and as you follow the enema hose up to the full enema bag you know there is no question what I'm in for when the timer releases what awaits me. Or perhaps the note tells you clearly to take note that the enema bag is sadly empty and that I'm going to be awaiting your golden nectar to be placed inside the bag for the time the enema is released into me. In that kind of a case-scenario perhaps I've gotten several bottles your favorite Ice Mountain Water ready and awaiting you along with a large bowl for you to fill while I watch. So while I sit there on my plug which is being expanded on its own without help, and I'm squirming away and you are chugging the water down because you don't want me to miss out on being filled even more when that enema is released, you are finally ready to give me more of a show than just watching you masturbate while I am helpless to help you. Then you tell me that you want to help me squirm a little bit more when that enema is released by filling up the enema bag for me, since you know how much I wanted you so deep inside me anyways.
Shortly there after you hear the sudden and unmistakable “CLICK” of the enema clamp having been released by the ice timer, and you watch on in pure enjoyment as I really squirm about unable to get away from being filled up on a golden enema for you while you give me a wonderful show of masturbating watching me squirm. Only after you've had your fill and enjoyed a nice orgasm do you get up to come release me before the other timer releases my hands, because when I'm done relieving myself of that you've got some other plans for me now... In this case the self-bondage scene was only the precursor to giving you time to plan out something more while giving you a nice show at the same time and getting me all wound up watching you masturbate in front of me helpless to touch you or do anything other than suffer for your enjoyment.
Fourth, in this scenario perhaps you came home earlier than expected, or caught me playing in the middle of the night, maybe I'm in self-bondage, maybe I'm just playing, in either case we are going to say it doesn't matter, the fact remains you caught me and I wasn't planning or meaning for you too. Now instead of walking away and leaving me to it, you decide to take control of this situation and turn this into a scene with you being the only one at the controls of how it goes from this point forward. Lets say I wasn't wearing cuffs when you caught me, but sitting on the inflatable butt-plug. I jump up seeing you and thus you realize I'm wearing the plug, and before I can try to hide what I was up to and doing, you demand I sit right back down, and in fact you walk over to the top drawer of the dresser and get the cuffs and locks because one thing is for sure this scene is going to continue as it was, but not with me at the controls anymore. Once the cuffs are locked on you lock me into place in the chair, because you want to get answers and information before assuming total control over what's going on, after all no need to pass up a scene already in progress.
Now you look to see what was I doing, looking at photos, a movie and you ask the question “What were you playing you? What was going on in your mind watching that? How long have you been playing before I walked in and caught you?”. I give you some half baked answer, and you are not overly thrilled with this so you add some more pumps to the plug and start with the questions all over, only this time I'm much more forth coming with my answers. I was watching a movie of someone being fisted, and I was imagining that you were doing that to me and stretching me out like that. So then you get into the questioning “Why don't I fist you like that already? Is it because you haven't been honest and forth coming in telling me that you want to be fisted like that by me? Or do you think its because you haven't been stretched out enough yet by me?” and then you start in on me to help me be more forth coming in either asking you for exactly what I want, or you keep me firmly planted on the plug and add some more pumps to help me along.
While I am clearly sitting there uncomfortably plugged for your pleasure and enjoyment, you decide you want me to watch the movie again, while you are going to sit there and enjoy masturbating yourself while you watch me, the movie or some of both and continue enjoying yourself. After the movie you decide a blindfold is in order, because you feel I need more time spent listening to you enjoying yourself without me being able to watch, since you want me to remember who's moans of pleasure and ecstasy I should be craving and desiring to hear when I'm being filled and stuffed like the nasty pig whore I am, FOR YOU!!! After you've felt I've had enough you ask me if I want to play for your enjoyment to orgasm for you, and of coarse you know I do, but as part of my punishment for not including you in my play, you are not going to include my thoughts, wishes and desires into what you plan for me at this point. So you tell me that you want to fist me to cum for you, but the only way you will fist me is bent over the bed restrained for you otherwise you'll just remove my plug now and I can wait until later in the day to be fisted by you, that single choice is mine, so what will it be?
The Fifth idea would be for you to require me to go spend some time ahead of time sitting on the plug prior to play, perhaps watching a movie, looking at a certain type of a photo, or even writing you out a fantasy, report, or just going and getting set up into self-bondage for you to walk in and catch me in when you are ready. Or perhaps you could or would reverse this by telling me to meet you in the room in XX-Amount of time and then upon walking in I catch you masturbating and you want to know if I'd like to watch, and if so you are going to require me to do the following including self-bondage because you do not want me interrupting your solo-play session, and when you are done enjoying yourself and watching me suffer for your enjoyment then you will find it within yourself to play with me as you see fit.
Those are the basic five self-bondage scenario’s I think of how self-bondage could or would go when I think of it being done with both of us being involved in some way, or how I envision being caught playing by you when not expecting you. I do not know if this would help you or not but I would be more than willing to help you by answering your questions for me if it would help you be more forth coming with me about what you want or fantasize about doing with me.
I do not know if this is even close to accurate or not, but in my own head I want to fantasize and believe that you wanted me to get the inflatable butt-plug because you want me to wear it for you enjoyment so I will wear it for you to get stretched out for your fist like you perhaps did for Miss Rita... I always turn to Miss Rita, because I want to believe that you enjoyed your time with her, that it is something that I can pull from and compare to in the hopes that you will be able to relate to an experience that you personally had and be able to say “yes, that is how I feel, yes that is what I want from you... Or no, that is not what I want from you, this is what I would like instead from you”.
When I saw you finish placing the order for the poppers, instead of having me do it as I assumed you typically would have done, in my head it said to me that you are really serious about wanting me to be plenty high on poppers and out of it when you fist fuck me. Which lead me to believe perhaps that the reason you wanted me to get the inflatable butt-plug and the poppers was because you really want to punch fuck me into true orgasmic bliss and submission at your mercy. Then when I started asking questions about AB and the scenario’s in which you might want the plug for I was more under the impression you really wanted the poppers and plug to ensure a deep level of submission from a really deep level of fisting.
That really got me to thinking beyond my original plans of what I was going to do for your surprise and then I really started thinking far outside the realms of what I was first willing to get and do for you to surprise you and blow you mind. Hence why it has become so increasingly important the past couple of days to really get out of you what you would like to do, or would like to plan on doing for play with this new inflatable butt-plug.
Going back to the way you acted when ordering the poppers, which really surprised me in a good way, it really got my mind rolling in what you really want and the things we might need for that, and how I could put it all together to really surprise you and blow your mind. Not exactly sure of how far you want or plan to go with the whole plug idea and aspect and based off your one answer of needing to restrain me for that which you seemed really confident in your answer of saying that I thought about talking to you about getting a plug harness.
I have looked at previously and again all kinds of plug harnesses for males and females, and the design I had before is the best one I've liked out of them all, and then its also the cheapest and it is also the only one I know of which is really made from actual leather. So overall its the best one in my opinion, I very much enjoyed it previously the one modification that I would want to see to it though would be a way of having it so it could be “locked on” so that if we were going to use it for something like AB play that it is not removable by me at least.
When we had it previously I admit I really very much enjoyed wearing the plug even when playing by myself while wearing the plug harness, I felt it made the plug more secure and more comfortable for play and yes even long term wear. In thinking about it all now, and all the things relating to self-bondage I have really thought about how the plug harness could be used (if locked on me) to secure me to a chair in place and firmly planted on the plug without any escape. Now I have thought it through and while I could make a special chair for restraining me while wearing the plug or make one of our own plug harnesses, I just do not believe it would be nearly as comfortable or as good as the leather one which I really enjoyed previously.
I've thought about all kinds of things in which you might require of me if I got the plug harness, and my mind has seriously raced on... but what I really need is your input and thoughts more than anything here. I want to know 100% bluntly, honestly, and truthfully what is it you really want out of this whole deal of the poppers and the inflatable butt-plug? Don't just keep it to them either if you have something deeper that your mind is thinking about beyond that. If you want the inflatable butt-plug, poppers, a vibrator for yourself and you would really like to push me deep into AB, but lack something for that speak up and tell me what it is and what you really want out of all this.
Do you want me to be stretched out so you can get me doggie-style and punch fuck me until I am willing to wear a diaper and submit as Mama's AB for an entire weekend, if so speak up and say it. The more you tell me about what you really want and need the better I'm going to be able to do for you in getting the things I want to get to surprise you with. Yesterday you spent $5 on a game without needing my permission and that is completely fine by me, its “OUR” money, is there something else you'd like to purchase for the upcoming scenarios that you want to surprise me with, speak up and say something. Lets talk about the types of things each of us may want to get and for who and go from there, so we don't make the same purchases twice, fair enough?
Depending on what you want or have planned to want to do with the plug, I have made you aware of the butt-plug harness and which one I would like to get if we would need such a thing. This item would require input from us both, so we could get it properly built as it is a custom made device and I have no issue in speaking with you about this matter openly. If after we speak about it and agree on everything (should it be something we agree to get) and then you later turned around with all the information and bought it without telling me and had it come in your name to the house I would not open it or ask what was inside the box if it was a surprise for me I am just using this as an example, okay? I do not know what you have planned, but I am trying to learn some things.
I of coarse am still waiting on you to tell me which vibrator you want, I had taken you to the store www.bigsextoystore.com to look, but I still am awaiting an answer from you from there.
Other stores I know to look from previous purchases for shopping at would be:
http://www.squarepegtoys.com
http://www.dungeonware.com
http://twistmyrubberarm.com/?w=1280
http://www.fetware.com
http://www.sextoysforless.com
http://www.extremerestraints.com
http://www.dhgate.com
Depending on how far you want to go with the whole fisting thing I have considered surprising you with a toy, which isn't a vibrator BTW. But I do not want to say anything more than that as I do not want to spoil any future surprise based off my plans of how I'd present it, etc... depending on what I learn from the information you give me about what you want from play.
Depending on AB things I've considered one or two surprises which I thought might or would be effective that would go along with this category depending on what you might be planning on wanting in this area for play.
Depending on how far you want to go with the control and dominant aspect of play I've considered looking at buying some sort of a gag for play.
Then I've been looking at the prospect of building one larger piece of furniture, which I could do with the things on hand and would be a fixture in our room because of its size for some intense types of play depending on where you want to go with play.
I've also figured out how to build a furniture/device in which is much smaller and could be built off from things on hand in which would be interesting again depending on what you have in mind of what and where you want to go with play.
Another couple of device I've look into building we have all the parts and supplies for, could be built to surprise you, again depending on what and where you want to go with things.
So hopefully you can see I've been thinking a lot about how to surprise you, set the scenes up for you and considering just how far you might be looking to go, but so much of all of this hinges on what you want, are thinking you want to go for play, and just how far you wish to blow my mind with the things you desire from all of this. So please I'm waiting to find out from you what are your thoughts and were do you want to go with all of this?
Plug Start:
I know that this is not going to be easy for me, or for you, but I want to at least make the sincere attempt by being forth coming and bluntly honest... When you were under Miss Rita I know she did anal training with you with butt-plugs to get you plenty stretched out for fisting, and if you weren't already well aware this fact has always intrigued me and I've always wanted you to write me as much information about it as you can, simply because I've always secretly wanted to in turn take that information and turn it into Story Photos and then turn it into a story of what I really want you to do to me. But I always have wanted to know more about what I am exactly asking for, before I go asking for something completely blind without any clue as to what I am expecting. So if you would be so kind as to put together anything you can regarding things Miss Rita said, did, her approach to anal training, or whatever topic you can I would love to read it and use that knowledge to be able to make a better story for you to read
In getting the plug how would you like to see it used... Before play- to stretch me out in advance prior to play for a certain amount of time? At the start of play - as something that is a part of the play scene maybe here or there, or perhaps every time we play? During Play- as something that you stop fisting me perhaps and use the plug to keep me open or perhaps to stretch me more before continuing on with fisting? After play- I shudder at the thought of this one, but I can only imagine that Miss Rita inserted your plug after play to further push and force your submission. I've heard of such being done as a punishment type of thing, or for like what I just mentioned. Plug Training- making it something that is required on set days or for set events for set period of time? For masturbation- perhaps it is something you permitted me to have for self play on my own?
I would not only love to hear your thoughts on which one(s) of the above you agree with, but I would love for you to elaborate as to your own personal thoughts and feelings regarding any and all that you feel apply.
I know that when you were under Miss Rita that you experienced a long number of things including positions for fisting, however I've always kept to being on my back all but a couple of times with you. What I would like to know today is for you to list every position you can remember her putting you into for fisting, and then add into its description the following: Is restraints needed in this position, and if so how? What was the effect of this position, did it allow for more depth, width, intensity, etc...? Is it is position in which you can start out with, or is it clearly a position in which should be moved to after being properly stretched out? Does this position have a set amount of time in which is shouldn't be held longer than, such as do your legs go numb or some other negative effect? Should this position be used for a select purpose such as punishment, or to aid with depth or width of stretching.
Every time I've ever heard you talk about how Miss Rita anally trained you to be properly fisted, I've found myself so hard I could drive nails like a hammer with my manhood, and my anal ring has quivered and pulsated with sheer excitement wanting to hear and know more. So without having nothing but my own fantasies and information in which to go off from, I'm going to try and write you a series of a collections thoughts, ideas, and information and see where I can take this to try and write something worthy of getting your attention and your fist deep inside my slop hole to submit and squeal like a truly worthless pig for your enjoyment and pleasure.
^^^Note- I guess looking back over all the toys we've chosen from Square Peg Toys, it seems that they all all with the exception of the Splitter sensation toys and viewed by me to be punishment toys because I love size and depth is something I've only done a couple of times with a play partner I had on the phone only, and while it was very enjoyable then, I never let anyone do it to me in person really before, other than that one time we did the LA Special on the phone that night, then you did get farther than I expected and I haven't ever forgot that either. So when it comes to depth play now I would only consider ever really doing it with you, and when it comes to sensation and punishment play again I would only truly consider it with you. So I guess it should be no surprise either than I feel the same about letting you take me in width as well, because you have always proven yourself trust worth in your abilities and skills, so while my reviews of the toys were open and completely honest here is what I'd like in turn from you.
#1. I'd like you to give your thoughts and feelings on the toys as I did to the best of your ability, which is anything you can think to say about them in your own words.
#2. Would you or could you please put them into an order of which one's you'd like to get first to last, and give your reasoning for that choice. If you can't decide between two which hopefully you can, but if for some reason you can't after really trying to think it through state as such and here's what I am thinking of a type of response.
Example ONLY! : I can't decide between the Blackballed Cock and the Giant Jumbo Jack XL cock because I want to fist you so good and so long that when I stuff you on a cock again that you are going to cry like my little bitch as you beg Mama to make herself orgasm from the enjoyment of fucking your on a big cock again. So I am not sure if I want to make you cry from the overall brutal width of the Blackballed Cock because I know how it would really stretch and wreck your asshole before or go with the Giant Jumbo Jack XL so I can work on getting more depth out of your ass so I can really work on getting my fist deeper inside you for longer more intense fisting sessions later on.
#3. If you can briefly outline a fantasy or a couple of fantasies that you'd like to do and figure out what toys you'd need for it, which could help us look at anything else we may need to buy now or later, or help me to start planning out advanced ideas of what to get ready and prepared. Again I'll give you an example so you know what I am talking about, I just pull the first thing that I think of and use that as the example, so please do not try to read into these examples, they are just and nothing more or less than an example.
Example ONLY!:
Scenario- AB-Depth Play:
Needs:
Soft Music or AB Music
Restraints (Babies don't fight or resist Mama's)
Pacifier or AB type of Gag
Blindfold / Gas Mask ???
Ear Plugs
Enema
Plug
Diaper
Plug Harness
Long Toy(s) for the depth you'll work towards and obtain
I had to reorder the Needs List so it would go in the order I planned I'd use them in, to set the scene I'd have you walk into the bedroom which would all be set up and have AB types of songs or music playing, so the minute you heard it you could ask what was going on, but deep within your mind you'd already know what was going to happen you were going to be a submissive AB. Believe me from my own past experiences I know how important that moment of walking in to a room unknown to what is going to happen the music playing can make all the difference in the world as to how much you can resist or fight the change into that role.
While you'd be in shock and mentally off balanced as to what was going on, like a predator bouncing upon their prey do not give your victim/submissive time to get things figured out and drum up some idea of how to resist you or your plans. Make it clear right away they minute you see they are shocked and don't know what to say and/or do that you are now in total control and they just need to come here because its time to remind them of that fact by putting on their restrains, because AB's are helpless and they do not fight or resist, and then follow that up by asking them that as a question to ensure it sinks into their mind while they are still off balance for the greatest of impact.
Next you can plan for them to say something, and you are going to remind them that AB's have nothing to say that is important because they are not in control of anything, Mama's are and again back it up as a question to make them even more nervous. With that back up your dominating words with the fact of a pacifier or a type of AB gag, I say this because I do not think of a ball gag or a bit gag as an AB gag, but an inflatable gag to muffle their sounds, a drool gag, or a tube gag would all be a different story now wouldn't it?
Now you will note they will try to look around and see what is going on here, take that as your opportunity to point out that you are in control, they are not as you have previously stated and now will make even more clear to them with a blindfold. Now if you want just an AB stick to the blindfold, but if you like an AB Dolly, you might consider a gas mask and blindfold to push for that type of a role.
In walking through the steps of if I was going to do this to you I realized I do not want you thinking you can be in some kind of control here today, so I'd use “ear plugs” which I had to go back and put on the list as I walk through this step by step as if I was going to do this to you. You could still hear me well enough, if I turned up the soft music you'd hear both me and that too, but you'd now be under the strong impression that I was in control and you were clearly not!
At this point I would have thought ahead and cleared a path from where I would have you in the bedroom all the way to where I'd be giving you an enema, and also to the bathroom because I'd know I had plans of letting you release it in there for me. For this example I am going to not let you know ahead of time what I have planned for you and your enema, so I will just bind you to the bed and when I insert the enema nozzle I won't tell you what I'm doing, you'll find out when you feel the water being released into you. Which I'm sure you'd have plenty to say about it, but with the gag in and the restraints on you aren't in to much control of how this goes, are you?
Not knowing how much you could or couldn't take I'd only go for half a bag the first time, and then I'd diaper you up and tell you all about how proud I was of you and taking it for me and let you freak out not knowing how long this was going to last or if I was going to make you use the diaper or the toilet, and all I'd keep telling you is that you just needed to submit to me and let the water do its work deep inside you for me for today's play and let you freak out and continue comforting you accordingly. I'd watch the clock and after 5-10 minutes I'd unlock you from the bed, secure you helplessly to move you to the bathroom for being good and let you expel on the toilet instead of in your diaper but I'd want something in turn like you total submission today before I'd let you release it to ensure you agreed to that now so I could use it and remind you of it as we moved forward later in play.
Instead of moving you back to the room, I'd now use the shower/tub first for you to do a standing enema as your second enema, and yes your diaper would again be pulled up and I'd let you be restrained standing up to ensure you felt even more helpless to me. I'd keep you close to me so I could run my hands all over your body and make sure you knew I was right there and that you were helpless to my whims and desires which you would be for the rest of today's play and as long as I deemed it so. I'd again let you return to the toilet after 5-10 minutes of holding in the water, and for the third enema I use the toilet to let you sit on it while I gave you the next enemas while again wearing your diaper to make sure you did not know what to expect as we moved forward in play. Because you would not have expected any of these three enemas to take place like this or all of them to take place in your diaper either, which would aid in the humiliation aspect and break down your walls of submission.
After you'd finish I'd let you take a bath minus the ankle cuffs, but your wrists would be restrained and you would keep the rest of everything on minus the diaper, which would be put back on when you left the bath. I'd plan the bath for 1-hour so you had plenty of time to get the rest of the water out of you as you relaxed in the bath and I had plenty of time to wash you and make sure you were relaxing and terrified of what I might have planned next, because you wouldn't know what to expect from one moment to the next. The longer you would stay in the dark world of sensory deprivation the most intense sensations become, and the more your mind wanders and the more submissive I can push to make you.
Finally when your bath has ended, I can make it clear that I want to take you back to the room to get you dressed up for play, but you are going to need to submit fully and completely when we get there or I'm going to have to punish you and ask if you understand. Now I'd use this opportunity to lotion you up with baby-lotion and baby powder and then lube up your backdoor and with some teasing work your plug inside and if you resisted at all I'd stop and I'd position you in the most humiliating way of being over my knee and I'd spank your ass with my hand (if using a paddle add it to the list) until I felt you submit and release or I knew that I'd broken your resistance to me for now. Then I'd return to plugging your ass and I'd repeat this process as many times as I needed until your plug was firmly seated inside of you. Maybe you'd want a plug harness, or diaper harness, again it'd go on the list of things to have for this scene.
Now I'd restrain you once again and look at the clock and figure out how long I wanted you plugged, I'd start off with the basic 1-hour of plugging time, and then figure you resisted me once and I was not surprised because I feel you resisted me too much today already and thus we needed to add 15-30 minutes more time onto that original hour of plugging time. I'd read you stories, rock you, hold you, and tease you and do all kinds of things that weren't overly sexual or that required me to touch your private parts, because I would be after your submission and not after making you cum or giving you a lot of sexual pleasure. That plug would be doing a fine job of making you horny and needing to be touched, so I would just want to ensure I did things to help intensify those overwhelming feelings for you, because submission gets you pleasure, resistance gets you punishment and then I need to break down those walls of resistance to make sure you submit by sensations and sensual pleasures. I'd be looking for more ways to make you more submissive to me like reading you AB stories and rocking you, etc.. The goal to make you cry for me and keep your tears flowing as long as possible without using pain to make them come and stay flowing.
After the required time passed I'd ask if you'd like to please me by being a good AB, because I've been filled with these wonderful thoughts of using you for something I've thought about for a long time, but I need to know you want to submit and please me before I'll let you experience what that is today. Upon your agreement to that, I'd release your plug and have the long dildo prepared so that as your plug slide out of you, I'd slide the new toys slowly and gently right back inside of you. I wouldn't tell you what I was up to or going to do, but you'd feel it and experience it for me, because there is no need to inform you since your choice is to submit and obey or be punished more with a plug to ensure you do.
I would tell you things like you are half way there, or give you choices like if you wanted me to let you orgasm on this when its all the way inside you, or if you'd like to orgasm on my fist instead, and I might add in that if you chose my fist inside of this toy I'd want you to wear the plug again after the fisting because this is what I really wanted to make you orgasm and if you don't want to please me by doing that then you are willing to make me happy by letting me see you squirming wearing the plug some more, right? Then seeing if your choice in how you orgasmed for me changed, or if you wanted to submit to my plans of how this played out.
Well hopefully you see how I plan out a scenario I try to plan it on paper, get a ruff draft figured out, add in any details that I think would be important to the play scenario, and make a check list of the needed items so I can get everything put together and then check everything off to make sure I'd got it all and that this scene is going to go as planed out. Well if you can write out a scenario or figure out the Needs List it would perhaps help in figuring out what toy(s) you'd want more and why... It helps me to do this, and I'm just sharing how my mind works to help me build scenario’s to do and how I get things to come together...
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