My Masturbation Diary 2015
22nd July 2015 (00.20 GMT)
I've been really horny and playing with my pussy all day today (yesterday I guess now as it's past midnight). It has given me some crazy ideas! So I spent a couple of hours tying a load of rubber bands together and then tying them to the back of a belt which I have then put on, pulled the rubber bands through my legs and tied them to the front of the belt. I then got some more, thinner rubber bands tied together which I have tied to the bands between my legs and then tied to a big table I have. I have put my computer on the floor at what I judge to be the right distance, and crawled to it on all fours to write this. The rubber bands in between my legs are stretched out and being held by the weaker bands conected to the table so at some point it will go and my pussy and clit is going to get badly hurt. This is where I am right now as I have decided to write this live and see how it works out and whether you guys like it or not. I am as you might guess, naked and my pussy is making a mess everywhere so I have a bath towel under me so I don't stain the carpet. I plan to move my computer and me a cm or so further from the table every 10 minutes or so until it breaks and I am hoping it will make me cum instantly when it hits my clit......:)
(00.45 GMT) I thought about this a bit more and unhooked myself for a couple of minutes and went and got some clothes pins. I have put three on each side of my pussy and taped them to my legs so my pussy is held open for the rubber bands to hurt me more when they break. I put a clothes pin on each nipple and two on my tongue as well and have now got hooked back up and in position and moved a little further away from the table. Currently using a vibe on my clit and have a butt plug in and getting even more excited....
(01.00 GMT) Just moved a bit further and the I can feel the strain, so I've stopped playing with myself and removed the butt plug so the rubber bands have a nice clear target....:)
(01.15 GMT) Just moved a bit further and I can feel it trying to pull me back. It's making my asshole twitch in expectation. Clothes pins on my tongue hurt quite bad and I'm dribbling everywhere ( mouth and pussy too lol). Trying to chat to a couple of guys on here as well - it's quite difficult to focus though!
(01.30 GMT) moved a little bit more, and I did it slowly and very carefully as it feels like it could go any second now. Fuck! the anticipation is mindblowing!
(01.45 GMT) moved again and I can't believe it hasn't snapped!, it's just got to go next time.........
I don't think my pussy can take much more waiting!
(02.10 GMT) I went to move again and it snapped straight away! That really really fucking hurts!! All I could see was red stars and I was squirming on the floor, but fuck my clit exploded like I hoped! Totally fucking amazing cum :). I need to recover a bit now....
(03.00 GMT) OK I've recovered a bit now... That was mind blowing, my clit still hurt like hell, but for a cum like that - who cares. Difficult to see but I think it's turning into a big bruise all around my pussy. I think I left the clothes pins on my tongue too long and that feels bruised as well, so I'll be talking strangely in the morning lol. I'm going to bed now with my butt plug back in and hopefully dream about my cum just then. I'm not sure how this will read, so a bit of feedback would be helpful guys, and if it's shit just tell me and I won't do it again guys.
19th June 2015
I seem to be consumed with doubts about whether I should have started posting on here again. I have had a couple of messages of support which is encouraging, but I worry I may have got a bit extreme in my tastes for general reading here.
18th June 2015
I know I've only just made an entry, and here I am again, but there will be gaps. I don't need the stress of updating all the time. Nevertheless, restarting this has got me sooo horny! I had to get myself off today (well yesterday technically as it's 3am). My clit really still hurts too much for a good wanking session as such, but I find with the right stimulation I can get off. I guess most people have no idea how much pain is caused by rubbing off several layers of skin on my clit and nipples, but I promise you that the pain is constant and any movement is agony.
One positive about where i am living is that no one has touched the garden for years, which means a never ending supply of nettles for me at this time of year!
So I spent most of the day with my panties and my bra full of nettles. It hurts but I've been doing this a long time and the pain is good, and helps up my horniness. So then I got my vibrator and wedged it up my ass by siting on it, and upped my horniness again and finally got a rubberband and flicked my nipples. I said that in plural but really one hit was enough, and my head exploded with the pain followed by my pussy, and I had an amazing cum, making a hell of a mess on my chair, which I licked up afterwards! :)
16th June 2015
O dear, not sure where to start.....
Truth is my computer was fine, but I was just sooo embaressed about the finger in my ass thing that I didn't feel I could carry on. A lot has happened since and to be honest, licking my own shit off my finger is nothing much these days. I think I am now at a point where I will never have another orgasm without being in pain at the same time. Is that good or bad? I don't know..... but it's the way it is.
I no longer live with my parents so that's one thing that is no longer a problem, but I am a busy girl outside of my filthy perversions so I can't be here all the time.
I dare say I will be asked about boyfriends. I have had two since I last posted, but both of them ran away as I tried to get them to hurt me more and more. I think the trouble was that they were too nice. Both seemed excited about spanking me, but neither could inflict proper pain on me when they could see it hurt me even if my pussy was as wet as fuck. C'est la vie. Maybe one day I will find a nice sadistic bastard who is also sane lol.
Anyway, to give you a flavour of me now I will tell you what I am up to now. I get excited when I go in a DIY shop now rather than a sex shop. My latest trick is using wet and dry. It feels smooth to my hand but I wet it and rub my nipples and my clit and it takes the skin off and is as sore as shit. This is what I did earlier and I can't touch my nipples or my clit now because of the pain. There are pinpricks of blood too.
So while I am sat here writing this my pussy is really wet, but my clit is too painful to touch so I won't be having an orgasm, and my nipples are so sore that I will not get a peaceful night's sleep.
I do apologise for being quiet for so long but I was struggling to accept who I was.
baby XXX
I've been really horny and playing with my pussy all day today (yesterday I guess now as it's past midnight). It has given me some crazy ideas! So I spent a couple of hours tying a load of rubber bands together and then tying them to the back of a belt which I have then put on, pulled the rubber bands through my legs and tied them to the front of the belt. I then got some more, thinner rubber bands tied together which I have tied to the bands between my legs and then tied to a big table I have. I have put my computer on the floor at what I judge to be the right distance, and crawled to it on all fours to write this. The rubber bands in between my legs are stretched out and being held by the weaker bands conected to the table so at some point it will go and my pussy and clit is going to get badly hurt. This is where I am right now as I have decided to write this live and see how it works out and whether you guys like it or not. I am as you might guess, naked and my pussy is making a mess everywhere so I have a bath towel under me so I don't stain the carpet. I plan to move my computer and me a cm or so further from the table every 10 minutes or so until it breaks and I am hoping it will make me cum instantly when it hits my clit......:)
(00.45 GMT) I thought about this a bit more and unhooked myself for a couple of minutes and went and got some clothes pins. I have put three on each side of my pussy and taped them to my legs so my pussy is held open for the rubber bands to hurt me more when they break. I put a clothes pin on each nipple and two on my tongue as well and have now got hooked back up and in position and moved a little further away from the table. Currently using a vibe on my clit and have a butt plug in and getting even more excited....
(01.00 GMT) Just moved a bit further and the I can feel the strain, so I've stopped playing with myself and removed the butt plug so the rubber bands have a nice clear target....:)
(01.15 GMT) Just moved a bit further and I can feel it trying to pull me back. It's making my asshole twitch in expectation. Clothes pins on my tongue hurt quite bad and I'm dribbling everywhere ( mouth and pussy too lol). Trying to chat to a couple of guys on here as well - it's quite difficult to focus though!
(01.30 GMT) moved a little bit more, and I did it slowly and very carefully as it feels like it could go any second now. Fuck! the anticipation is mindblowing!
(01.45 GMT) moved again and I can't believe it hasn't snapped!, it's just got to go next time.........
I don't think my pussy can take much more waiting!
(02.10 GMT) I went to move again and it snapped straight away! That really really fucking hurts!! All I could see was red stars and I was squirming on the floor, but fuck my clit exploded like I hoped! Totally fucking amazing cum :). I need to recover a bit now....
(03.00 GMT) OK I've recovered a bit now... That was mind blowing, my clit still hurt like hell, but for a cum like that - who cares. Difficult to see but I think it's turning into a big bruise all around my pussy. I think I left the clothes pins on my tongue too long and that feels bruised as well, so I'll be talking strangely in the morning lol. I'm going to bed now with my butt plug back in and hopefully dream about my cum just then. I'm not sure how this will read, so a bit of feedback would be helpful guys, and if it's shit just tell me and I won't do it again guys.
19th June 2015
I seem to be consumed with doubts about whether I should have started posting on here again. I have had a couple of messages of support which is encouraging, but I worry I may have got a bit extreme in my tastes for general reading here.
18th June 2015
I know I've only just made an entry, and here I am again, but there will be gaps. I don't need the stress of updating all the time. Nevertheless, restarting this has got me sooo horny! I had to get myself off today (well yesterday technically as it's 3am). My clit really still hurts too much for a good wanking session as such, but I find with the right stimulation I can get off. I guess most people have no idea how much pain is caused by rubbing off several layers of skin on my clit and nipples, but I promise you that the pain is constant and any movement is agony.
One positive about where i am living is that no one has touched the garden for years, which means a never ending supply of nettles for me at this time of year!
So I spent most of the day with my panties and my bra full of nettles. It hurts but I've been doing this a long time and the pain is good, and helps up my horniness. So then I got my vibrator and wedged it up my ass by siting on it, and upped my horniness again and finally got a rubberband and flicked my nipples. I said that in plural but really one hit was enough, and my head exploded with the pain followed by my pussy, and I had an amazing cum, making a hell of a mess on my chair, which I licked up afterwards! :)
16th June 2015
O dear, not sure where to start.....
Truth is my computer was fine, but I was just sooo embaressed about the finger in my ass thing that I didn't feel I could carry on. A lot has happened since and to be honest, licking my own shit off my finger is nothing much these days. I think I am now at a point where I will never have another orgasm without being in pain at the same time. Is that good or bad? I don't know..... but it's the way it is.
I no longer live with my parents so that's one thing that is no longer a problem, but I am a busy girl outside of my filthy perversions so I can't be here all the time.
I dare say I will be asked about boyfriends. I have had two since I last posted, but both of them ran away as I tried to get them to hurt me more and more. I think the trouble was that they were too nice. Both seemed excited about spanking me, but neither could inflict proper pain on me when they could see it hurt me even if my pussy was as wet as fuck. C'est la vie. Maybe one day I will find a nice sadistic bastard who is also sane lol.
Anyway, to give you a flavour of me now I will tell you what I am up to now. I get excited when I go in a DIY shop now rather than a sex shop. My latest trick is using wet and dry. It feels smooth to my hand but I wet it and rub my nipples and my clit and it takes the skin off and is as sore as shit. This is what I did earlier and I can't touch my nipples or my clit now because of the pain. There are pinpricks of blood too.
So while I am sat here writing this my pussy is really wet, but my clit is too painful to touch so I won't be having an orgasm, and my nipples are so sore that I will not get a peaceful night's sleep.
I do apologise for being quiet for so long but I was struggling to accept who I was.
baby XXX
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