Time to myself

My playmates have been very disappointed that I been choosing to spend my time alone. And yes toys can only do so much. I will never stop being perpetually horny or want sex. But when dealing with people makes it stressful or unsatisfying. I choose to be alone. I love sex, I love that I am such a sensual person. I have never been ashamed of my wants and needs .I love giving my partners what they need, fulfilling fantasy's. For a long time now it has lacked a real connection, I am truly a thing a beauty when I feel when I fuck! I don't just want to get off I want to experience pleasure and pain and feelings. Real life often leaves little time, add baggage and good old fashioned differences. The search becomes mind numbing. I just need time to reboot! build up my strength for next round of, great guy but to vanilla, or great sex but nothing in common or still hooked on an X or thinks I have no self respect and will accept being a side chick(NEVER btw) or major connection lives in a galaxy far far away or or or.