Just be honest....

I recently met someone from this site, and thought we had a relationship. I invested time, feelings and removed myself from my adult business market. Early on I found out he wasn't being honest about a lot of things. At first it was the reason for canceling our first date in which I looked forward to and took time off for. And then it was constantly a question of his honesty.

I had made a vow to myself to enforce a few rules when establishing new relationships. One of those would be that if we can't be "in a relationship" on facebook or take pics together, change our profile pics or express publicly our affections, I wouldn't entertain the possibility of a relationship. When I mentioned facebook, he immediately shut that idea down. I proceeded to investigate with his name and email address and found his facebook and immediately found out why. He already had a fiance. I then saw her page and it was clear, I'd been lied to.

I called off the relationship he was claiming we had, but he came right over to fight for me. I never shared what information I found out. And struggled with whether I wanted to continue to deal with him KNOWING the truth, but not telling him I knew or how I was going to proceed. I was enjoying the time we shared, and the sex was great.

I would allow the situation to go on for a couple of months, until I watched the situation become draining and even the sex started to become less and less of interest to me. I knew I cared, as much as I tried to deny it which is why I was still holding on.

Since I left for Florida, things haven't been the same. The time has become shorter and shorter, no real quality time. Then the no shows started and the communication also became less and less each day. Most of all, the reasons were just TOO much. And he offered no apology for wasting my time with not calling when he didn't show up when he was supposed to. A real disrespect to my time.

I realized, it's all about him and his feelings. And that's when I realize it was time to just let go. So when I get the texts with his long sob story... which may be true but because he has lied to me so much, I just had a cold heart about it. For a moment, I tried to be understanding and pretend but then I just couldn't take it anymore. I dropped the axe and let him know that I know.

I have no intentions of telling her. I don't want to hurt her and create drama. I want out, so I made my exit and wished him well. If he'd just been honest, as I asked MANY times for us just to be fuck buddy's this wouldn't have ended this way. I deserve better. I deserve if anything the ability to make my money, and do what I need to do to make my business thrive. Instead I was a fucking dick fiend pawning after someone KNOWING that there was no future.

We had some good times, and we shared an emotional situation that will bond us forever. I live with the missing piece everyday since that happened. I wish you all the best.