Casual Encounter

I had just moved to a new city in my state and have only had relationships with women, I often only watch chubby men in porn and it gets me harder than any straight porn can. I decided to post an ad to a popular site with a casual encounter section. Seeking a chubby man to do reciprocal oral as I want to take this slow with a man as Im not sure if I will actually enjoy it or if it is just a fantasy. I got a few replies the first day and chickened out. The next day i had a few drinks and was at the hotel i was put in until my job found me housing and inhibitions were gone and I decided tonights the night. A good candidate from the night before emailed again and we set up a time for him to come to the hotel. I had another drink and hopped in the shower to be fully ready for my encounter. I got out a d put on only a pair of gym shorts and a tshirt. As his time approached to arrive I slipped downstairs to have a cigarette as i was insanely nervous. He arrived, also smoking a cigarette, we greeted one another, finished our cigarettes and got in the elevator together to head up to my room. It was awkwardly silent, my heart was pounding and while most people say Ive never done this before line, I really hadn't so its all that come come out of my mouth. We got to my room and I was nervous as can be and said aloud, well lets do this and dropped my gym shorts revealing my fully hard cock and then removed my white tshirt. Standing there naked before him while he was fully clothed was exhilarating, he immediately followed and there we were two naked men, only one of us knowing what to do next, I saw his cock and had never touched one other than my own and immediately put it in my mouth and pulled him on the bed ontop of me landing us in a 69 position, this was my fantasy, sucking his cock while he sucked mine, it felt fantastic, i got courageous and began rimming his ass and sticking my fingers inside of him while he continued sucking on me. We continued this for a long time and then he asked if I wanted to bend him over. Honestly I wanted nothing more than to feel the inside of his asshole against my cock and blow deep inside him but i didnt have a condom and was shy so i said i wasnt ready he tossed me down and focused on just me until i finished inside of his mouth and he left immediately. I knew he wanted me inside of him, I will always have condoms now. I crave another experience as this is still my only one and this time i want to feel the inside of a hot asshole.,