The bue eyed man.

I saw you in 1989 and I did not know what it would happen in the future : nice guy, about 30, getting off the shop and ready to join your car. Further more, I was looking at your short hair, of course you were very clean and very interesting to me. The first love I could remember at the age of 19 which has changed my attitude. You were my secret man and you have been in my heart for such a long time and in my dreams, your touch was an indelebile memory. Before sleeping, I always thought to think about you and especially during the summer, I could not stand sleeping alone : I needed you.

Then, when getting back home from the forest, I borrowed this way and I saw you when talking to my friend in 1991 and when I found you were single after being informed by this one, everything changed in my life just because of your face and I realized that you were mine. I expected you to become my boyfriend, my man so as to make love with you and play a lot of things in the dark, forest, seasides, and go with me in all over the world for life.

My friend told me a lot about you and advised me one day to make an arrangement with you, but foolishly, I made a big mistake. Knowing you could have let me a lot of things and toghether, life would be perfect. Kind, generous, manual, resourcefull.

I saw you one day and I listened this night my intuition to go dancing but you were with a girl who wanted you. Sadly, even after avoided me with your words I could not understand, I was hurt and disappointed, which made me in a bad health for a long time. The doctors did not know anything about that and they were more surprised in fact to discover a few years later my love for a man sleeping in my heart.

Congratulations if you got married in 1996, I was very glad for your woman to have such a golden heart who would be my destiny.

In 2003, I decided to look for another man second my friend's advice but : inside my heart and never out of my mind.

A real story written by a suffering boy (1989-2003)