Dark Night of the Soul
This not an overtly sexual escapade for your entertainment. Look at my galleries and videos, even the stories I have included. I revel in sexuality of many forms...individual, group, alternatives...friends, marital, extramarital...especially love interracial! Have clearly over the years earned my reputation as a pervert...if there was any doubt throw in the bdsm pictures and videos. I know many of the pictures are of people having a hell of a good time with expressions of their sexual interest and just plain sexuality. I was raised in a very conservative time and came to puberty through the sexual revolution of the 60's. I have benefitted from sexual exploration and fun throughout my whole life.
SO, WHAT THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM....WHY THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL?
I am with a beautiful, caring wonderful woman who would die for or without me! We are alone in our life though a dog does run the household. c***dren are long gone and heathy and successful. Money is plentiful. We live in a place like paradise.
SO WHAT THE HELL?
Recently, I had the opportunity, to run across a man posting his wife without her knowledge (not unusual or any big surprise) and seeking someone to email her out of the blue and try to establish a relationship with her. He had fantasies of her cheating on him and being with another man, maybe becoming a hotwife. He professed great love for her and did not want to lose the marriage. He was curious if she would stray if given the opportunity...probably wanted it both ways because he said he wanted it but expressed reservations as to the guys or types of guys that were bad news.
Long story short, I obliged him and connected with her "accidently" and it took very little to be spending 5+ hours a day talking and corresponding. To his surprise she sent pictures including more revealing ones than he had ever seen. She connected on many levels quickly and shared dreams and fantasies way beyond anything he had ever heard from her. Some of her dreams and greatest joys, were things he was aware of but because he did not think they were important to him...he had minimized them so she felt alone and doubtful that she could have the dreams or ever achieve them. She dearly loved him but was stifled!
Well, it took less than two days to find out that she had a sexual wishlist a mile long and desperately wanted to explore it with someone. She invited me to meet her, agreed to possible trips, agreed to behaviors he had never dreamed she wanted and so on. She wanted it so badly and wanted promises that I would explore them with her. BELIEVE ME...they went far beyond simple quiet extramarital whoopee. She started by going braless and pantiless to a business lunch and having the most aggressive comeon employee she worked with take pictures with her camera phone and send them to me. As his reward, he got to feel her breasts and finger her pussy...
Unfortunately, this is where things started getting dicey. The night before she went home and gave her husband a hell of a night. She says she got two oral orgasms out of him before doing anything else. Then she gave him a good fucking. He told me that he wondered who she was thinking about...first concern! Well, based on her very plain statement, she told me that her whole adventure was a fantasy of being with me. Hmmm...
That is when she informed me that the book was 50 shades of grey but she was hoping for 500. She had the handcuffs, blindfolds and the perfect outdoor area to play and if I wanted to help her I could bring friends...
Now everything, I have written would suggest I had died and gone to heaven or at the very least should buy a lottery ticket immediately. She wanted all this and it would be NSA on top of it! I got all the goodies for free with minimal expectations. Most of us would kill for that.
The rub came in for me when I realized that her attitude, her oppenness, her innocence, her interests and excitement to adventure was what I been searching for my whole life and here it was rolled into one beautiful lady who wanted to share it with me. What an opportunity!
The problem was that here is the person I have been looking for for my entire life....I can have the play but not the toy....I can play with her but she is not mine, I do not get to keep her. She is NSA. If I was 20 that would have sounded damn good...what fun! Now having lived 60 years and looking for that person all these years and settling for less each time, it is really hard to stomach that your ideal is available and you can touch but not keep. It would be great for the fun, a great memory but she would be gone shortly.
That realization, that loss is truly a Dark Night for the Soul. A lifetime dream that can be touched, experienced but then to be lost! A person who literally has woken every cell in your body will pass through and be gone. What an experience, what a loss.
I will never forget the gift of her presence in my life, I will never forget the loss I feel. I will be changed forever! She was a request because of some guy's fantasy, she sent into the darkness for a soul journey. Sometimes this "fun" is seriou stuff!
SO, WHAT THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM....WHY THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL?
I am with a beautiful, caring wonderful woman who would die for or without me! We are alone in our life though a dog does run the household. c***dren are long gone and heathy and successful. Money is plentiful. We live in a place like paradise.
SO WHAT THE HELL?
Recently, I had the opportunity, to run across a man posting his wife without her knowledge (not unusual or any big surprise) and seeking someone to email her out of the blue and try to establish a relationship with her. He had fantasies of her cheating on him and being with another man, maybe becoming a hotwife. He professed great love for her and did not want to lose the marriage. He was curious if she would stray if given the opportunity...probably wanted it both ways because he said he wanted it but expressed reservations as to the guys or types of guys that were bad news.
Long story short, I obliged him and connected with her "accidently" and it took very little to be spending 5+ hours a day talking and corresponding. To his surprise she sent pictures including more revealing ones than he had ever seen. She connected on many levels quickly and shared dreams and fantasies way beyond anything he had ever heard from her. Some of her dreams and greatest joys, were things he was aware of but because he did not think they were important to him...he had minimized them so she felt alone and doubtful that she could have the dreams or ever achieve them. She dearly loved him but was stifled!
Well, it took less than two days to find out that she had a sexual wishlist a mile long and desperately wanted to explore it with someone. She invited me to meet her, agreed to possible trips, agreed to behaviors he had never dreamed she wanted and so on. She wanted it so badly and wanted promises that I would explore them with her. BELIEVE ME...they went far beyond simple quiet extramarital whoopee. She started by going braless and pantiless to a business lunch and having the most aggressive comeon employee she worked with take pictures with her camera phone and send them to me. As his reward, he got to feel her breasts and finger her pussy...
Unfortunately, this is where things started getting dicey. The night before she went home and gave her husband a hell of a night. She says she got two oral orgasms out of him before doing anything else. Then she gave him a good fucking. He told me that he wondered who she was thinking about...first concern! Well, based on her very plain statement, she told me that her whole adventure was a fantasy of being with me. Hmmm...
That is when she informed me that the book was 50 shades of grey but she was hoping for 500. She had the handcuffs, blindfolds and the perfect outdoor area to play and if I wanted to help her I could bring friends...
Now everything, I have written would suggest I had died and gone to heaven or at the very least should buy a lottery ticket immediately. She wanted all this and it would be NSA on top of it! I got all the goodies for free with minimal expectations. Most of us would kill for that.
The rub came in for me when I realized that her attitude, her oppenness, her innocence, her interests and excitement to adventure was what I been searching for my whole life and here it was rolled into one beautiful lady who wanted to share it with me. What an opportunity!
The problem was that here is the person I have been looking for for my entire life....I can have the play but not the toy....I can play with her but she is not mine, I do not get to keep her. She is NSA. If I was 20 that would have sounded damn good...what fun! Now having lived 60 years and looking for that person all these years and settling for less each time, it is really hard to stomach that your ideal is available and you can touch but not keep. It would be great for the fun, a great memory but she would be gone shortly.
That realization, that loss is truly a Dark Night for the Soul. A lifetime dream that can be touched, experienced but then to be lost! A person who literally has woken every cell in your body will pass through and be gone. What an experience, what a loss.
I will never forget the gift of her presence in my life, I will never forget the loss I feel. I will be changed forever! She was a request because of some guy's fantasy, she sent into the darkness for a soul journey. Sometimes this "fun" is seriou stuff!
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