My Personal Hesitation

This comes up in conversations a lot, so I figured I'd make a post about it. I have never been eaten out to completion. When I was in my last relationship 4 years ago, with a boy two years older than me. He had me suck his dick a lot and give him handjobs and stuff, and gave me a bit of pressure to do those things. I decided one day I would ask him to 'return the favor' since I sucked him a lot (He never let me make him cum though) and I asked him about it. He said no at first, since he didn't like the taste, and I persisted (Yes, that was a bad thing to do, I shouldn't have, but I was young) and he licked my cunt once before recoiling as if he had just consumed battery acid. He tried to get my wetness off of his tongue and out of his mouth, making a big show of it, before he said he didn't want to do that again. I decided after that that I would never ask for oral again, and I wouldn't pressure a guy into doing something if they were hesitent at first. That's my personal hangup about oral sex. I've never had a pleasurable experience with receiving oral, so I just assume guys don't like it and that it's not really something they do because they want to. This might also tie in with my ideas that women and men deserve respect, except for me, and that pressuring someone to do something is wrong, but I accept that sort of treatment anyways.