Why Im On Xhamster

I was married for 14 years. I had a career but helped my husband set up his dream by working for free on days off and investing our money into his project initially. My husband met a woman who would become a business advisor for his new shop and the moment i saw her sat there i knew I was in trouble (or my marriage was), I just got a bad feeling in my stomach. She had a partner of several years and they lived together. They both became friends to me and my husband. My husband and her, had a stronger friendship though. After a year into the friendship I started to feel excluded, especially as my husband lied about spending a weekend with her when he said other friends would be there and they never turned up (they where holed up in a cottage with mutual c***dren whilst i was working). After this my suspicions rose and i was never easy, often telling him so but he would say they where just friends and they had business ideas in common. I made sure he was not alone with her, or so I thought. I think my husband arranged to met her a lot of times for coffee and walks as a friend that I was not aware of. I went part time in my job so I could free up more time to be with my husband, and work in his shop and devote more time to the things he was interested in, and do things together, but he always wanted to do things with this other couple. He rejected coming on holiday with our son's using work commitments as an excuse and once i was away he went on holiday with them. We went to a music festival and a brave friend told me to be aware that their friendship seemed to intense and she thought it was on the verge of an affair, she had seen it (she worked in the shop). I confronted my husband and asked him to stop contact or our marriage was over. He obliged and said there was nothing going on though, but then a month later she sent him a text and it ignited the whole thing again but with much more intensity. From what I figure he told her his feelings where changing a month after this and he was falling in love, she never walked away. By new year i was so miserable in the relationship due to him shouting at me, ignoring me, constantly drinking and looking at his downturned mouth that I wrote him a letter to say we had to either fix this properly or split. He stated he did not love me anymore and left. A month after he left i prompted him to tell me the truth as i felt men don’t just leave good wives, he told me he was in love with this friend. So he never come back, there was no chance of reconciliation. It is eight months on now and only now has he stated (after me pushing confirmation) that he is with her in a romantic way. I am very much angry at him for his betrayal and lack of love, and her because she pretended to be a friend to me and was after my husband. I think she saw that he was giving, caring and supportive and wanted that too. Her partner also left his wife to be with her.

So time has passed and tbh ive actually become quite comfortable being free and single. I recently (due to peer pressure more than anything) got a tinder account, i am interested in meeting new guys and seeing how it goes.
Ill be using Xhamster to share pictures and maybe some videos and chat.