My fantasy

I don't know how to really explain myself besides, I'm not into the whole man on man thing. When I think of being with a man I always picture myself as a girl. I don't want a guy to suck my dick nor do I want to fuck him, I literally want the situation to be like a man and a women doing whatever it is that happens.

I like girls and enjoy fucking them but I've always wanted to be in there position. Not man on man but guy on girl. I don't know if anyone will ever understand but it's what I've always wanted. I'll never be a girl in this lifetime so I have to make do.

Anyways I've always wanted to meet a guy that take me for me as in being a guy, but wants me for the girlfriend he never had, one what will do what he wants and please him whenever he needs to realease. I want to dress up in some "summer" types clothes, short shorts, tank top, and flip flops, then go out to a lake, walk around, hold hands, and talk for a while. Then when the mood is right we go back to the tent, car, or just out in the open and get intimate. I want to be kissed, held, and make love like a man and women.

That's pretty much my fantasy and all I want to do in life, I want to know what it's like to be a women but still have a guy friend to hang out with when we need to be guys.