Me as a cuck!!!

I'm very interested of coukold lifestyle, I wanna be cucokld who is domineted by his bull and hotwife it make me very horny.
I've tried to talk about her about it but dont now how. I dont wanna make her mad and even could lave me
I've showed her some films with bbc and hubbys and told her look how big he is and how she is good fuck
she tell wow he is very big how this girl can fit his cock in her, and I said u wanna the same? beacuse I cant do it?
she told me practice make you better and let me put my penis in her, when i put in her pussy she most of the time dont feel him and ask me if he is in her alrady
I'm soft (maybe not so but not max hard) even when I cum
She wasnt even one time good fucked by me with my penis all the time we are togheter
........... that my story what u wanna more more just ask? if u are not interested and think it's waste of time tell me to so we end and I will try to search more