Fantasy I am Willing and Ready to Make Happen

I am actually looking for someone to help me fulfill a fantasy I have had since high school. I want to find someone to organize a group bondage roleplay session where I am tied up naked in a secluded place by someone who wants revenge against me. They gather as many people as they can, male and female. I am blindfolded the entire time and for two days they can do anything they want to me. I really mean no limits. I would never see anyone faces. All would be strangers.
The women would be haters of men and would use me as an effigy to release their anger and focus it on what makes me a male. I imagine one whispering into my ear "you will wish you never had this!" while violently squeezing my balls. The guys would all be ex cons for violent offences and sociopaths that get off on making others feel pain and humiliation in a sexual way. Of course it is all roleplay, but one or two sadistic members would be interesting. It would be an added bonus to have it broadcast live on the web where the people watching can suggest to the group things to do to me and cheer for them and demean and verbally torment me.

  I know its crazy, but I really want to feel what that would be like. Tried something like that with some friends willing to do it, but it was not the same, I knew them and knew their limits. I don't want to know how far people would go, I need to feel authentically terrified.


any takers, let me know in through private messages or if you feel okay with it in the comments. Thought about it alot and am willing and able to travel anywhere.