My evolution to submission 2 interest in gayloving

I always loved to jerk off with hot porn almost as long as I can remember. Although I had a fetish about panties, I never had any homo erotic experiences in my development years. I would borrow my mother's panties and would stroke myself with them, and when I had enough privacy, would wear them as I stroked. The closest I ever came to an encounter with another male one was in my later teens, when I was involved with a couple a few years younger than I was. I fucked the girl with the guys permission: they wanted to jumpstart their relationship, and I was happy to oblige. We hung out together, but it was only once that we got into bed together, along with another girl. I was in such an amorous mood that at one point, I tentatively approached the guy, just tenderly stroking his arm. He, however, was too uptight and it went no further, to his girlfriend's disappointment. If we had gone further, making out, or stroking each other's cocks, or perhaps even if it went so far as to sucking, things may have turned differently, if I had enjoyed any of that in any way. As it were, I did not consider same-sex intimacy for most of my life. When I reached the fifties, beginning first with a fascination with shemales, I did occassionally feel a twinge when I saw men, especially older, slightly overweight men in bikini-type bathing suits, or when teen, or p*****n boys dressed up, mainly during halloween, in dresses or skirts, especially when they's act feminine and/or sluttily. I then began concentrating more on videos and pictures of lady boys, and then femboys, interacting with men, wishing I was the guy blowing the femboy cock, or getting fucked by a feminine girly boy with a big dick, along with stories of same. It was not until my mid sixties that I started looking at hard dicks on older men and boys and fantasizing about submitting to them. I switched from jerking into a tissue to cumming into my hand or something solid so I could eat my own love cream. I started to like the taste more and more, but it was always after I came, when I was no longer that horny, that I'd lick the remnants of my act of self-love. If I liked the taste even in an post horny stage, I wondered how sweet the experience would be were I to receive a taste of sperm directly from a lovely, hard dick. And so my quest began...

I was particularly turned on by the idea of submitting myself to a guy, and becoming so intimate that we'd not only make out and suck each other, but I would spread my legs for him and receive his penis and sperm inside my body. I also entertained putting my hard dick inside a man-pussy and fucking him until we cumm together.

So here I am, finally becoming part of the xhamster community, communicating with like-minded and lovely horny guys.