MY LIFE AS I SEE IT TODAY

   I have never done anything like this before and I will be honest as I can be as it just seems natural for me to lie and I think a lot of people do most just don't recognize it. One thing that I do know is that I am not very smart although I figured out early that happiness is key to a good life and keeping your body in shape and having great friends and family. Now I have been fighting alcohol and d**g addiction since I was 11yrs old I was pretty much a full blown alcoholic by 14 and it was tough getting to 21 years old when I went to rehab although I did straighten up completely for about a year I have demons in me that just like to party so I quit drinking altogether as I was going to kill myself or worse someone else and if you have never had to battle any kind of addiction feel very blessed although we all have our demons as much as I hate addiction it is treatable given the person accepts the help me I just can’t seem to get it but without alcohol life is so much easier now don't get me wrong all I mostly did from 21 until 47 was smoke weed to me no big deal although I have been doing going on close to 40 years do I wish I never picked anything up I don't know the answer because I don't think I would have made it without it and again you either understand or you don't about the chaos going on in my head so without the numbing I don't think I would have ever been as happy as I have been because through the years I have always stayed true to myself and the way I was brought up Yeah I do a lot of sinning or whatever you want to call and I do have a good relationship with what I call God but who is to say doing d**gs and having wild sex is so wrong just for something to look at mmm wonder why but if its two adults and with me sometimes just one I don't give a fuck I always cum when I'm alone if I'm with someone and it just not totally right its hard I can go all night it’s just Cumming so I need some help in that area so anyway I'm not going to tell you my life story but I have a few slip ups that were scary along the way and as I get older I seem to like d**gs even better now don't get me wrong I'm not walking around all high all day I have a busy life I run my own company have two k**s they are pretty much gone out of my house at this point but with that my son moved out because I kind of lost control on some halogenics. He was out of town but when he got home he had no idea where I was and neither did I so I got clean for a year or so but again I like to party and if I can keep it under control I'm good but as any good d**g addict or alcoholic knows it’s just a matter of time before we do something stupid so I really try to watch myself
enough of that I don't really care what people think of me anyway I'm over that shit I try every day to be a good person to everyone and myself and I try to do better on a daily basis and really I think that what life is about helping each other when we can