The Tortured Confessions of a Porn Widow

I've been a Porn Widow for about ten years now.
My husband is a lifelong Porn Addict who openly masturbates to Porn every night and NEVER touches me.
This is his "Bate Cave." He doesn't even try to hide it.

I'm miserable.
You see, I look nothing like these much younger, much more beautiful, much sexier Porn Stars he's addicted to. This is me (on the right with my s*ster).

I've always been plain-looking and invisible to men. I can't even DREAM of comparing or competing with glamourous THEM. My whole life, I wanted to look like them, but never did.

His addiction has destroyed my self-esteem, my self-worth.
Right now, I can hear him masturbating to THEM in his room.

I'm heartbroken. I'm crying. Weeping.
I don't think I can take much more than this. I have ZERO value to my husband and to society at large.
I may be physically unremarkable, but I am an accomplished woman with a master's degree in fine arts; I tutor disadvantaged inner city c***dren for FREE. Why am I not valued?
But those PORN WHORES are loved, worshipped and adored by HIM and MILLIONS & MILLIONS of men worldwide simply because they're physically PERFECT? How is that fair?!?



I'm at my wit's end. I don't know if I want to live in such a sexist, misogynistic world anymore.
WAIT! What are those voices? OMG, he has WHORES in there with him! OMG! It sounds like they're all FUCKING!
OMG! OMG! OMG!
I AM FREAKING OUT!

I just heard him CUM loudly. OMG, I soooooo wish it was me he's was cumming with, but as I've said, he hasn't touched me in years.
My self-esteem is DESTROYED. I feel totally undesirable as a woman (Editor's note: Got that right bitch:))
I've never felt more suicidal. I am a TOTAL FAILURE as a supposed "woman."
My eyes are flowing with tears. I reach for the bottle of sleeping pills I've had stashed for just this exact moment.
I GOBBLE down the whole bottle with my comforter - my red wine.
The pills kick in quickly and I start to pass out in blissful, PAINLESS u*********sness.
The first peace I've felt in years.
But then suddenly, the door to his bate-cave is VIOLENTLY flung open and the three physically PERFECT WHORES emerge with evil smirks on their GORGEOUS faces. They all have handguns aimed directly at me ...


TO BE CONTINUED ....