My drama..... Last misfortune

It's not the first or last misfortune i get
But surely this is the hardest
I been very Naive and unwise
I let my self go very far... I even become very close to for fell my destiny
I became very open to the world....
Suddenly i had a hard slap on my face
A hard blade cut my chest through my heart
I full down broken wings
My judgment day began
Loss her, kill her, parry her once and for all or face the worst, that was the deal
Wounded, unknowing what to do, and all alone, couldn't find any other hope
I give her up......
But it's my soul, giving her up is a diss sentence for me
I looked her up in a far dark Cave for her & mine sack
Pretending and acting is my new plan till I find a good time to free her again