Venting and Just talking (please read if you want)

In all of the months and years i have been on Fetlife, I have taken breaks and tired new things like getting into Puppy play and zentai and crossdressing. And im loving it but one thing has been a constant is that my masters or mistress or my boyfriends or girlfriends(before knowing im gay) make me buy stuff and well they never got anything for me or bought anything for me im the one usually buying stuff. My masters or mistress or bfs or gfs stay that there busy or that they done have any money to do anything but they turn around gets something for them self or ask me me to find and they buy for themselves. The only thing i do is sit on the side lines and do as told no getting any recognition or help or anything

I would like some help or something or a dom or mistress that cares to help or care or something i dont know what i am going to do anymore one day i will break