Need advice from a CD/TS/Sissy. BBC here.

I used to be married, was with her 18 years to be exact. Divorced now, amicable split she left the state for work I wanted to stay in MD. Now I'm looking for something new sexually. The sex was very basic, she wouldn't try anything kinky or out of the norm. I never cheated just made the best out of the situation. Now that I'm single was looking at porn here and discovered sissies. I've never experienced sliding my BBC in someone's back door. I figured sissies had no choice. Plus sissies look so fun and seems a sissy will do what regular women won't. Not looking to sleep around as I am clean, one partner I'm attracted to and have a few things in common with (drinking, 420 but not required) would be perfect. The last person I was with was my ex and that was two years ago so I'm very horny these days and my hand can only do so much. Hope the right person reads this and reaches out to me. I'm very laid back, non-judgmental, nice looking and athletic. Surely someone wants me right?