Thug Love ((((( chapter 5))))
If you have not Read the other 4 chapters of this story I urge you to do so in order to understand the chain of events
On The 28th Day Of Jay: Its a hot summer day. I am exactly a month away from the 1 year anniversary of me loosing my anal virginity. At this point Jay and i have been living together for 28 days. The first two weeks were great minus the severe pain from constant anal sex. At first Jay was cool and laid back, we laughed and reminisce on old times. Jay told me that when he first say me he was blown away. He said he had never seen a guy so sexy, instantly he knew he would fuck me one day. I told him my first time seeing him was just as intense, but I never thought I would ever get the privilege of having his dick go inside me. The first two weeks were magical but by now Jay has become his old self, aggressive, domineering, condescending and cold. Living with Jay is a constant balancing act. Jay pays the rent and help with food, he's very responsible. But when he's upset it gets ugly and its not like it was before, when he could just go home to his girlfriend. Today started off well, Jay was on the couch watching the history channel, I stood in the bathroom staring at myself in the mirror. My thoughts are so contradicting. I'm asking myself "why are you sleeping with a man, allowing him to fuck you and dominate you. But the left side of my brain was asking are you and Jay in a relationship or are you just roommates with benefits. I had never asked Jay about our status. I knew he was having sex with girls in the apartment building because they would come by looking for him( we told everyone we were cousins). I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the couch with him, he put his arm around me and laid back into the couch. I looked over at him and he says "what you thinking bout ****a" i said "Jay what are we doing man, are we together or are we just fucking" he said "we good, just know i fucks with you". I don't want to go any further because Jay makes me believe I'm acting like a nagging bitch driven by emotions when i ask too many questions. With his arm still around me he starts rubbing his dick with his other hand. He lifts the arm he had around me grabbed my head and guided my head to his dick. I jumped up away from the couch and Jay, he said "what the fuck you doing" i said Jay I'm not in the mood to suck dick bruh i got shit on my mind" He grabbed me by my mini Afro, d**g me too that bathroom and through me into the the bathtub and said "you ain't got to suck my dick I'll just fuck yo mouth " i got on my knees in the tub while he stood up outside the tub, he gripped my hair so firmly i could feel strands of my hair coming out. His dick was already hard he spit in my mouth 3 time then spit in my face and shoved his huge dick into my mouth, immediately I gagged, his dick hit the back of my throat and my throat began to constrict He going very fast and hard i can't take it,he's holding my head so tight i can't move, I feel ***** coming through my throat and it pured out on his dick. I gagged as if i was taking my last breath on my dying bed. I moved my head away to catch my breath, with ***** running down my chin he slapped me, repositioned my head and continued to fuck my mouth so hard ***** was puring from my mouth and nose frequently. My eyes watered as if i was crying, he told me to look up at him, i did then he spit in my face again while the head of his dick was destroying my throat. Finally I feel his thick cum hitting my throat, he spits in my mouth and told me to swallow, i did while coughing up my lungs i felt like i had had an asthma attack, while wiping my eyes i felt warm liquid hitting the side of my face, i instantly realized he was peeing on me he demanded me to open my mouth and he peed directly into my mouth and it ran down my chin, So i lay in the tub surrounded by my own ***** mixed with his urine and all he say is "clean yourself up and get that tub clean i wanna take a shower"
Gay VS. Straight: Hours later Jay has gone off to class and I'm sitting home working on a term paper. My mind is so unstable that i can't concentrate well enough to write so i log onto YouTube to see what going on,I see a video that I'm sure is about to rip my heart apart. There this dude I'm subscribed to on YouTube. He's sexy, tall, dark skinned with dread lock, thugged out with a body full of tats but I'm more impressed with his views on certain topics. See he's the same as Jay, he looks, acts like and has the voice of a brainless thug but is intellectual beyond comparison. Though he never went to college like Jay he could hold a conversation about any topic politics, the legal system, modern day medicine, music etc. That's why i have always been so into Jay he has the thug appeal but the IQ of a genius, But anyway he has just uploaded a video titled " DL ****as should die slow". I always knew he wasn't fund of the gay lifestyle but i never though he would go so far to bash gay men. In his video he says he doesn't understand why 2 men would want to have sex in the first place but thats their business, what he hates is when men have sex with both men and women and don't tell the girl they are bisexual(For the record i agree with that part). He also went on speaking very harshly about the gay lifestyle, he said he found gay sex to be just as disgusting as having sex with a****ls; my heart dies for a second, This guy who i looked up to( he's 2 years older than me) was looking down on me. I decided to send him a private message. I told him my entire situation. and how i didn't ask for this, I wish i could be straight like him, how coming out could mean my own dad and entire family disowning me. I explained how much it hurt to hear him of all people say such cruel things. He sent me his yahoo messenger ID and we sat up a time to talk about it. We logged on to yahoo and he began, by telling me he didn't mean to offend me but he only speaks what on his heart and he is speaking for women that have been affected by this, he also say that he is a real ****a and he doesn't sugar code his thoughts, I tried to get him to understand that i didn't ask to be gay and I'm tired if being punished for it. He suggested we do a video debating rather or not homosexuality is a choice. I agreed i don't know why, i was afraid to even be in the same room as him, how was I going to debate him on a topic he hated so much?
The Moment Of Truth: A week later he hit me up and told me he was ready for the debate, We tried to do it on yahoo messenger but it didn't work out, so he asked me to come to his house so we could do it in person. I went to his house and the sight of him made me afraid to even speak on the issue, he is so tall and masculine and he has already expressed his dislike toward the gay lifestyle in his videos so i don't know what to expect; at that point i decided i couldn't do it, i could not get on YouTube and defend gays; even if i didn't come out and say i was bi people would still wonder why a straight man would feel so passionate about gays and bisexuals. when we got into his room he was setting up the camera. His strong manly cologne tranquilized me as i sat in the computer chair next to his. I timidly said bruh i can't do it, can i just give you my point of view and you just, deliver both sides of the argument. He was disappointed but after a deep exhale he grabbed his notebook and started asking me questions. The first question was "when did you realize you were gay or bisexual"? I explained to him i could remember having a crush on a girl when i was in the kindergarten. I though she was so fine until i seen her older brother, even though he was a second grader had so much sex appeal at such a young age, I knew then something wasn't right. I went on to tell him that i could never come out to my family because my dad would want me dead, i would shame his name.I fought back tear while explaining to him how my own preacher has made me come very close to committing suicide because of the way he preaches about homosexuality,to think that I'm going to hell for desires i didn't ask for its not fair. I told him about the nights i have cried myself to sleep because my prayers of being straight had not been answered. I told him everything even about jay and what i had been going through with him. I wanted him to know he could never understand what gay/bi people go through he has never had to question his sexuality he is what he is suppose to be in the eyes of God and the world. He yelled " stop!, i can't take this shit no more bruh, its too depressing", he looked at me as a older brother would look at his troubled little brother and said. "I sorry i never understood being gay wasn't a choice, i never tried to be insensitive but no one ever broke it down to me like you did, and why do you let that ****a treat you like that, you thing that motha fucka care about you"? i replied "yes he's a cold person but he has good in him but that besides the point do you understand now why your comments felt so condemning"? He stoop up and walk around his room he wanted to comfort me with words of encouragement but he didn't know what to say, he was speechless. We both sat there unable to converse, then we heard a loud hard thunder clap. He looked outside and said " damn its dark out there" he turned on the news and stepped out of the room so i could answer my phone( jay was calling me). I couldn't lie about my location because we both have the iPhone and he can just look-up my location with his phone. So i told him i was at my cousin's house. He told me to stay there because a tornado has been spotted on the ground and the entire area is under tornado warning, I agreed and told him my battery was dying and i would call him back shortly he said " I'm serious ****a don't be out there driving in that shit its fuck up out there" then he hung up. I went back into the room with Anthony and he advised me to stay at his house until the tornado warnings are lifted. We sat down and continued our conversation he say " what funny about this shit is that you don't even act gay, i would have never guessed you were a fag, oops i meant gay" I laughed and said "and no body would ever suspect jay as being gay, you just never know your best friend or cousin could be gay, but because of how gay men are treated they are afraid to say so" he said "and that ****a Jay call you fags and bitch ****as and he feel like he not gay because he's doing the fucking" i said "yep thats Jay" he replied "and you still fucking with a ****a that talk to you like that and then the ****a put a gun to your face" i looked at him and asked "you think I'm a stupid fag don't you" he said " you just a sucker for love but uma tell you as a friend to leave that ****a alone" i said "you see me as a friend" he laughed and said i guess so, shid somebody got to look out for you and make sure you don't get you fucking head blown off" we both laughed he continued talking but at this point i hear nothing he is saying, this intelligent, thuggish, sexy dread headed body beside me has me in a daze. He has a beautiful body i don't know why he completely covered his mid-section with tattoos, but it turned me on and to hear him express concern for me was the icing on the cake. He tapped me on my shoulder and said "****a do you hear me talking to you" i snapped out of it and said "huh what you say" he said " i said you never looked at me in a sexual way did you" i was shocked i never look at him sexually until now, i didn't want to lie but being honest could get me killed right now. I said " can i be honest" he said " yea my ****a" i said " you are a very attractive dude and if you were gay or bi you would be the type of guy that aroused me sexually" to shift the conversation i didn't give him time to respond i went on to say "bruh you just don't understand i wish i was like you normal" he said "be careful what you wish for and you never know what a person can understand" he looked down to the floor then back up and me and said " i never told anybody this but I'm a lil bi, i never fucked a dude but i be imagining some gay shit" i said "like what" he said "right now i wanna fuck you, you a fly lil ****a i wanna see what it would feel like to be inside you". I was shocked he laid onto his bed and told me to get naked. I stood up removed my clothes and so did he. I laid on top of him and and kissed him from his lips to the tip of his dick. His dick wasn't as long as Jay's but slightly fatter, it looked like a fat 8 inch long, thick king size snicker bar.I applied the skills jay taught me with no hands or teeth slowly sucking while soaking his dick with my saliva and taking in as much of it as i can, he pushed me off and said "damn bruh hold on let me brace myself i aint never had head this good" he moaned and shook the entire time.he grabbed my head and forced me to take more of his dick into my throat His dick was so smooth and soft he was so hard, i could feel the veins of his dick on the surface of my tongue. he laid me on my back and fucked my throat, unlike Jay he would ease up when i gagged, as he lay on top of me fucking my face with his eyes rolling to that back of his head, i admire his strong dark tatted body with ever stoke his dread locks swing back and forward they were long and crinkly. My eyes watered as his thick dick punched the back of my throat, he was rough but not a savage like Jay. He pulled his dick out of my mouth put a condom on, lubricates it and as i lay there on my back i think " oh shit what if jay can tell I've been having sex with another dude, he has threatened to kill me before i i ever slept with another dude, I'm also thing wow this dude has a fat dick" the head of his dick against my asshole interrupted my thoughts, i braced myself for the pain. The head of his dick went in and i jumped and moaned painfully( he had a huge head)he laid on me chest to chest and kissed me as he gently worked his dick inside me. It was this moment that i realized the thickness of a dick really matters it feel like my first time all over again. I can feel the walls of my asshole expanding, stretching to accommodate his huge dick, he gently went in and out with deep long strokes. I began to tremble because of the pain, he wrapped his arms around me as he kissed me and told me " I'm not like that other ****a uma make love to you" At this point i still haven't fully soaked in the fact that this dude is even attracted to men let along that fact that he is holding me in his arms and making love to me. As his long, clean and neat dreads brushed against my body, he went in a circular motion as as his dick massage the walls of my asshole, i forgot all about the pain, he smelled so good and treated me so well. I never new a thug could be so compassionate, He held me in his arms the entire time, his strong muscular sweaty back glistened as the light shined on him. He moaned " fuck this shit feel good I'm bout to nut." i felt his dick pumping thick cum into the condom, he too the condom off threw it on the floor and laid on top of me. He asked " you good" I said "yea" we both laid there and watched the news until we feel asleep.
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On The 28th Day Of Jay: Its a hot summer day. I am exactly a month away from the 1 year anniversary of me loosing my anal virginity. At this point Jay and i have been living together for 28 days. The first two weeks were great minus the severe pain from constant anal sex. At first Jay was cool and laid back, we laughed and reminisce on old times. Jay told me that when he first say me he was blown away. He said he had never seen a guy so sexy, instantly he knew he would fuck me one day. I told him my first time seeing him was just as intense, but I never thought I would ever get the privilege of having his dick go inside me. The first two weeks were magical but by now Jay has become his old self, aggressive, domineering, condescending and cold. Living with Jay is a constant balancing act. Jay pays the rent and help with food, he's very responsible. But when he's upset it gets ugly and its not like it was before, when he could just go home to his girlfriend. Today started off well, Jay was on the couch watching the history channel, I stood in the bathroom staring at myself in the mirror. My thoughts are so contradicting. I'm asking myself "why are you sleeping with a man, allowing him to fuck you and dominate you. But the left side of my brain was asking are you and Jay in a relationship or are you just roommates with benefits. I had never asked Jay about our status. I knew he was having sex with girls in the apartment building because they would come by looking for him( we told everyone we were cousins). I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the couch with him, he put his arm around me and laid back into the couch. I looked over at him and he says "what you thinking bout ****a" i said "Jay what are we doing man, are we together or are we just fucking" he said "we good, just know i fucks with you". I don't want to go any further because Jay makes me believe I'm acting like a nagging bitch driven by emotions when i ask too many questions. With his arm still around me he starts rubbing his dick with his other hand. He lifts the arm he had around me grabbed my head and guided my head to his dick. I jumped up away from the couch and Jay, he said "what the fuck you doing" i said Jay I'm not in the mood to suck dick bruh i got shit on my mind" He grabbed me by my mini Afro, d**g me too that bathroom and through me into the the bathtub and said "you ain't got to suck my dick I'll just fuck yo mouth " i got on my knees in the tub while he stood up outside the tub, he gripped my hair so firmly i could feel strands of my hair coming out. His dick was already hard he spit in my mouth 3 time then spit in my face and shoved his huge dick into my mouth, immediately I gagged, his dick hit the back of my throat and my throat began to constrict He going very fast and hard i can't take it,he's holding my head so tight i can't move, I feel ***** coming through my throat and it pured out on his dick. I gagged as if i was taking my last breath on my dying bed. I moved my head away to catch my breath, with ***** running down my chin he slapped me, repositioned my head and continued to fuck my mouth so hard ***** was puring from my mouth and nose frequently. My eyes watered as if i was crying, he told me to look up at him, i did then he spit in my face again while the head of his dick was destroying my throat. Finally I feel his thick cum hitting my throat, he spits in my mouth and told me to swallow, i did while coughing up my lungs i felt like i had had an asthma attack, while wiping my eyes i felt warm liquid hitting the side of my face, i instantly realized he was peeing on me he demanded me to open my mouth and he peed directly into my mouth and it ran down my chin, So i lay in the tub surrounded by my own ***** mixed with his urine and all he say is "clean yourself up and get that tub clean i wanna take a shower"
Gay VS. Straight: Hours later Jay has gone off to class and I'm sitting home working on a term paper. My mind is so unstable that i can't concentrate well enough to write so i log onto YouTube to see what going on,I see a video that I'm sure is about to rip my heart apart. There this dude I'm subscribed to on YouTube. He's sexy, tall, dark skinned with dread lock, thugged out with a body full of tats but I'm more impressed with his views on certain topics. See he's the same as Jay, he looks, acts like and has the voice of a brainless thug but is intellectual beyond comparison. Though he never went to college like Jay he could hold a conversation about any topic politics, the legal system, modern day medicine, music etc. That's why i have always been so into Jay he has the thug appeal but the IQ of a genius, But anyway he has just uploaded a video titled " DL ****as should die slow". I always knew he wasn't fund of the gay lifestyle but i never though he would go so far to bash gay men. In his video he says he doesn't understand why 2 men would want to have sex in the first place but thats their business, what he hates is when men have sex with both men and women and don't tell the girl they are bisexual(For the record i agree with that part). He also went on speaking very harshly about the gay lifestyle, he said he found gay sex to be just as disgusting as having sex with a****ls; my heart dies for a second, This guy who i looked up to( he's 2 years older than me) was looking down on me. I decided to send him a private message. I told him my entire situation. and how i didn't ask for this, I wish i could be straight like him, how coming out could mean my own dad and entire family disowning me. I explained how much it hurt to hear him of all people say such cruel things. He sent me his yahoo messenger ID and we sat up a time to talk about it. We logged on to yahoo and he began, by telling me he didn't mean to offend me but he only speaks what on his heart and he is speaking for women that have been affected by this, he also say that he is a real ****a and he doesn't sugar code his thoughts, I tried to get him to understand that i didn't ask to be gay and I'm tired if being punished for it. He suggested we do a video debating rather or not homosexuality is a choice. I agreed i don't know why, i was afraid to even be in the same room as him, how was I going to debate him on a topic he hated so much?
The Moment Of Truth: A week later he hit me up and told me he was ready for the debate, We tried to do it on yahoo messenger but it didn't work out, so he asked me to come to his house so we could do it in person. I went to his house and the sight of him made me afraid to even speak on the issue, he is so tall and masculine and he has already expressed his dislike toward the gay lifestyle in his videos so i don't know what to expect; at that point i decided i couldn't do it, i could not get on YouTube and defend gays; even if i didn't come out and say i was bi people would still wonder why a straight man would feel so passionate about gays and bisexuals. when we got into his room he was setting up the camera. His strong manly cologne tranquilized me as i sat in the computer chair next to his. I timidly said bruh i can't do it, can i just give you my point of view and you just, deliver both sides of the argument. He was disappointed but after a deep exhale he grabbed his notebook and started asking me questions. The first question was "when did you realize you were gay or bisexual"? I explained to him i could remember having a crush on a girl when i was in the kindergarten. I though she was so fine until i seen her older brother, even though he was a second grader had so much sex appeal at such a young age, I knew then something wasn't right. I went on to tell him that i could never come out to my family because my dad would want me dead, i would shame his name.I fought back tear while explaining to him how my own preacher has made me come very close to committing suicide because of the way he preaches about homosexuality,to think that I'm going to hell for desires i didn't ask for its not fair. I told him about the nights i have cried myself to sleep because my prayers of being straight had not been answered. I told him everything even about jay and what i had been going through with him. I wanted him to know he could never understand what gay/bi people go through he has never had to question his sexuality he is what he is suppose to be in the eyes of God and the world. He yelled " stop!, i can't take this shit no more bruh, its too depressing", he looked at me as a older brother would look at his troubled little brother and said. "I sorry i never understood being gay wasn't a choice, i never tried to be insensitive but no one ever broke it down to me like you did, and why do you let that ****a treat you like that, you thing that motha fucka care about you"? i replied "yes he's a cold person but he has good in him but that besides the point do you understand now why your comments felt so condemning"? He stoop up and walk around his room he wanted to comfort me with words of encouragement but he didn't know what to say, he was speechless. We both sat there unable to converse, then we heard a loud hard thunder clap. He looked outside and said " damn its dark out there" he turned on the news and stepped out of the room so i could answer my phone( jay was calling me). I couldn't lie about my location because we both have the iPhone and he can just look-up my location with his phone. So i told him i was at my cousin's house. He told me to stay there because a tornado has been spotted on the ground and the entire area is under tornado warning, I agreed and told him my battery was dying and i would call him back shortly he said " I'm serious ****a don't be out there driving in that shit its fuck up out there" then he hung up. I went back into the room with Anthony and he advised me to stay at his house until the tornado warnings are lifted. We sat down and continued our conversation he say " what funny about this shit is that you don't even act gay, i would have never guessed you were a fag, oops i meant gay" I laughed and said "and no body would ever suspect jay as being gay, you just never know your best friend or cousin could be gay, but because of how gay men are treated they are afraid to say so" he said "and that ****a Jay call you fags and bitch ****as and he feel like he not gay because he's doing the fucking" i said "yep thats Jay" he replied "and you still fucking with a ****a that talk to you like that and then the ****a put a gun to your face" i looked at him and asked "you think I'm a stupid fag don't you" he said " you just a sucker for love but uma tell you as a friend to leave that ****a alone" i said "you see me as a friend" he laughed and said i guess so, shid somebody got to look out for you and make sure you don't get you fucking head blown off" we both laughed he continued talking but at this point i hear nothing he is saying, this intelligent, thuggish, sexy dread headed body beside me has me in a daze. He has a beautiful body i don't know why he completely covered his mid-section with tattoos, but it turned me on and to hear him express concern for me was the icing on the cake. He tapped me on my shoulder and said "****a do you hear me talking to you" i snapped out of it and said "huh what you say" he said " i said you never looked at me in a sexual way did you" i was shocked i never look at him sexually until now, i didn't want to lie but being honest could get me killed right now. I said " can i be honest" he said " yea my ****a" i said " you are a very attractive dude and if you were gay or bi you would be the type of guy that aroused me sexually" to shift the conversation i didn't give him time to respond i went on to say "bruh you just don't understand i wish i was like you normal" he said "be careful what you wish for and you never know what a person can understand" he looked down to the floor then back up and me and said " i never told anybody this but I'm a lil bi, i never fucked a dude but i be imagining some gay shit" i said "like what" he said "right now i wanna fuck you, you a fly lil ****a i wanna see what it would feel like to be inside you". I was shocked he laid onto his bed and told me to get naked. I stood up removed my clothes and so did he. I laid on top of him and and kissed him from his lips to the tip of his dick. His dick wasn't as long as Jay's but slightly fatter, it looked like a fat 8 inch long, thick king size snicker bar.I applied the skills jay taught me with no hands or teeth slowly sucking while soaking his dick with my saliva and taking in as much of it as i can, he pushed me off and said "damn bruh hold on let me brace myself i aint never had head this good" he moaned and shook the entire time.he grabbed my head and forced me to take more of his dick into my throat His dick was so smooth and soft he was so hard, i could feel the veins of his dick on the surface of my tongue. he laid me on my back and fucked my throat, unlike Jay he would ease up when i gagged, as he lay on top of me fucking my face with his eyes rolling to that back of his head, i admire his strong dark tatted body with ever stoke his dread locks swing back and forward they were long and crinkly. My eyes watered as his thick dick punched the back of my throat, he was rough but not a savage like Jay. He pulled his dick out of my mouth put a condom on, lubricates it and as i lay there on my back i think " oh shit what if jay can tell I've been having sex with another dude, he has threatened to kill me before i i ever slept with another dude, I'm also thing wow this dude has a fat dick" the head of his dick against my asshole interrupted my thoughts, i braced myself for the pain. The head of his dick went in and i jumped and moaned painfully( he had a huge head)he laid on me chest to chest and kissed me as he gently worked his dick inside me. It was this moment that i realized the thickness of a dick really matters it feel like my first time all over again. I can feel the walls of my asshole expanding, stretching to accommodate his huge dick, he gently went in and out with deep long strokes. I began to tremble because of the pain, he wrapped his arms around me as he kissed me and told me " I'm not like that other ****a uma make love to you" At this point i still haven't fully soaked in the fact that this dude is even attracted to men let along that fact that he is holding me in his arms and making love to me. As his long, clean and neat dreads brushed against my body, he went in a circular motion as as his dick massage the walls of my asshole, i forgot all about the pain, he smelled so good and treated me so well. I never new a thug could be so compassionate, He held me in his arms the entire time, his strong muscular sweaty back glistened as the light shined on him. He moaned " fuck this shit feel good I'm bout to nut." i felt his dick pumping thick cum into the condom, he too the condom off threw it on the floor and laid on top of me. He asked " you good" I said "yea" we both laid there and watched the news until we feel asleep.
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