Cuck stuff

one of the things that secretly turns my crank a lot was always cuck stuff... but not really in a hetero way, in a gay way. back in the boy days i always kind of liked fantasies or irl stories of amab people getting feminized & competing w/ or humiliating afab partners with their superior sluttiness. that's not something that is a big deal to me lately but i still hold a soft spot for it. on the whole tho i've moved on to some other stuff now i'm a lady

i'm not monogamous so it's weird but something definitely turns me on about the idea of a long-term partner being jealous & a little humiliated by me getting off with another girl. it feels really mean though and i don't really want to be mean to other girls.. :?