Questioning the psychology of getting caught
This is basically a question of having a fetish and being able to satisfy it but then wanting something more and inexplicable, things that could easily put an end to our desires. What is with this rush of exposure and our fantasies designed around it?
I was having a rather involved and lengthy chat with a like-minded pantyboy recently. Seems we both have deep-seated needs to be caught by our Mom's while masturbating in her underwear.
Now the physical pleasures of slippery soft, buttery smooth nylon panties and slips is obvious. This is the obvious and explicable side of our fetish. Anyone can understand it. It feels good, plain and simple. Of course, if it were that simple, any piece of nylon or satin would do, and as many of us know, this is just simply not the case.
While it varies from person to person, the fact that it's panties (or slips, or other lingerie) and not just a piece of silky material is huge. The integral thing here is that it's women's clothing. I think this is something we all have in common from guys who like to just playing with panties, to those who wear it, to cds and even tv's and ts's- there's the psychological aspect of women's clothing- a sensualness and a sexiness.
Of course, as youngsters, we are too confused to understand even basic sexuality-and sexuality is plenty confusing for adults!. Young k**s are repulsed by adults kissing, finding it 'yucky' and no one ever wants to think of their parents having sex! LOL
But somehow we get it. Not only does it feel good but it's all about sexuality- something for any of us, whatever the fetish is, that ties into sexuality. It's easy to see the attraction to panties and their role in intimacy and sexuality. And, by way of extension, the same roles for any women's clothing, or even wilder fetish items and behaviors I would guess. Something just triggers us sexually and we are hooked into it at an early age, whatever that imprinting is.
And whatever is imprinted is imprinted deeply. I'd dare say out fetish is probably the hugest part of life and internal make up. I could change a lot of things about my behavior but I know I could never give up my fetish. That would just be impossible.
But my friend and I were debating the matter of wanting to be caught- and specifically caught by our Mother's- and caught while masturbating in their silky underwear! On the face of it, this is nuts! What is there to gain from it? We were already getting away with it- sneaking our Mom's panties and lingerie almost freely. What was there to gain by bringing it to the light?
This is at the heart of the discussion. By trying to bring it out in the open we were inviting much needed dialogue to help grasp what was going on in our lives. This was a powerful, all-consuming force that sent me out of control by puberty. It now was no longer enough to just sneak my Mom's panties and slips freely, I had wanted her to catch me in her underwear- and I wanted her to catch me as I was masturbating, just about to explode in her silky panties.
I was going crazy trying to figure out why I had these fantasies and was beginning to act on them. Being caught should only mean bringing it to Mom's attention (if she didn't already know before), getting her upset or even angry, and being punished in some way for this misbehavior. I probably risked even having an end put to my relative freedom to access her silky underwear.
So why was it so important for me to take these risks that lead to getting caught? What drove me to do these things that made no sense? Why was I desperately trying to shove this in Mom's face and make her get involved in it?
I seemed to live for that shocking moment when Mom walks in on me unawares and catches me as I about to cum in her silky panties. The sight of her shocks both her and me and as she looks down I begin to explode in her silky panties. I had tons and tons of fantasizes like this and did a few things to try to line this up but it never worked that way. And yet, still, I was driven to do these things. Why?
Would being caught in panties by a wife, girlfriend or maybe even a stranger be the same? Maybe. There would certainly be the shock factor and the adrenaline rush! LOL But there might also be a divorce, breakup or law involvement depending on the person and circumstance! LOL Or there might be a very pleasant outcome, too, and that it what keeps our fantasies alive.
But again, it goes back to wanting to be caught doing something naughty, doing it for what seems like apparently nothing to gain and everything to lose. What is integral to this situation here? And for some I imagine, it is even specific to Mom catching us. I know it is for me. But we had a dynamic that had built up over the years.
Maybe it centers around the initial experience(s). For me, I had access to Mom's lingerie which consisted almost solely of padded bras, slips and panties- all white, and all slippery smooth nylon. For others it may be aunts or sisters or other articles of clothing depending on circumstances.
But again, what is it about being caught like this? For myself and several others it ties into our feeling of shame, humiliation, guilt and embarrassment. Getting caught triggers the physiological adrenaline rush, programmed to a large amount by your beliefs and feelings. Doing something so taboo and naughty is huge and the rush is commensurate.
The feelings of humiliation, guilt and shame come flooding in as the intense orgasm fades away and there were, feeling sickened and ashamed by what we have done- again! But we are not in control, not by any means. We are controlled by the panties. This fetish- like many, or maybe all of them, is addicting and all powerful. It controls our lives and drives us to do things that can be viewed as rather naughty.
So why do we seem to go out of our way to invite all these other factors in and why are we so hard wired for them? Why shouldn't a simple patch of nylon or satin be enough? Why does it need to involve all the other things- panties, slips, Mom, pantyboys.... What is at the heart of all this naughtiness and exposure and humiliation?
I was having a rather involved and lengthy chat with a like-minded pantyboy recently. Seems we both have deep-seated needs to be caught by our Mom's while masturbating in her underwear.
Now the physical pleasures of slippery soft, buttery smooth nylon panties and slips is obvious. This is the obvious and explicable side of our fetish. Anyone can understand it. It feels good, plain and simple. Of course, if it were that simple, any piece of nylon or satin would do, and as many of us know, this is just simply not the case.
While it varies from person to person, the fact that it's panties (or slips, or other lingerie) and not just a piece of silky material is huge. The integral thing here is that it's women's clothing. I think this is something we all have in common from guys who like to just playing with panties, to those who wear it, to cds and even tv's and ts's- there's the psychological aspect of women's clothing- a sensualness and a sexiness.
Of course, as youngsters, we are too confused to understand even basic sexuality-and sexuality is plenty confusing for adults!. Young k**s are repulsed by adults kissing, finding it 'yucky' and no one ever wants to think of their parents having sex! LOL
But somehow we get it. Not only does it feel good but it's all about sexuality- something for any of us, whatever the fetish is, that ties into sexuality. It's easy to see the attraction to panties and their role in intimacy and sexuality. And, by way of extension, the same roles for any women's clothing, or even wilder fetish items and behaviors I would guess. Something just triggers us sexually and we are hooked into it at an early age, whatever that imprinting is.
And whatever is imprinted is imprinted deeply. I'd dare say out fetish is probably the hugest part of life and internal make up. I could change a lot of things about my behavior but I know I could never give up my fetish. That would just be impossible.
But my friend and I were debating the matter of wanting to be caught- and specifically caught by our Mother's- and caught while masturbating in their silky underwear! On the face of it, this is nuts! What is there to gain from it? We were already getting away with it- sneaking our Mom's panties and lingerie almost freely. What was there to gain by bringing it to the light?
This is at the heart of the discussion. By trying to bring it out in the open we were inviting much needed dialogue to help grasp what was going on in our lives. This was a powerful, all-consuming force that sent me out of control by puberty. It now was no longer enough to just sneak my Mom's panties and slips freely, I had wanted her to catch me in her underwear- and I wanted her to catch me as I was masturbating, just about to explode in her silky panties.
I was going crazy trying to figure out why I had these fantasies and was beginning to act on them. Being caught should only mean bringing it to Mom's attention (if she didn't already know before), getting her upset or even angry, and being punished in some way for this misbehavior. I probably risked even having an end put to my relative freedom to access her silky underwear.
So why was it so important for me to take these risks that lead to getting caught? What drove me to do these things that made no sense? Why was I desperately trying to shove this in Mom's face and make her get involved in it?
I seemed to live for that shocking moment when Mom walks in on me unawares and catches me as I about to cum in her silky panties. The sight of her shocks both her and me and as she looks down I begin to explode in her silky panties. I had tons and tons of fantasizes like this and did a few things to try to line this up but it never worked that way. And yet, still, I was driven to do these things. Why?
Would being caught in panties by a wife, girlfriend or maybe even a stranger be the same? Maybe. There would certainly be the shock factor and the adrenaline rush! LOL But there might also be a divorce, breakup or law involvement depending on the person and circumstance! LOL Or there might be a very pleasant outcome, too, and that it what keeps our fantasies alive.
But again, it goes back to wanting to be caught doing something naughty, doing it for what seems like apparently nothing to gain and everything to lose. What is integral to this situation here? And for some I imagine, it is even specific to Mom catching us. I know it is for me. But we had a dynamic that had built up over the years.
Maybe it centers around the initial experience(s). For me, I had access to Mom's lingerie which consisted almost solely of padded bras, slips and panties- all white, and all slippery smooth nylon. For others it may be aunts or sisters or other articles of clothing depending on circumstances.
But again, what is it about being caught like this? For myself and several others it ties into our feeling of shame, humiliation, guilt and embarrassment. Getting caught triggers the physiological adrenaline rush, programmed to a large amount by your beliefs and feelings. Doing something so taboo and naughty is huge and the rush is commensurate.
The feelings of humiliation, guilt and shame come flooding in as the intense orgasm fades away and there were, feeling sickened and ashamed by what we have done- again! But we are not in control, not by any means. We are controlled by the panties. This fetish- like many, or maybe all of them, is addicting and all powerful. It controls our lives and drives us to do things that can be viewed as rather naughty.
So why do we seem to go out of our way to invite all these other factors in and why are we so hard wired for them? Why shouldn't a simple patch of nylon or satin be enough? Why does it need to involve all the other things- panties, slips, Mom, pantyboys.... What is at the heart of all this naughtiness and exposure and humiliation?
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