It happens tomoorow

I'm supposed to be a happily married straight guy, but come tomorrow I will hopefully have a dick in my mouth and ass and can't wait. Curiosity got the best of me and I met a guy on Grindr. The big day is tomorrow and I will keep you posted. I've fooled around years ago with a couple of guys but this will be my first go at it sober, and I've never tried anal. I've been up for hours now thinking about it. I've never had a cock inside me and I'm sooo looking forward to it. I'm kind of a mans man but I hope he makes me his bitch. i want to fall in love with his cock and worship it. I hope he falls in love with my tight ass and fucks me nice and slow until I get used to it, then use me like I deserve to be used. I want to kiss him...I cant believe I'm saying that. I want to kiss another man with the taste of my cock on his lips. Oh I can't wait.
i'm sure nobody will read this, but I'm putting it out there any way. I've been holding back far to long.

update 2/24/16

After several text msg and one mutual video chat I pulled the trigger on going all the way. Wow was it worth it. It started slow, he gave me head to relax me and then kissed me. Holy shit... a kiss. we made out like teenagers, I was prepared for taking a cock but kissing? Turns out I was into it. It took a bit for him to enter me but words can't explain how good it felt to be fucked. He fucked me every which way and then spur of the moment at game time I begged for him to come in my mouth, which he did. The taste of cum I will have to get used to if this becomes regular, I've tasted mine but his was different. LOVED IT!!!