He made me a sissy slut

Hi! I am new at this site. I feel very horny when I watch gay/transsexual or shemale videos. I am not gay...but last year something happened to me. I was fucked bareback in one club....in the toilet! I feel very confused....the guy was brutal and dominant. He called me a sissy slut and said that he is not a gay but he will fuck me each time when he sees me. After that encounter...he has fucked me many times....and each time he was more and more brutal. He made me give him blowjobs....he fisted me....he milked me....he made me drink his piss....he made me swallow his sperm and made me eat my own sperm as well. I am tottally humiliated....but after the second time he ****d me I started to enjoy it in some kind of a way. I think I started to like to be dominated by brutal and dominant guys like him. So now I am looking for guys who can know how to treat sissies like me....I need a dominant master who likes to humiliate sluts like me! I am living alone at my apartment and I have a master who treat me like the slut I am. He is married and as far as I know he has k**s. When he has time he comes to my apartment and do anything what he wants with me....I am like his little toy. He fucks me raw...I remember one day he was so pissed off and angry that he wanted to humiliate and and abuse me. He open the door, put me on the table on my back with my legs up....get some flour powder and smeared it all over my
butt hole. His 24 cm hard big cock was also covered in powder. He started shoving the powder deep into my shithole using his fingers...the pain was unbelievable...I was crying and I was scared...but my dick was hard as a rock. He fucked me dry....it was hard and painful...and he told me to look him in the eyes all the time. He made me do a lot of dirty and nasty things.