Mistake

I must admit that I have often thought
of leaving it all behind and letting everything go

I was lost and alone,as I always am,
So many people around me,
Yet no one seems to care.

They say they understand and love me very much,
But just when I trust to love,they forget and move on.

I held the knife so close
as tears,mixed with blood,
Began to fall slowly.
Like a foolish c***d I cried.

Knowing that I could end it all now
made my mind draw a blank.

I put the knife away and tried to wipe the blood,
that ran faster than I can describe.

I knew suicide wasn't the answer I was looking for.
I knew there was a reason for me being alone.

So many bad things happening at once
They can make you forget
About the good qualities of life.

Even though life is hard,
and trouble an inevitable part of it.

If you decide to leave it all behind,
maybe you will,
but I can guarantee that others
Your mistake will haunt.