What's Changed?
Some of you may be wondering why I've suddenly decided to start showing my face. Or I might be too full of myself by assuming people will care about what I do, in which case feel free to disregard this post. No hard feelings. :)
I've been closeted for years now. Most CDs and trans people have probably experienced the same thing, to various degrees. I probably won't ever come out completely to the point where I'm living like this openly, but recently I've been feeling the need to put myself out there a little more. I started growing my hair out several months ago, the results of which you can see in my new introduction photo and my new gallery, and I plan to grow it even longer.
I won't lie; doing this is probably the most frightening thing I've ever done. My instincts are screaming at me that this is a bad idea, that I'm an idiot for exposing myself like this to so many total strangers. There are so many ways this could come back to bite me in the ass and quite literally ruin my life. But at some point there has to be trust. Sometimes living a lie for so long just makes you feel sick and empty inside.
So while it was terrifying for me to do this, it's also very exciting. The general approval I've gotten so far helps me believe that maybe I'm not the deviant pervert I've always thought I was.
On a related note, I wanted to take this chance to thank everyone who has ever looked at and enjoyed my pictures, left flattering comments, and reached out to message me. I haven't always been very good about showing my appreciation, for which I apologize, but I'm still very thankful. You've all helped me feel attractive and desirable, which I can honestly say I've never felt before.
Thank you, everyone, and good luck to you all.
I've been closeted for years now. Most CDs and trans people have probably experienced the same thing, to various degrees. I probably won't ever come out completely to the point where I'm living like this openly, but recently I've been feeling the need to put myself out there a little more. I started growing my hair out several months ago, the results of which you can see in my new introduction photo and my new gallery, and I plan to grow it even longer.
I won't lie; doing this is probably the most frightening thing I've ever done. My instincts are screaming at me that this is a bad idea, that I'm an idiot for exposing myself like this to so many total strangers. There are so many ways this could come back to bite me in the ass and quite literally ruin my life. But at some point there has to be trust. Sometimes living a lie for so long just makes you feel sick and empty inside.
So while it was terrifying for me to do this, it's also very exciting. The general approval I've gotten so far helps me believe that maybe I'm not the deviant pervert I've always thought I was.
On a related note, I wanted to take this chance to thank everyone who has ever looked at and enjoyed my pictures, left flattering comments, and reached out to message me. I haven't always been very good about showing my appreciation, for which I apologize, but I'm still very thankful. You've all helped me feel attractive and desirable, which I can honestly say I've never felt before.
Thank you, everyone, and good luck to you all.
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