Annoyance of the search

depressing it is not worth the effort! Guys I click with r always so far away I could never meet them.Even when going over every detail they still manage to lie,keep secrets,or just wanna be's.I adore my cubs but none of them have time to devot to me,and r at such a different stage in life that it wouldn't work long term. Or they want a sugar momma and let me specify,all my sugar is for my k**s!! My value is in things you can't buy anyway;loyalty,creativity,devotion,honesty.Trust me I KNOW my value I am neither desperate or needy or lonely.When I am with someone even casual it is a choice I enjoy and value what they have to share with me.I am so over it all,worse than vanilla dating where u just get a broken heart,thinking you will finally have your needs met always get so close and then ,NOT!!! Disheartening and annoying so exhausted!