Random rant q.q

my paraphilia interests is making it hard for me to find anything to get off too.... i get so frustrated just trying to find anything; videos, pics, stories or even anything that just remotely comes close to what im into even though its not even sexually suggestive....its so frustrating .....i really wish i could just fap to every traditional porn i see on the internet....but that only happens after hours of searching of something that will ...quench the thirst? ....when when i cant find any....i just lose morale and on the verge of tears then just fap to regular porn u.u
im sure im not the only one that feels like this


random rant by a weirdo that finds things like watching a girl press random hotkeys while owning in some pvp game

P.S dont suggest me twitch girl streamers althought some of them do play good.... -.-