Update June 2015
So, more bad news. Sorry to be a broken record....I feel like all I talk about is my health problems. But that is what's going on in my life, and I am an honest person so I am not going to make anything up. Just wanted to let people know whats going on. Don't like to leave my viewers waiting and wondering what's up.
Have been struggling with depression worse than usual, and so I went to the doctor because it got to the point where I have been cutting again and thinking there was nothing I could do to continue on with life. I went to a walk-in clinic to see a doctor I had visited before who I remembered was very helpful. I told him about my depression that I feel has been going on since I've been a little k**, and that I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder by my family doctor a number of years ago. He was very caring and told me to take some tests. I scored very low on the first test (which I think was for ADHD), very high on two of the tests, and moderate to high for the last test. After that, he told me that I have severe depression and severe anxiety, and that it is likely that it has been going on all of my life, and that I am at risk for alcohol dependence. I sort-of knew all of this stuff but I'm really glad I had a medical professional confirm it for me so that I don't feel crazy. He said we will start with a low dose of an anti-depressant (combined with my anti-anxiety meds that I am already taking), to focus on things that make me happy, and to work on cognitive behavioural therapy (which I have learned about in university since I have a minor in psychology). I still feel pretty hopeless and the advice is only semi-helpful in my opinion, but it's better than just not doing anything about it. And tbh he is probably one of the best doctors I've ever seen. He was caring and helpful and seemed particularly concerned about my cutting. Most doctors just don't give a shit and just ask if I'm pregnant (and when I was skinny, just asked if I do ******* or if I eat enough). This is going to be a very long process.
So, this is all sort-of irrelevant though because the main reason I cannot cam is because I am living at my parents house. I can't really cam here. There WILL, however, be one or two weekends this June when I will be camming at another location. Then I will be camming a lot in July! Even though I'm depressed (and deal with a myriad of other super awesome health problems), I do still for the most part enjoy camming. Although I don't think my mental health issues will get in the way of cam sessions, I wanted to discuss it just in case it does.
Let me make this quite clear that I DO NOT EXPECT GIFTS OR ANYTHING AT ALL. Some of you have already sent me some stuff and I really appreciate that but please don't worry about it. I only want tokens for when I actually cam.
TL;DR: CAMMING LATER IN JUNE AND FOR THE MAJORITY OF JULY
Have been struggling with depression worse than usual, and so I went to the doctor because it got to the point where I have been cutting again and thinking there was nothing I could do to continue on with life. I went to a walk-in clinic to see a doctor I had visited before who I remembered was very helpful. I told him about my depression that I feel has been going on since I've been a little k**, and that I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder by my family doctor a number of years ago. He was very caring and told me to take some tests. I scored very low on the first test (which I think was for ADHD), very high on two of the tests, and moderate to high for the last test. After that, he told me that I have severe depression and severe anxiety, and that it is likely that it has been going on all of my life, and that I am at risk for alcohol dependence. I sort-of knew all of this stuff but I'm really glad I had a medical professional confirm it for me so that I don't feel crazy. He said we will start with a low dose of an anti-depressant (combined with my anti-anxiety meds that I am already taking), to focus on things that make me happy, and to work on cognitive behavioural therapy (which I have learned about in university since I have a minor in psychology). I still feel pretty hopeless and the advice is only semi-helpful in my opinion, but it's better than just not doing anything about it. And tbh he is probably one of the best doctors I've ever seen. He was caring and helpful and seemed particularly concerned about my cutting. Most doctors just don't give a shit and just ask if I'm pregnant (and when I was skinny, just asked if I do ******* or if I eat enough). This is going to be a very long process.
So, this is all sort-of irrelevant though because the main reason I cannot cam is because I am living at my parents house. I can't really cam here. There WILL, however, be one or two weekends this June when I will be camming at another location. Then I will be camming a lot in July! Even though I'm depressed (and deal with a myriad of other super awesome health problems), I do still for the most part enjoy camming. Although I don't think my mental health issues will get in the way of cam sessions, I wanted to discuss it just in case it does.
Let me make this quite clear that I DO NOT EXPECT GIFTS OR ANYTHING AT ALL. Some of you have already sent me some stuff and I really appreciate that but please don't worry about it. I only want tokens for when I actually cam.
TL;DR: CAMMING LATER IN JUNE AND FOR THE MAJORITY OF JULY
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