Love to be watched and watch other

I have a real ..... pleasure form being watched and watching others enjoy me

I am however very ... nervous to take it to the next level, around the home I am always naked however only when the wife is out, I would love to explore the nudist life style more, but and a) afraid she would freak and b) if she did say yes, worry about being aroused around people I shouldnt be. especially if she is with me, thoughts and comments?