Hard to be me.

Hard times tonight. Really struggling with everything. At this moment I wish I was born with ability to be a man and go out and fight someone. Sod the stockings and pretty underwear, dresses etc. I wear it because it makes me feel like me but I'm not loving it tonight. I'm lost. A few months ago a female looked at my cock and suggested if mine had been bigger, I wouldn't be wearing female clothes etc. If I had a big, swinging, member I wouldn't feel so feminine, I joked about it afterward but I can see the logic. I'm lost and hurting.