Important

It has been quite some time since I have been on here and I'm sorry for that.  It has been a brutal year for me and unfortunately it's just the beginning.  In January I took a trip to the Caribbean where I visited an orphanage and an outpost in a jungle area of a small island.  Unbeknownst to me, on that trip I contracted malaria.  It went undiagnosed for 6 months (think parasites squirming around your liver and intestines).  While going through treatment for that, I ended up with a brain aneurysm that was on the verge of rupturing.  I was having wicked headaches every day.  That was taken care of surgically but I ended up with amnesia.  It was odd not even remembering my name.  Needless to say I wasn't online and literally had to be taken care of 24/7.  That was NOT fun!  I am an independent person and hate asking people for help.  Finally started to recover my memories and healed from all of that.  I was so drained from all of that it was all I could do to just get up from bed and go to the bathroom.  A few weeks later, I was hit again from left field.  A routine obgyn visit led to a concern, which led to testing, which led to having to have a surgical procedure the day before Thanksgiving to test for cancer.  Earlier this week I was told I was stage 1A and needed a full hysterectomy in order to thwart any progression of the disease.   Currently I am waiting to hear back from the surgeon on when that will be scheduled.  I shared all of this not to make anyone feel sorry for me because I don't need or want that!  I am sharing so certain people will understand my absence and quietness.  It wasn't done intentionally.  I have missed all of the wonderful friends I have made through the bdsm community.  I have missed being ravaged!  I have missed a lot of other things that those who truly know me will understand.  So here is where I am now.... while bdsm will always be a big part of me, I must remove myself from being available.  I must step back and focus on my health and getting myself back to a place where I can offer my cunt up for use again.  I will be around from time to time as I am sure an escape from my current reality will be a much needed break.  I will continue to support the people and the blogs that I have come to love.  I will be around from time to time for chatting and sharing stories.  However, don't be mad when I am not around for weeks or months at a time.  Please be understanding that I can't meet as I am under strict doctor orders for "no intercourse" (yes, I bawled like a baby when she told me that!).  I hope my supporters and friends will understand.  If not, please just unfriend me, delete me, unfollow me.  I always put men, their needs, their entertainment, their pleasure first...ALWAYS.  But now I have to focus on me so I can hopefully get back to a point where I can focus on men again.  Please be patient.  I just got my phone back yesterday, but it will be turned off shortly so the only way to get ahold of me is online.  Thank you for your understanding, your love, and your support.  I love you all.