My 1st desire for BBC

I remember the 1st time a BBC peaked my desires. I was at a Gas Station in a more dangerous part of the city just grabbing a bottle of wine etc, As im leaving a mid 20's dark skinned muscular street gangster type black man says out loud "look at that ass right there mm mm" I had on my Yoga pants so i guess i didn't realize men can be outwardly vocal about things like this that boldly, So i say to him "excuse me?" He then tells me "you heard me babygirl, i love me a thick white girl" looking me up and down salaciously with total lack of shame. Ill admit right now it turned me on fierce. Nervously i just said "thanks" He then says " you like black dick dontcha babygirl its all good boo i can see it in those pretty eyes" Not knowing what to say, but not totally wanting it to be over, I just tell him to be careful and stop harassing women at night jokingly, as i start to walk towards my car i hear him make a sound like "mm mm mm" I know hes looking at my ass and im walking a little slower because of this. I hear him say "damn id tear that ass up" "need to quit bullshitting and fuck with your boy" "you look like you never had black dick and that ass was designed for what im packing baby" sensing my curiousity and saying all the right things that plant images in my mind of hotness..i just continued to my car and left the store. But after that night my interest in BBC shot thru the roof. my first time encounter with a thug BBC which i am attracted too because of the contrast of my lily white pickett fence life, and their hard violent and dangerous lives, and how they would use me for their pleasure. i want to be used by "real ****as" not the nice black guys like the ones at my job lol. i want to be fucked by a thug.