Watching the one you luv having great sex with oth

Just a quick note......jealousy is probably the hardest emotion to ever control.....it never goes completely but a little is good. I luv to watch ,and have many times , her having a great time . From watching six really sexy girls gently lower her to the ground and all have there way with her and her with them. To watching her and two of her female friends fuck 25 hand picked and pre tested and performing guys, for 4 and a half hours , for her birthday one year.
I've had muggle mates , that know what we do,. Ask.....how can u watch other men have sex with someone you luv.....I try to explain ....it's all about her and her pleasure....and as u probably worked out..... The benefits well, for me, well out way the cons.
It's like watching the one u care about in any of your favourite videos on this site....except live.