Camming & Update first week of September

Hi there guys, well I have some privacy for the next two weeks and am hoping to cam. Unfortunately I have been dealing with depression pretty hard and have an almost impossible time getting myself to do anything. Tons of symptoms of and/or health issues alongside depression are occurring and it's pretty overwhelming. Fatigue is a pretty big one. I've been talking to a doctor and trying new prescriptions. No luck so far, but tomorrow I'm trying a new one. He has also referred me to a psychiatrist. As usual I have been working-out, eating a balanced diet, and taking my regular medications & health supplements (vitamins, minerals, probiotics, detox meds and other stuff)...all stuff I have been needing to do to combat my constant health/pain/fatigue problems (that began to start most notably in 2011) and none of it is helping and honestly it's fucking hard and expensive keeping up with it my health regime.

So yeah, like I said I really want to cam this week but I just can't set anything in stone in advance because I don't know how I will be feeling on a certain day. I am going to public cam at least once this week, and be available for private shows at least once this week. Here is my tentative schedule:

I cammed briefly on Wednesday, Sept 2 evening
Might public cam Friday, Sept 4 evening
Might do private shows Saturday, Sept 5 in the afternoon
Might do private shows Monday, Sept 7 (Labour Day) in the afternoon

If I know for sure I will be doing camming on a particular day then I will certainly post it on xhamster and twitter. So yeah basically I will update you guys as soon as I feel confident as to what dates I can or can't perform on. Also on my public show I want to talk about the VMAs and the sex I had with my fuck buddy last weekend and dance to some new music that I'm into (damn Nick Jonas is really killing it) and drink and shoot the shit about whatever other random stuff comes up :)

Also I'm suppose to go to a swingers/sex party this weekend and I really, really hope I have the motivation to go. Even if I do go I am worried because the only way I can feel comfortable is if I drink some alcohol, and I'm worried about the alcohol and my new anti-depressant meds not mixing well. Eeek! Well I am going to do my very best to go, and if I go I can at least just hang-out and relax and maybe make a couple new friends. I really want to try to have a MFF threesome with a couple while I am still single. After I do that I hope I have the confidence to do a MMF although I have no idea how I would go about setting that up without it feeling too sketchy or who to even do that with. I'm not into sex with strangers but unfortunately I think this is the route I will have to go for threesomes (both kinds). None of my friends who are MF couples seem interested in doing a threesome or I'm just too scared to ask. it would be great though, particularly with this one married couple I'm friends with.....but anyway. I'm gonna hopefully go to the sex party and tell you all how it goes.

Ok thanks for reading and I'll hopefully see some of you this week or weekend!