Curious about sex with a man

40 6' 195 7c good looking with a nice package and want to explore my sexuality with another masculine guy in his 40's. Seems easy enough but it's not. I don't know how to go about doing this and I've tried everything. I would like a fwb that no one would suspect that anything was going on. Something hot with passion, not a blow n go. I would like the guy to flirt some, Kiss me deeply, take off our clothes, get in bed and explore each others body. Then bend me over and put his fat cock in my tight hole. I haven't been fucked but I want this. I realize it might take more than once to feel good but that's not a problem. I've wanted this since I was a k** and damn it I'll get it. You need to be mid 40's with a nice body and a nice clean non diseased cock. I promise it will be worth it. I promise we will want to do it again and again as long as it stays between us