Real Life "Men" Types for a woman of ant
Hello everyone or should I say "Dear Diary" at the start of these posts? haha.
This will probably end up being a rant post, I'm realizing that so many men that I've met (even friends of friends that I did not actually date or hook up with) are in fact good (have certain qualities) that are LIMITED by at least 2 flaws.
As examples, I will go over 2 of the male types I've found in my 'lovely life' so far... Maybe they'll serve as a reminder in order to fill in the blanks for me in future experiences;since once upon a time, I used to be young and have hope in men and mankind... anyyyyway, here goes :)
Lets say that you are a smart and witty, fun to spend time with man. Hell, you may even be polite and generous, knowing how to treat a woman - note, a WOMAN, not a girl.. Knowing this, clearly, you MUST by default have at least 2 flaws. It's a sucky rule that I've sadly found to apply to most men everywhere.(DO NOT get me wrong, same goes for women, for humans generally lol. But just saying, I'm talking about men, from my perspective!). In this case, the man in question, sadly, was quite unattractive (as a common opinion) in real life. I didn't let that change the way he made me feel, I didn't let that change what I thought about him. He'd worship me, be everything anyone would ever want, yet I couldn't help but wonder if there were ulterior reasons to his actions.
The obvious downside to that is: while having "everything a normal relationship" should have, our intimate times were well, rather disappointing.. Not for the lack of trying, or communication. Sadly loving someone doesn't mean that you WILL enjoy sex with them. It really doesn't e_e It affects the experience, sure, but it does not control it. (Emotional Affair)
Lets say that you are an average looking guy, smart, perverted and very social. You've got many friends, a few closer than others. You like to go out, enjoy life, you do CARE, GREATLY CARE about how you look to others. Your pride means the world to you, even though you may not always see it that way. Despite crazy chemistry that NO ONE could deny with me, for years, you refused to see me for more than my outer shell. You've used EVERY chance to put me down. Make me feel weak, powerless, inferior(even though again, in this case, the guy was average looking being generous lol). It's sad to see a grown ass man acting like a total asshole just so that he looks good, in public, then when the lights go out and there's no one in the room, suddenly, I'm tempting. He didn't dare to "claim me as his mate" (yes like a****ls lol), yet he wanted me all to himself, to touch and use and fuck in any and all ways possible. Raw. Naughty and kinky things that I've only dreamed about, he wanted to do TO me. A world of infinite fantasies and pleasures, behind closed doors, only WHEN and IF he wanted to use me..
It kinda haunts me, now after a few years, how all of this went down.. This is a very dangerous type of man.
Downside: Emotional slave, is what I became for far too long in this "case". One of the things that piss me off most in the world is seeing wasted "potential"; from opportunities to relationships with people... this was one of those cases, reason for which I ended up rather "hung up" on a manipulative, calculated asshole of a creature (Yeah sorry, a little caught up remembering stuff..)
GOSH it feels good to just put that "out there" somewhere, even here x__x In fact I think this little stroll down memory lane has inspired me to write at least one of my most satisfying sexual experiences.. We'll see how that goes XD
Thank you for reading, in fact if you want to prove you've made it THIS far, feel free to send me a DECENTLY PHRASED CIVILIZED MESSAGE ;) I'm disabling comments because I am sure someone out there will feel the need to bitch and pick at my honest sharing for some stupid reason and I ain't got the time to deal with that ^^
This will probably end up being a rant post, I'm realizing that so many men that I've met (even friends of friends that I did not actually date or hook up with) are in fact good (have certain qualities) that are LIMITED by at least 2 flaws.
As examples, I will go over 2 of the male types I've found in my 'lovely life' so far... Maybe they'll serve as a reminder in order to fill in the blanks for me in future experiences;
Lets say that you are a smart and witty, fun to spend time with man. Hell, you may even be polite and generous, knowing how to treat a woman - note, a WOMAN, not a girl.. Knowing this, clearly, you MUST by default have at least 2 flaws. It's a sucky rule that I've sadly found to apply to most men everywhere.(DO NOT get me wrong, same goes for women, for humans generally lol. But just saying, I'm talking about men, from my perspective!). In this case, the man in question, sadly, was quite unattractive (as a common opinion) in real life. I didn't let that change the way he made me feel, I didn't let that change what I thought about him. He'd worship me, be everything anyone would ever want, yet I couldn't help but wonder if there were ulterior reasons to his actions.
The obvious downside to that is: while having "everything a normal relationship" should have, our intimate times were well, rather disappointing.. Not for the lack of trying, or communication. Sadly loving someone doesn't mean that you WILL enjoy sex with them. It really doesn't e_e It affects the experience, sure, but it does not control it. (Emotional Affair)
Lets say that you are an average looking guy, smart, perverted and very social. You've got many friends, a few closer than others. You like to go out, enjoy life, you do CARE, GREATLY CARE about how you look to others. Your pride means the world to you, even though you may not always see it that way. Despite crazy chemistry that NO ONE could deny with me, for years, you refused to see me for more than my outer shell. You've used EVERY chance to put me down. Make me feel weak, powerless, inferior(even though again, in this case, the guy was average looking being generous lol). It's sad to see a grown ass man acting like a total asshole just so that he looks good, in public, then when the lights go out and there's no one in the room, suddenly, I'm tempting. He didn't dare to "claim me as his mate" (yes like a****ls lol), yet he wanted me all to himself, to touch and use and fuck in any and all ways possible. Raw. Naughty and kinky things that I've only dreamed about, he wanted to do TO me. A world of infinite fantasies and pleasures, behind closed doors, only WHEN and IF he wanted to use me..
It kinda haunts me, now after a few years, how all of this went down.. This is a very dangerous type of man.
Downside: Emotional slave, is what I became for far too long in this "case". One of the things that piss me off most in the world is seeing wasted "potential"; from opportunities to relationships with people... this was one of those cases, reason for which I ended up rather "hung up" on a manipulative, calculated asshole of a creature (Yeah sorry, a little caught up remembering stuff..)
GOSH it feels good to just put that "out there" somewhere, even here x__x In fact I think this little stroll down memory lane has inspired me to write at least one of my most satisfying sexual experiences.. We'll see how that goes XD
Thank you for reading, in fact if you want to prove you've made it THIS far, feel free to send me a DECENTLY PHRASED CIVILIZED MESSAGE ;) I'm disabling comments because I am sure someone out there will feel the need to bitch and pick at my honest sharing for some stupid reason and I ain't got the time to deal with that ^^
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