Stupid Heart

No I am not being anti social or mad at anyone.Busy with mum stuff and trying to deal with my feelings.Yes I am a freaky chick and I love sex and I like being a cougar ,but when my heart gets involved it's a game changer.Reciprocal or not,wise or not,practical or not it just happened! More than just can't have guy I want ; it's that now I want things I didn't before.I have to reconcile wanting more with also wanting to b my amazing freaky self. It is certainly a struggle. So don't take it personal if I don't want to play.