Learning about gay sex
This is about me and my experiences and where I'm at.
I never questioned that I was straight, I always liked girls and still do. Even my 1st gay experience was unexpected and unplanned. I went to an arcade/bookstore not even knowing that it was a gay hangout for mostly oral sex. I found out in an embarrassing way. I was in a booth and on one side I saw a big hole and the other side was a small hole. I assumed they were both for peeping and didn't want anyone spying on my so I covered them both with the toilet paper provided in the booth - I knew what that was for, at least. I saw that they were being pushed on from the other side and I heard whispering too, to remove it, but I didn't. For some reason I went back weeks or months later, I don't remember for sure, but it was at a time when internet porn was still coming through on dial up, so this was preferable. By the way, I always skipped over the gay or shemale porn on the channels.
Then, I didn't cover up the holes, finally figuring out what they were for. I wasn't willing to entertain a cock into my booth, but after figuring out the finger sign at the hole, I took a chance... I put my cock through and had the best blow job of my life. So, I made plans to go back more often, not too often, but enough to get myself worked up about it. Finally, I let someone put their cock through and opened my mouth. I was surprised by the taste and feel at first and mostly did it as an obligation - if they did it for me, I should do it for them.
Many years went by and I lived in places that didn't have any gloryholes that I knew of. I lived in another city that I discovered had a bathhouse, something I hadn't tried yet, but heard about. I found it and drove by a couple of times. Then I got up the nerve to go in the front door. A couple of middle eastern looking guys were going in and paying and that gave me enough time to chicken out. Then, soon after I moved back to my home town.
I finally went to my first bathhouse late one night. I think my first time I was fucked. Taken to the steam room I was told to lie on my front, the guy got on top of me and I really did not enjoy it. I thought what it must be like for a woman to have a guy put so much weight on her that it was uncomfortable. But, I went back and tried again - I found a guy that understood that I had almost no experience and took his time with me, with me standing against a wall in his room. It was not bad, so I went again and had mixed experiences, some excellent, some disappointing. The best was when I took a room for myself and waited lying down with my ass on display. A guy came in with the longest cock you could imagine and let him take me from behind. Man, did that feel good. Another time, a very nice guy came in with a decent size cock and he knew what he was doing. He said I came more while being fucked than he had ever seen. Recently I noticed that I was hard while sucking another guy in the open at the bathhouse.
The most daring experience I have had was a 3some with a transsexual and her girlfriend. First, the woman fucked me with a dildo, then the transsexual fucked me from behind with a very large cock while I ate her girlfriends pussy. I often think of that when jerking off.
So, where does that leave me. I have had girlfriends and enjoyed making love with them. I love a good pussy as much as I love a good cock. I masturbate more to gay porn than to straight, though a good 2nd is lesbian porn. Sometimes I think I may now be gay, and I do love the videos of women telling me I'm gay, for some reason, but I am still turned on by women and want to be with one and would love to get married someday (currently single). So, that leaves me bi. I don't want a relationship with a guy and don't like kissing men, but I'm happy to suck their cock, given the chance.
A few things I don't like or appreciate - my cock is very sensitive, so being rubbed against beard stubble is a terrible feeling, as well as teeth. It's amazing how many people, men and woman, don't understand how painful teeth can be. I've worried when I've sucked a large dick and I don't have a large mouth, how it feels if it is against my back teeth when I'm trying to take all of it.
Also, with the vids, I don't love the humiliation aspect of the 'you're gay' clips. I know some people like this, but I don't see why it's necessary to belittle someone because they want to suck cock or be fucked. However, if the vid has all the other elements, I tolerate it, but the best ones have more scenes of gay sex and less of women sucking cocks, etc. If you're being told you're gay, why would I want to see mostly scenes of women? There are a few really good ones that build up from hetero sex to finally gay anal and more.
Thanks for reading and letting me share my experience. What do you think?
I never questioned that I was straight, I always liked girls and still do. Even my 1st gay experience was unexpected and unplanned. I went to an arcade/bookstore not even knowing that it was a gay hangout for mostly oral sex. I found out in an embarrassing way. I was in a booth and on one side I saw a big hole and the other side was a small hole. I assumed they were both for peeping and didn't want anyone spying on my so I covered them both with the toilet paper provided in the booth - I knew what that was for, at least. I saw that they were being pushed on from the other side and I heard whispering too, to remove it, but I didn't. For some reason I went back weeks or months later, I don't remember for sure, but it was at a time when internet porn was still coming through on dial up, so this was preferable. By the way, I always skipped over the gay or shemale porn on the channels.
Then, I didn't cover up the holes, finally figuring out what they were for. I wasn't willing to entertain a cock into my booth, but after figuring out the finger sign at the hole, I took a chance... I put my cock through and had the best blow job of my life. So, I made plans to go back more often, not too often, but enough to get myself worked up about it. Finally, I let someone put their cock through and opened my mouth. I was surprised by the taste and feel at first and mostly did it as an obligation - if they did it for me, I should do it for them.
Many years went by and I lived in places that didn't have any gloryholes that I knew of. I lived in another city that I discovered had a bathhouse, something I hadn't tried yet, but heard about. I found it and drove by a couple of times. Then I got up the nerve to go in the front door. A couple of middle eastern looking guys were going in and paying and that gave me enough time to chicken out. Then, soon after I moved back to my home town.
I finally went to my first bathhouse late one night. I think my first time I was fucked. Taken to the steam room I was told to lie on my front, the guy got on top of me and I really did not enjoy it. I thought what it must be like for a woman to have a guy put so much weight on her that it was uncomfortable. But, I went back and tried again - I found a guy that understood that I had almost no experience and took his time with me, with me standing against a wall in his room. It was not bad, so I went again and had mixed experiences, some excellent, some disappointing. The best was when I took a room for myself and waited lying down with my ass on display. A guy came in with the longest cock you could imagine and let him take me from behind. Man, did that feel good. Another time, a very nice guy came in with a decent size cock and he knew what he was doing. He said I came more while being fucked than he had ever seen. Recently I noticed that I was hard while sucking another guy in the open at the bathhouse.
The most daring experience I have had was a 3some with a transsexual and her girlfriend. First, the woman fucked me with a dildo, then the transsexual fucked me from behind with a very large cock while I ate her girlfriends pussy. I often think of that when jerking off.
So, where does that leave me. I have had girlfriends and enjoyed making love with them. I love a good pussy as much as I love a good cock. I masturbate more to gay porn than to straight, though a good 2nd is lesbian porn. Sometimes I think I may now be gay, and I do love the videos of women telling me I'm gay, for some reason, but I am still turned on by women and want to be with one and would love to get married someday (currently single). So, that leaves me bi. I don't want a relationship with a guy and don't like kissing men, but I'm happy to suck their cock, given the chance.
A few things I don't like or appreciate - my cock is very sensitive, so being rubbed against beard stubble is a terrible feeling, as well as teeth. It's amazing how many people, men and woman, don't understand how painful teeth can be. I've worried when I've sucked a large dick and I don't have a large mouth, how it feels if it is against my back teeth when I'm trying to take all of it.
Also, with the vids, I don't love the humiliation aspect of the 'you're gay' clips. I know some people like this, but I don't see why it's necessary to belittle someone because they want to suck cock or be fucked. However, if the vid has all the other elements, I tolerate it, but the best ones have more scenes of gay sex and less of women sucking cocks, etc. If you're being told you're gay, why would I want to see mostly scenes of women? There are a few really good ones that build up from hetero sex to finally gay anal and more.
Thanks for reading and letting me share my experience. What do you think?
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