My history with panties

I was obsessed with panties from a very early age. I can remember putting on my Mom's panties under my pyjamas even at the age of 6 or 7. I would go to sleep wearing them, then give my Mom a surprise the next morning when she came to undress me.
When I was about 8 or 9, I had to stay over unexpectedly at my Gran's house and didn't have a change of underpants.
I was allowed to wear a pair my my Aunt's bikini bottoms. I found this hugely exciting.
As I approached puberty, I continued in more daring endeavours.
Everywhere I went, I had to steal a pair of panties. Whether from a friend's wife or girlfriend or mother or sister.
I remember very well the very first time I ejaculated. Oddly, it was not into a pair of panties, it was into a silk scarf.
I didn't actually know how to masturbate properly, I was just teasing the scarf over my cock and balls. I could feel something different, something building to a peak, and then the delicious pulsing as my spunk erupted for the first time.
After this, I realised that I would always need something to ejaculate into, and a pair of panties was my favourite.
What I enjoyed best of all was spunking into the gusset of a worn pair of panties.
I must have gone through hundreds of them.
What also gave me a thrill was thinking that someone might suspect me of pilfering. I stayed over a lot with a friend and his wife, and over the years I must have stolen an wanked into 20 pairs of her knickers.
My pantie use has tapered off quite a bit as I have gotten older, but the pull is always there.