Tuesday

Zoe , well so far she has been totally en femme for nearly 2 weeks now , and it feels great so been dressed and fully made up for 2 weeks every morning up showered done my make up and nails and gotten dressed and it has been liberating being dressed all day every day loved every minute of it , though i must admit living tota;;y as a woman does have some drawbacks but it has given me an totally honest insight to what it can be like being dressed and made up as a female every day , it is most definitely exhilarating but wow it is high maintenance , I just find it so relaxing and to me as a person i find being able to dress and do my make up every day has given me a different outlook into my own feelings about who i really am , more than a male who loves to dress but i feel truly alive as a person when i am Zoe , so what does that say about me as a person , stuck between two worlds that of my male part and my female part , though i love being able to be both i feel more alive as Zoe , so was i meant to be female in my aspect or was i just unlucky to feel this way but to have been born male with large female tendencies Even though i do know at at some time i shall have to revert back to my male role i shall miss being nicely made up wearing something i think as pretty smelling nice with perfume the softer side of being female , i don't wear tights or stockings and female underwear because it has a sexual aspect of the fact that i am a man wearing it i wear it because to me it is natural and to me perfectly normal unfortunately society doesn't see it that way , it is the same as me wearing make up i love the smells the textures the end picture after i do my make up a softer person , even quite attractive in a female sort of way because that is what it is an illusion we as who we are try to achieve and i don't think i do such a bad job at it becuase i love being who i am as ZOE .