My World of Masturbation

With the exceptions of the times I've been placed in chastity, I have masturbated every day all my life. Sometimes several times a day. I usually masturbate in the morning, but really the urge can hit me at any time. Most of the time I start soft, get hard, and the beat it furiously for a minute or so until the job is done. It's not something erotic, rather more like a habit akin to brushing my teeth. I also have a more elaborate way of masturbating that I do when I have more time. More on that later.

I don't fuck anymore and doubt I'll ever have traditional intercourse again. I've had plenty of opportunities, but I don't see myself as someone who deserves to have his cock in a pussy. That's a job for real men with big cocks. I feel like someone who needs to be on the receiving end of thrusting rather than giving it. For about the last 15 years since my divorce, femdom has been my sexual outlet. I get beaten, get my ass fucked or pegged, suck on dildos or occasionally real cocks, I get humiliated and abused in some way. Sometimes it's with a lifestyle Domme, sometimes with a pro Domme, sometimes with a couple who are dominant, whatever. The recurring theme is that the people I am with are always in the dominant role. If I get to cum, it won't be in someone's pussy.

So when I masturbate, I don't fantasize about fucking. I fantasize about getting fucked in the ass, or whipped, or cucked, or humiliated, or pissed on, or something else where there is a dominant woman doing something nasty to me. For the most part I don't have faces in my head when I jack off. More like voices in my head commanding me what to do. Sure, if I've been watching porn and the scene is hot maybe a character will creep into my thoughts, but that's rare. The masturbation fantasy is more about the scene than someone I covet (sorry ladies, but it's the truth).

I have two ways of masturbating. As mentioned above, the first way is the quickie and can be done in about two minutes. The more elaborate way is that fuck my ass with a dildo or plug while fantasizing that someone else is doing the job. I start with small toys and get bigger and bigger, and finish with a large vibrating plug. My prostate swells and precum appears on the head of my penis. If I fuck myself for a long time eventually I'll cum without every touching my cock, but usually I'll give it a few strokes to help things along. If something is in my ass I cum harder, longer, and with more liquid.

Also, I practice eating my cum post orgasm because regularly that's something that's expected when a sub ejaculates. I don't like the taste of cum, but if I don't practice once in a while it's really hard to do post orgasm when I actually have a scene. It's like anything else, the more you do it, the better you get at it. Because I practice, I can eat my own cum without a disgusting look on my face.

Eventually, I hope to meet someone who will cure me of my masturbation habit by locking my cock in a chastity device and semi-retiring my penis. I say "semi" retire because prostate cancer runs in my family, and it's a good idea on occasion to clean out the pipes.

Of course, that can be done in many humiliating ways.....